07 May 2005

Okay, one more time with feeling.....

Well, I'm back on track again. Last week I did absolutely awesome in exercise but my eating pretty much sucked.... As a result I was up 1.2 lbs. I have to keep close tabs on my eating. There's just no way around it. So I'm back to journaling every little thing that enters my mouth. My immediate goal is to reach 155. That's all I want and I really believe I can do it if I just focus and get some consistency........

Okay. So now that that's over...... Today was a really good day. First, I seem to have conquered the dreaded Thursday meltdown. I have been handling Thursdays fairly well for a few weeks now and I feel really good about that.

Now I'm getting a grip on the weekend. Usually if I don't exercise in the morning on Saturdays I don't exercise at all. Well, today I had a bunch of errands to run and didn't have time to exercise in the morning. When I got home I ate lunch and then got Charlie to walk the dogs a little early and I went for a swim, then did my bootcamp workout and stretching. I feel awesome. Tomorrow I have a race in the morning. I actually have 2 races. One I registered for but they moved from Saturday to Sunday and one that's being held by MPRRC. I want to do the MPRRC one, it's a 10k and I really want to do it. But the other race is only a 5k and there are not that many people in it so I have a great chance of winning something. I think I'm leaning towards the 5k. I know it's a cheesy reason but hey, I could win something.........

05 May 2005

So Far So Good!!!

Yesterday morning I got up and did Crunch Dance Party - that DVD is just fun!!! Then last night I did my BootCamp workout again. That is just such a kickass workout, I can't believe I didn't come up with it sooner. By the time I was done my legs were shaking and I was covered in sweat :) It was great and I felt awesome.....

This morning I got up and ran. The plan was to run for 40 minutes. I put my heart rate monitor on for some reason (I've been thinking about using it again lately just never did) and did my run watching my heart rate. Towards the end I felt weird. My heart felt like it was beating strangely and my breathing was a little constricted. I thought maybe my monitor strap was too tight so I loosened it up but that didn't really help. I ended up walking for a bit (about 5 minutes I think) and when I was finally done I was shaking like I was having a sugar reaction. I had not eaten any sugar before working out, only my banana as usual, so I don't know what could have caused that reaction. I did have 2 cookies last night but that should have been gone by then. I don't know what it was but it was freaky.

On a really good note; I did resist another cookie this morning. There were 2 chocolate macadamia nut and 1 chocolate chip cookies sitting on the counter staring at me. I resisted them and stuck them in the freezer and left for work. I'm afraid they will be calling my name all day though. I need to get them off my mind so I don't eat them when I get home (that's why I stuck them in the freezer so I won't see them!!!!).

Okay, I should get to work....

03 May 2005

I'm searching for consistency!!!

That's really all I want out of my life at this point - consistency!!! Sunday and Monday morning I felt like I'd never exercise again. Last night I did my kickass bootcamp workout and this morning I couldn't wait to get up and run. Don't know exactly what turns the desire to exercise on/off I just wish I could get it to stay on...

I can't let my mood affect my workouts ( I know this is part of the problem). For the last couple of days I have been worrying about money. It will work out but things are tight and will be for a couple of weeks. Last night a light shown through the darkness and I felt slightly relieved. This translated into a totally killer workout. This morning I felt great and while running realized I need to focus on the positive and not the negative so much. So, even though I've said this before, I need to quote positive things everyday.

The biggies are: I get to live in Hawaii
I get to live in a house on the beach in Hawaii
I have my dogs who love me unconditionally and my husband who mostly does too :)
I have a good job that I enjoy.

I need to keep these things in mind. Money may be tight but I am very, very lucky and need to keep that in focus at all times.

I guess I should go get some work done now....

02 May 2005

I just did the most amazing workout!!!!

It was awesome.

Here's what happened. Saturday I kind of wussed out on my trail run. I was out for 1.5 hours but I mostly walked not ran. Sunday was just too beautiful and we spent most of the day on the beach - it was unreal.... This morning I couldn't drag my butt out of bed so I didn't exercise. All day I was thinking I really needed to do my strength training and since Charlie was going out I figured I had no excuses. So after Charlie left I dragged out the treadmill and the weights out. My plan was to walk/run for 1/2 an hour then do weights. Well, once I started I really didn't feel like doing that so I warmed up for 10 minutes then started the strength portion. I did my sets and then ran 1 minute between sets. It was a great workout and I felt awesome when I was done. That is a great, great workout and I plan to do that one every strength night.

I feel awesome.... A great way to get back on track......

Do great for a week then fall apart.

That seems to be my mode of operation. This week though I think there are some underlying factors contributing to my fall from grace. My tooth is a dull ache that constantly there and flares up with deep breathing or eating or drinking. Exercsie causes me to breath heavy through my mouth resulting in pain. I think subconsiously I'm avoiding the pain by not exercising. I did enjoy a great lazy day yesterday. We layed around the beach all day; it was wonderful.......

Now, on to my real problem. I'm in a severe financial jam and I'm not sure how to get out of it. A screw up 3 weeks ago is having repercussions now and I just don't know what to do. I need to figure out how to get out of this mess as quickly as possible. I can just feel my stomach all knotty and yucky. This is not going to be a good day or week.......

The key to change is awareness

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