25 November 2006

Wild Rant!!!!

I read this and watched the video and it just set off something inside of me that I have to express.

A 12 year old girl has had liposuction because she couldn't lose weight and wanted to feel "normal" whatever the hell that is!!!

ABC news video and article.

Now I have to say that I do feel for that little girl. Kids are unbelievably cruel and being different, fat, smart, stupid, makes you a target. But her parents I'd like to slap silly.

They say she's been on a diet since she was 3. Well, that right there is wrong on so many levels I don't even know where to start. You should never put a child on a diet. Did they ever consider healthy food and maybe some play time????

They said they've tried everything. I don't think so. This is one of my pet peeves so bear with me. I have seen soooo many people who say, "I've tried everything. Nothing works. I can't lose weight" (said in a high whiny voice). Then I've seen them eat. Fast food, junk food, soda!!! Okay, have you tried not eating that crap?????

I have a couple of friends who have had gastric bypass. It's very hard for me not to say something but I don't. Everyone of them has had this surgery then not changed their eating. They continue to eat the high calorie foods they ate before (except those they can't eat) they just eat less of them. Have you seen Al Roker lately??? Or that nurse on ER???? They both had the surgery, lost a ton of weight, now look at them they are putting it back on. People can't seem to get it through their heads, it's not your body you have to change - it's your mind.

My sister was heavy her entire life. About 6 years ago she got into a car accident and part of the injuries were all her internal organs were badly bruised. Because of that for almost 4 months she could hardly eat. As a result she lost a ton of weight. She was very pleased with the weight loss, who wouldn't be. But has she learned anything? No. She still eats the same way she did and doesn't exercise. Now though when she starts to gain weight she just stops eating. Yeah, that's healthy.

Dear god, I know better than anyone how hard it is to lose weight. I've been battling my weight for years. I began this last war in 1998 and I'm still not done. I've had major setbacks. Times when I threw in the towel and said screw it all. Times when I wanted to have surgery. But I'm smart enough to realize that the surgery is not going to work unless I change the way I eat. If I'm going to change the way I eat anyway why have the surgery?????

This little girls parents were asked if she's changed her eating and her dad said no. He said she's been on a diet since she was 3 and knows how to eat. Hello!!!!! Just how stupid are you people??? Her eating is what got her in the state she's in. She's 12 years old. She doesn't think for the future, it's right here right now. Oh my god. Really, some people should not be parents. They should be sterilized like dogs.

It really all boils down to chemistry. Eat less, move more. It's that simple and it's that hard.

Okay, rant over.

24 November 2006

Confession time.

There are a couple of things I have to come clean about.

First, I've been really struggling with my weight lately. No, I mean really struggling. Way more than I let on here. Today I woke up and weighed in at my highest weight in 3 years. That's bad.

Second, I've gone back in my journals and looked at what's worked in the past compared to what I'm doing now. I saw then differences and I immediately started instituting changes. Granted it's only been 1 day but I feel better already.

Third, the focus of this blog is going to change a little. Until I begin my Honu training, end of December I think, I'm going to focus on weight loss. A Lot!!! It won't be like I ate this, this, and this, I burned xxxx calories, blah, blah, blah....... It will be more along the lines of everyday accountability to myself. I have another, secret blog where I record the incredibly boring minutiae of my weight loss journey.

The main difference is the level of activity. I have got to get lots of activity in as often as possible. I know that diet is 90% of weight loss and activity is only 5-10%. But with me it makes a huge difference.

Also, I've been lying to myself about my food intake. You would think that someone who's been a weight watcher as long as I have would not be able to fool themselves. Ummm, yeah, not true. Today I have been brutally honest about what I eat and WOW!! Such a liar!!!

Okay, there you have it! All my cards are on the table. You would not believe I'm closing in on 50 would you!!!!

On another note, my plantar in my right foot is really acting up. Could be due to my 2 hour walk today??? Nah!!!!!!

23 November 2006

HAPPY TURKEY DAY!!!


Oops, wrong turkey!!!





It's hard living so far from family at this time of year. Some years we have friends and stuff over. This year, not so much. We are heading out to Waikiki later to have dinner at a restaurant there. I always love doing that. I rarely go to Waikiki and it's fun to play tourist once in a while.

Hope everyone has a great day!!!

22 November 2006

Another day almost over.

The best thing about today is that it's Friday!!!! I have a 4 day weekend and I soooo need it!!!

Nothing much to say really. Boring day and I'm tired. More tomorrow.

21 November 2006

Blogger hates me!!!

Or maybe it's my computer that hates me. Now that I think about it, the entire inanimate world is pretty much out to get me. Paranoid??? No way!!!

Anyway, for whatever reason, I could not post Sunday or yesterday. Not that anything happened that was note worthy but I was trying to blog everyday for 30 days. Oh well, the best laid plans of mice and men..........

Meanwhile, life goes on. I have 1 more day of work left then a 4 day weekend - woohoo!!!!!

Rocco has managed to not rip open his stitches so that's good. They gave me an Elizabethan collar for him but when I put it on him he just sits there and whines. Not a pretty sight. But the wound looks like the edges have sealed and he doesn't seem to be too bothered by it, so I'm risking leaving it off. I love to live on the edge (the edge of financial ruin!! It will cost a fortune to have his face restitched).

Workouts have been happening. Due to some lower back pain I've added yoga and pilates 4 times a week and I'm really enjoying it. I love yoga and pilates is very similar. I did not make it to the pool this morning only because I didn't want to leave Rocco so early (I know, I'm insane!!) so it was pilates.

Well, there you have it. 3 days of my life in 5 paragraphs. God, I really need to get a life :)

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