16 April 2005

Day 1

So Day 1 is now over. It didn't go as well as I hoped but it wasn't all that bad.

I ate well, not including the cake at lunch, the bratwurst and the 2 pieces of cake tonight. Hey, it was my birthday!!!!

I did run 2.3 miles this morning and I swam after walking the dogs and did weights and functional training. So I feel excellent about the exercise.

So while today wasn't perfect it was a start and the main idea is to be accountable.

14 April 2005

Tomorrow is my birthday!!!!

I turn 46. I really can't believe I'm that old. I don't really feel any different than I did when I was 16 but in some ways I feel completly and totally different; like I'm not even the same person. I don't really like birthdays. I never really understood why exactly we celebrate them. Are we happy we survived another year?? Are we celebrating the fact that we didn't kill ourselves or anyone else in the last year? I really don't get it. It's not like I did anything. I understand, and like, New Year's because it's a new beginning. A birthday is just another day in the life. I'm gonna get up and go to work tomorrow just like regular. Not much will change, I'll just be older. UGH!!!!!!

I have decided to make tomorrow a new start. I have come far from last year at this time but I'm not where I want to be yet. So I have decided to make this year my year. Starting tomorrow I am into a total training program. I will eat "clean" and exercise everyday (on rest days I'll just walk or something). Strength training 3x a week and stretching/functional execises every single night. I want to have a firm, sculpted body, with a low percentage of body fat. Working hard is the only way I'm going to get that. So tomorrow I turn 46 and start my lifetime program of health.

Happy birthday to me :)

13 April 2005

Okay, so I went from a super high on Sunday to

the dregs last night and today. I just don't understand why I can't find consistency. I try so hard and then suddenly it all falls apart.

So Monday I took off because of my very busy weekend and that felt good. I should note that I kind of ate whatever I wanted on Sunday though I wasn't toooo bad. Yesterday I got up and ran for 3 miles. Actually it was more of a walk/run but I put in 3 miles and that was the point. My right knee was acting up a little all day. It's not pain just a feeling like something is a little out of whack there. Anyway, Charlie wasn't home last night and I had every intention of doing a serious workout; strength and functional. On the way home I stopped at Safeway to pick up something for dinner and that was the end of my best plans. I decided I would get something for dessert and one of their large cookies really sounded good. As I walked around I talked myself into getting the new Jello Sundaes (which are only 100 calories) and I was very proud of myself. So what did I do next?? Walked over to the cookies and got not one, but two. I checked out and then threw the cookies on the front seat. Well, suffice it to say neither cookie made it home alive. I felt so full and disgusted with myself that I ended up not exercising. But, on the positive side, I did get large areas of my room clean :) I picked up Lean Cuisine's Skillet Sensations for dinner and it was quite good. Only 4 points. Not bad at all. That and a Jello Sundae and I was done for the evening. Or so I thought. A bowl of Kashi Go Lean heavy on the sugar was to be had before the night was over. I really felt disgusted with myself... I don't know why I do this but it really pisses me off.

I got up this morning and did Karen Voight's Personal Best. I did it better then I've ever done it before. I really jumped on the jumping parts; I worked the weights hard; and pushed the abs. It felt really good. I also decided to start journaling again so opened FitDay and jumped right in. So today is DAY ONE. I will blog every day for the next 15 days and I will stick to my program. I have my birthday and a Jimmy Buffett concert in that time but I have to get used to living my life with this program.

Okay, I feel better. Tonight I will post the results of today; calories and exercise. I will do this, I will be accountable to myself.......

10 April 2005


I DID IT!!! I can't believe it but I did it. I did 2 10K's back to back.

Saturday was the Ford Island Bridge 10K. I've always wanted to do that but for one reason or another never had a chance to. Yesterday was a beautiful day and I finally got to do it. I did the run in 1:10 - it was awesome. It was a hot day and I was getting sick to my stomach towards the end but I did it :)

Today was the inaugral Jamba Juice Rock around the Park. That started at Niketown on Kalakaua and went down to Kapioloni Park and around the park. They had a 5K option and a 10K option. The 5k did one lap of the park; the 10k did 2. When I signed up I was feeling pretty brave and signed up for the 10k even though I had a 10k the day before. When I got up this morning I was feeling a little nervous. My right knee was a tiny bit sore and I was just feeling like I might be crazy. But I overcame my nervousness and got to the start line (Charlie got up early and came with me:)

Having decided I was absolutely crazy for doing this, the race began. I started off with a little pain in my knee and I wasn't sure how it would go. I kept telling myself I can always walk. The whole idea behind this race was a band every mile and it was quite fun. Once I got into my groove I was going and doing great. They had aid stations every mile and I would stop and walk and drink water. Before I knew it I was on the last leg. I decided to pick it up and go strong for the finish. As I was coming into the finish line the announcer was saying that if I picked it up I could beat 1:08. I thought, that's almost 3 minutes faster than yesterday. So I reached deep down inside and pulled out something (I have no idea where it came from) and turned on the after burner. I crossed the finish before the clock read 1:08 and I could not have been happier. Not only did I complete 2 10k's in 2 days I beat my time the 2nd day. I'm stoked.

After the race we went out to breakfast and to work. We then came home and have been lying around the house watching soaps. I actually feel pretty good. I'm tired from the exertion of the past 2 days but otherwise feel great. Tomorrow is a total off day for me. I'm resetting the alarm so I get to sleep in and I'm not doing any exercise. Tuesday I'll start all over again but tomorrow it's all about rest.

I think I underestimate myself a lot. I tend to think I can't do things because I used to be fat and that's turning out to just not be true. I need to work on my mental game. I think I could do really well maybe even place in my age group if I was more confident of myself.

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