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I will survive....

Yesterday I wasn't so sure, but today I am. I have not been that sick in a long, long time. I went back to bed this morning and got up around 10. Except for laying down for a little while around 1, I've been up all day. Granted most of it has been spent laying on the sofa watching TV, I've still been up :) I went to take a little nap and ended up reading a magazine. I was reading an article about people leaving their pets behind when they move because of foreclosure. Do you know how hard it is to breath when you're all stuffy and crying over abandoned animals??? It was not a pretty sight. Anyway, I can't tell you how good I'm feeling compared to how bad I was feeling yesterday. I'm going to workout in the morning, I'll probably just end up walking but I'm going to get out there and do something. I've got cabin fever.


Just thought I'd pop my head up and say hello. I have been so sick, I can't believe it. Yesterday it took everything I had just to get up to go to the bathroom. I couldn't stand for more then 5 minutes or I got all light headed and dizzy. And the coughing - forget about it!!! In the middle of the night last night I felt something had changed. I was suddenly breathing easier and could actually sleep, not pass out from Nyquil. I feel much, much better today though still not up to par. I got up to feed the animals and have a cup of coffee, now I'm headed back to bed again. My body aches all over from laying down but sitting or standing is not an option, so I suffer.

I just wanted to let you know I'm alive and I'll catch up on everyone's blog soon, hopefully today or tomorrow.

I'm sick

All last week I felt kind of crappy and had a feeling I was coming down with something but I thought I was fighting it off. Last night I kept waking up because I had a tickle in the back of my throat. Nothing seemed to get rid of it. This morning I feel much worse!! I can feel my head filling with cotton. It's going to be a long day.....

I ran

It wasn't far and it wasn't pretty, but I ran. I started taking fish oil capsules about a week ago and they really do seem to help with the knee pain. With no knee pain for a week, I decided now was as good a time as any to run. So I ran. As usual I was tempted to jump back in where I left off but thankfully common sense prevailed. I decided to go back to real basics.

Back in October when I started running again, I started at 2 miles and gradually added a mile a week. Before I knew it I was running 5, 6, 8 miles and, more importantly, felt great. So that's where i started again. I ran 2 miles. I will run 2 miles on Thursday and on Sunday I will run 3. I have a 5k in 2 weeks - no problem - and a 10k in 10 weeks - again, no problem. After the Tinman I will start in the serious marathon training. I may do some small sprints between July and December, but the main focus will be running. I'm excited.

I was really pissed off at myself yesterday. I really felt li…

I've been fooling myself....

A couple of weeks ago I wrote a post about my revelation. And while that was true then, and still is now, I immediately took that revelation and when, ah, I got it, I can relax now. When in fact the last thing I should have done was relax. I should know from my food issues that even though I understand something and completely 'get' it, I can not let my guard down. I am battling years of unconscious programming. That won't be broken overnight.

So what have I done that's so awful?? I stopped paying attention to my food. I was eating well, I was just eating a lot. I had dessert more often than not. I was not stuffing myself, well, except for this weekend :), but I was eating way more calories then I needed. I was working my tail off then negating it with too much food. UGH!!!

So the fooling is over. It ends today. I will write down everything I eat and when. I will measure and weigh my food. I will be accountable. I will not assume that just because I f…

What exactly am I doing???

I just purchased an Olympic distance training plan online (that's for the Tinman). I'm not sure where my head is at but things are swirling around. I want a plan with someone telling me what to do to see what it's like. I tend to put if off if I develop it myself and only have myself to account to. I am considering joining Weight Watchers again for that very reason. Having someone outside myself to whom I am accountable. Hmmm..... What's happening??? Oh well, we shall see where this leads....

Happy Mother's Day

Happy Mother's Day to all the mothers out there!!!

Mothers day has always been day that made me feel like a fraud. I never felt I was a really good mother so I didn't feel I deserved any special recognition. Also, most of the time I felt like I didn't know what I was doing, so please, let's not celebrate my incompetence. Of course, I only had 1 child and I don't know if that makes a difference. Maybe I would have felt a little more confident if I had a second child. But, as I really wasn't the mother type, one was more then enough for me.

My daughter however, turned out to be a wonderful mother. She has 2 kids and is an absolutely fantastic mother to them both. I know she didn't get it from me, which can only mean she got it from my mother. My mother was a huge presence in my daughter's life her entire life. In fact, those times in my life when I was being the selfish individual I generally am, my mom stepped in and took over the raising of my d…