Maybe I need to start a little slower.

I jumped in with both feet yesterday and boy, did I end up paying for it.

I got up yesterday and went to the Y. Did my cardio and upper body work and felt very good and self righteous. Then it was a shower and off to work.

About 11 a.m. I started to get a headache. Now this is something that is fairly common with me. I tend to get headaches after my period and when I go back to "clean" eating. So I wasn't too concerned and figured I'd just ride it out. When I ate lunch it subsided slightly so I knew exactly what it was all about.

By 3 p.m. I was in absolute agony. Every movement hurt my head. I was dying. Trying to eat my snacks to reduce it and nothing was working. By the time I got to WW at 6 I felt like my head was going to explode. I should note, I didn't take anything because that usually doesn't help. It's a hunger/sugar headache and the only thing that will help is sugar. Driving home proved new levels of torture. I thought I was going to die.

By the time I got home I was so incredibly nauseous I was really worried. Also, I could hardly keep my eyes open. My hubby had made dinner and it smelled great but I could only eat a few bites. Ugh!!! I felt so bad and I didn't know exactly what to do.

I laid down on the couch and actually dozed for a little bit. When I woke up I felt better and the hubby asked if I wanted a little ice cream. That was when it hit me, sugar. I needed sugar. I had a little ice cream and felt immediately better. I then went to my stash of candy. I have those Crunch Dark Chocolate sticks- oh, to die for - and ate 3 of them. Within 5 minutes I felt 100% better. Wow. I took some ibuprofen and headed off to bed.

When I woke up this morning I had just a slight remnant of the headache so I opted to skip swimming (besides, it's freaking freezing here). I've also decided to ease up just a little and cut things slowly. Today I will prepare a little bit more food with a sweet treat and at the first sign of a headache I'll eat something.

I was going to say that hasn't happened in a very long time but I realized I haven't been that strict with myself in a very long time. I've spent a lot of time deceiving myself that I was being good when I wasn't.

Oh well, you live and you learn. Today will be a little easier and by the end of the week I'll be as strict as I was yesterday.