16 June 2008

A wild rant

and way, way too much information. If you are squeamish at all or male, you probably want to leave now. Trust me, it's going to get ugly.

Okay, you've been warned.

I'm 49 years old and face it, I'm staring menopause right in the face. In the last year things have started getting a little weird and I keep holding out hope that menopause is imminent. Every time I go 2 months without a period I'd get all excited. It would always return, but I keep my fingers crossed that is the time.

This, though, has gotten freaking ridiculous. 4 weeks ago I had my regular period on time. 2 weeks ago I had another full blown period that lasted longer and was much heavier. And now today we start again. This is just so wrong.

I wish there was something I could do to hasten the arrival of the long awaited menopause. I know there are drugs and stuff I could take, but I'm not that desperate yet. I wish there was a switch we could flip that would turn it on and off. Face it, we only need it if we are going to have a baby. That ain't happening, that's for darn sure.

This is freaking crazy. It seems to be getting progressively worse. If this time is worst than last time, I may not be able to walk for 2 days. Ugh!!!! I do not like being a girl. At least at this point in time.

Oh, oh, yeah, the other effects of this. I'm more tired, so my workouts suffer. I'm either very hungry or not hungry at all, either way my diet goes to hell. And I'm freaking bloated!!! So even if I'm losing weight I feel like the Goodyear blimp!!!

Okay, I'm done now. I'm going to go get some macadamia nut ice cream and whine on the couch.


Vickie said...

Its what they call perimenopause. Mine started like what you are experiencing when I was 39 and continued for 9 years. The worst came when I was 45 and then it was a continual flow for 3 months before they finally did a few things and it got back to semi normalcy for a few more years. Good luck!

Fe-lady said...

Keep up your exercise and menopause will be easier...I occasionally have mini hot flashes and sleepless nights. But exercise usually takes care of both! (I don't miss my periods ONE BIT!) :-)

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