25 October 2008

I always do this to myself

I make these grand plans that are completely impossible and then get down on myself when I can't live up to them. For example, my Bodybugg experiment. I wore it for 2 weeks just tracking everything. I learned that I eat just about as much as I burn hence no weight loss. That didn't upset me, it actually made me understand more what was happening and I was grateful. So I decide it's time to start losing. The Bodybugg program allows you to set up a weight loss program based on your preferences. They recommend 1 lb per week, I of course said no!! I want to lose 1.5 lbs per week. This is completely doable if you are not me!! The way it worked out I was supposed to burn 2400 cals per day and eat 1600. That would create a deficit of 700-800 cals a day leading to 1.5 lbs per week lost. Sounds easy right? Wrong!!!! In the 2 weeks I've been trying to do this I learned 2 things. 2 very important things. First, on my busiest day I burn around 2200 cals. Those are the days I fall into bed exhausted at night. There is no way I have the time or energy to burn 200 more calories on those days, just no way. Second, if I eat only 1600 cals a day by the third day I am so hungry I have a headache and will eat anything in sight. And that's what happened yesterday. I had restricted my calories for 4 days and by yesterday I was a monster. I met a box of little powdered donuts and ate almost the whole box. I'm sitting here, 16 hours after the incident and my stomach still hurts from it. A mere 200 more calories a day make a huge difference in my hunger levels.

So, I'm changing my plan. I'm still going to try and shoot for 2400 cals burned, but won't be upset if I only burn 2200, I just want to do it fairly consistently. As for eating, I'm aiming for between 1800-1900 cals a day. That is a level that keeps me satisfied, not full. Doesn't lead to donut binges, and is fairly easy to stick to. Now, at 2200 burned and 1900 eaten, I'm only looking at a 300 cal deficit a day. But that would still lead to a little over 1/2 a lb a week and that's way better than what I'm doing now. Which is nothing much.

So there it is. All my dirty little secrets. My personal failings that I try not to expose too much. My secret shame. It's all out there and I'm going to change it. Maybe it's time to start looking around for some good diet pills like orovo. But I think I'll try this first. One day at a time, starting today.

24 October 2008

Can't seem to get a routine going....

I'm doing okay with the eating and working out, but I'd like to be doing fantastic. I can't seem to get a routine going and it's really starting to bug me. With school and work and such, the days are not the same therefore all are different. I don't like it at all.

Last night in class we did the Meyers-Brigg personality assessment. It was interesting and funny and dead on. I've done these before but it never seemed to hit on me just right. Last night it was absolutely dead on. One thing I learned (though I knew this already) is that I like routine. I like order and I like to have things planned out. What was really funny is that the things I thought were unique to me, not liking crowds or parties, not being able to make small talk, were problems with all the others who shared some of my personality types. Interesting.

Okay, I have to get moving. I'm tired and just want to crawl back into bed......

20 October 2008

Hmmm, may have to rethink this a little

My goals were to burn 2400 cals a day and eat 1600 cals. That would be around 700-800 cals deficit a day. That would be about 1.5 lbs a week. The problem I'm having is that I can't burn 2400 a day easily. I'm up and down all day and I try workout in the morning, but all I can seem to burn is 2100-2200. Hmmm.....I may have to lower my expectations a little bit. Or I may have to adjust my goals down a little to 1 lb a week. Of course, I'd be happy to lose 1 lb per week, I don't know what the heck I'm talking about. Sheesh, like I'm losing so much now right?? Okay, I'm working on it and that's the most important part.

Unfortunately I didn't have any time to take pictures today :( But I have some from yesterday:


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This is a plant out front. I just like the colors of it.

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An this is a white plumeria we have in the yard.

Okay, enough for tonight.

19 October 2008

A good first day

I ended the day at around 1675 cals eaten and around 2200 burned. Not quite my goals but closer then I've been these past 2 weeks. I'm happy and more importantly I feel good.

In other news, I've been playing with my new camera. I am going to love this camera, I can tell. I had an SLR camera for years but I didn't get into that much because of the cost of developing film. With digital I can click away and then look at how they came out. If I don't like them I can just delete them. This totally rocks.

So I was playing with the macro today. That is what I really like to look at and take pictures of. I love photos of flowers and animals and such. Anyway, here's a couple of what I did today:
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This is my favorite plumeria (frangapani). I just love this flower.

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I love this picture looking into the plant. I love how the leaves in front are blurred and the center is so clear. You'll probably get very sick of hearing me talk about my pictures. Sorry!!!

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This came out really good. This is a little weed that's growing in our overgrown garden. I liked the flower and thought it was interesting looking. I like the picture, a lot.

That's all for tonight. I have a few more posts to write then it's off to bed.

Back to my roots

I missed my blogaversry :( On September 23 I had been blogging for 4 years. I really thought it was in October that's why I went to check today. 4 years!!! Jeez, I have a lot to say :)

The reason I started this blog was as a weight loss blog. I had been reading some other blogs for a while and had decided to start my own. 4 years ago I was focused strictly on the scale. I just wanted the number to go down. I had a number of other issues I was dealing with at the same time, binge eating, a sugar addiction, etc.

Fast forward 4 years. I've conquered a lot of those demons, though they can still sneak in if I don't pay attention. I'm not so focused on the number on the scale, I want to be healthy not necessarily skinny. Also, I've come to terms with my body. I'm never going to be super skinny. I have a much thicker, more athletic body, but that's okay. I want to lower my fat percent and be strong and healthy.

So as of today I'm returning to my roots. This blog goes back to being a health and fitness blog. I'm going to focus on working out, eating right, getting strong and healthy. That will be the major thrust of this blog from now on. I'm sure I'll go back to marathons and triathlons, but for now it's all about finding some fat a new home. So there willbe no race reports (there haven't been in a while anyway) or training info or anything like that. It will be workouts and food and numbers, lots and lots of numbers.

So there it is. I'm nothing if not constantly evolving and changing. This is my latest incarnation. So it all begins today. I'm on a quest to lose 18lbs of fat by the first of the year. I'm going to do that with a combination of exercise and calorie restriction. My goal is to burn 2400 cals per day and consume 1650 cals. That creates a deficit of 750 cals per day which should result in a loss of 1.5 lbs of body fat per week. Now none of these numbers are crazy. 2400 is a very reasonable amount to burn, I average around 2100 cals when I don't work out. And 1650 is a very reasonable diet amount, not starving at all. So that's the plan. I'm going to post my workouts and my numbers everyday here to keep on track and see where I fall down. The hardest part of this is that I have to journal everyday. Some days I don't journal my food because I eat similar most days of the week. But now I have to write down everything that goes in my mouth.

Okay, let the fun begin.

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