02 June 2005

I'm really pissed and need to blow off some steam,

I sure wish I could run!!!

I have a situation and I'm just sick and tired of it. The reader's digest version is that I have a dispute with a company that says I owe X dollars while I say I owe Y dollars. A collection agency has gotten involved and the guy is just such as ASS I can't stand it. I sent him a check for part of it (the part I agree with) and for 2 months he didn't cash it. I sent him letters and e-mails asking if he got the check - no answer. So I stopped payment on the it. I didn't want some check for a few hundred dollars floating around out there. Well today he calls and leaves this rude angry message and threatening us with legal action and everything. I just blasted him back with an e-mail calling him just about every name I could think of and telling him to bring it on. Luckily I have all kinds of documentation to back up my claim but I don't know if it will hold up in a court. Anyway, this guy just makes me so angry. I told him I won't deal with him anymore; someone else needs to handle my case. I don't really care if he takes me to court. I'm not paying what I don't owe no matter who tells me to pay it. Jeez, does he think I've never had a judgement against me???? Pleezzzeee..... Anyway, enough of him....

Today I succumbed to the Thursday curse. I haven't fallen for it in weeks but today it got me. I had to run some errands at work due to one person being out sick and in my journeys I stopped at Big K to see if they had my air cast. Well, as soon as I enter the store (actually while driving there) I start thinking about candy. Now, I have to explain something; I never used to like candy much. When I was thin (back in the dark ages) I was not a candy person and was damn proud of the fact that I could go for 6 months without eating candy. Lately though, whenever I go into a store I think of candy. I have to stop that; I need to get back into the "I don't eat candy" mode. Maybe that's what I'll do, just keep saying I don't eat candy.

On a better note, my ankle feels great!! There is only a tiny area of swelling and I can rotate the foot a full 360 degrees and there is no pain at all. I think I'll live. As hard as it's been taking all this time off exercise, I think it paid off. Now if I can track down an air cast for the race sunday I'll be all set. I don't eat candy.......

Okay, that's all for now. I don't eat candy......

01 June 2005

It's day 5 of my self imposed rest break

and it's really killing me. Finally, the swelling in my ankle has gone away completely. It's feeling really good this morning so by the weekend I should be just fine.

I have a 5k on Sunday and I'm going to do it. On Saturday I'm going to Wal-Mart to get an air cast so I can run. The following weekend I have a 1/2 marathon - that's going to be a little tougher but I'm going to do it. I can't sit around much longer it's really driving me crazy and an air cast will allow me to run without injuring my ankle again. So that's it....

I must say though my eating is really going well. Since I can't exercise I've had to watch my food intake and it's been really good. I've been eating lots of fruit (at least 3 servings a day) and have really upped my veggie intake. I started the week bloated at 164 -gasp- but have dropped back down to 161.5 today (I knew it wasn't real weight just a hangover from the eating binge this weekend).

Well, I guess I should get ready for work.......

30 May 2005

Yet another change of plans......

I've been sitting out back on the beach all morning and I've come to another decision. I've been racking my brains trying to figure out what exercise I can do with this ankle because I haven't gone more than 1 or 2 days without exercising in at least a year. Let me repeat; at least a year!!! I think it's high time I took some time off to completely recover. So I've decided to take this entire week off. No exercise whatsoever!!!

I was also thinking about how I actually lost weight at the beginning of WW without any real exercise. So I decided to spend this week and focus on my eating. I will journal religously and work on getting my eating back in line. Then when I start exercising again I'll be all ready with the eating plan :)

Okay, I feel much better about this ankle now....

Okay, a change of plans yet again.

So last night in my frustration I decided to ride my bike and strength training until my ankle is better. Well, that's not going to happen. I woke up this morning and both sides of the ankle and across the top of the foot is swollen. So that plan has been scrapped. The new plan is to swim, if I can without pain, upper body strenght training and seriously watching my food intake. Okay, that's my plan for this week. I think I'll be fine I'm just seriously bummed I can't exercise. But, I really think I need to let it heal properly before I try. Okay, that's it, nuff said......

Here's Rocco under the tree. He appears to be a little more lively than Nala. He of course doesn't run around as much as she does; he's 8 years old after all..

Here's a close up of Nala laying under the coconut tree. Notice the high levels of lethargy she is displaying. This was after swimming and chasing a stick in the hot sun..

Here we are trying to get a good family picture; didn't really work.. The kids wouldn't stay put and the sun was in the wrong place and the camera wouldn't take the picture at the right times; god it was fun....

29 May 2005


Here is what we all did today. It's kind of hard to see but the dogs are laying under the coconut tree in the shade. It was really hot today and they would dig holes in the sand and then lay in them..

I love long weekends.......

I rarely get 2 days in a row off and I just love it when it happens. I reallly enjoyed today hanging on the beach with the kids. Hopefully tomorrow will be just as nice.

Okay, so Saturday morning I get up and am finally feeling really good. The ankle is not bothering me at all and I finally feel like maybe it's healing. I have a whole list of errands to run and am really feeling good. I decide to start my day with a 1 hour bike ride. I even have a little debate with myself over whether or not I should wear my ankle brace; I decide to wear it!! During the ride I'm feeling really great, strong, I decide that I should get into the habit of running for 15 minutes after every bike ride. I need to get used to that for my triathlon training. So I get home, put the bike away and head out for a short run. I'm just running on the road to the park and back, no biggee and it should be nice and easy. I am running for 7 minutes and I TWIST MY ANKLE!!! UGH!!!!!!!! What if the fucking deal???? Why, oh why, do I keep doing this????? I was so pissed I was crying as I hobbled back home (luckily I was far from home). I twisted it pretty badly and it hurt really, really badly. I was so angry though I could have screamed, actually I think I might have a time or two. I spent the rest of the day laying in bed with my foot elevated in utter agony.... Luckily it feels much better today.

Now I'm torn. What do I do??? I know I need to let my ankle heal but I feel like such a little pudge I can't stand it. Maybe I should ride my bike and do my weights and just put off the running for another week. I'm supposed to start my 6 week program tomorrow and I really, really don't want to put it off. I think I'll bike and do weights and hold off on the running for a few more days.

As for my 6 week plan. I just read a great motivator in Prevention magazine. I will pay myself fifty cents for every workout I complete. At the end of my 6 weeks I'll have $42.00 to spend anyway I want to. I think that will be a great a way to keep me going. I do tend to slack off on my plans.

Well, I'm off to bed to rest my ankle. I will be riding my bike tomorrow........

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