04 April 2009

Attitude adjustment

That was a phrase I used with my daughter through the teenage years. When she would get all snotty and whiny I would tell her to go get an attitude adjustment. She would generally stomp off to her room and come out later not so bad. She knew what I meant, I knew what I meant and it worked well. I think it's time to start using that on myself. Only this time I'll do physical activity to adjust my attitude. Anyway, here's another video blog I did today:

03 April 2009

Seriously, there has been a major shift

in me. In my thinking. In my feeling. In the way I view things. It's very cool. I didn't workout yesterday because of that weird headache hangover I had. I did however go out taking pictures and walking around. That was fun. This morning I planned on working out and I realized just a little while ago, I'm just not feeling it. When I tried to examine why it came to me. I've been home for 2 weeks during this spring break. I do not take this much time off. I get bored. When I get bored I do nothing. When I do nothing I stop working out. That is exactly what is happening. I know myself well enough to know that I can not be a stay at home person as much as I would like to think I can be. I need structure and routine in order to get anything accomplished. I think that I'm basically a very lazy person and with no pressure or deadlines or anything like that the laziness wins. It's not good but at least I understand it and can work with it. Before when this feeling hit I would throw everything out and spend an inordinate amount of time berating myself for being lazy. Now that I understand it I not only did not berate myself, but have accepted it and moved on. I'm working on school work and my eating is just fine so I'm not looking into slimming pills review, at least not yet. So I would rather have worked out but it's not the end of the world if I don't. Tomorrow is another day, in fact this afternoon is still an option. Also, things start back up on Monday and I'm looking forward to that. But now, I'm off to write a lesson plan.

02 April 2009

March Top Droppers

I'm a day late and a dollar short. So what else is new?? Here they are:

Glue 4 Families
My gypsygoods
Rich n Fit Life!
How to make money on the internet
Wii Mommies
Diet Pulpit
The Vegan Lifestyle

Strange mental place

I'm in a very strange place mentally. I'm waiting to hear if Nala has lymphoma as well as brain cancer. Not that it will make much difference. Her quality of life has deteriorated so much that, unless a miracle happens, I know we will have to put her down before the end of the month. That has put me in a very strange mental place. It feels like my future is rushing towards me. We are planning to move to Colorado after the dogs pass on. Well, with one facing the inevitable it sure feels like the future is just coming at me full tilt. I don't know if I'm ready. I don't now if I'll be able to handle it. I don't know how I'll deal with not having Nala around. She's been such a huge part of my life for the past 12 years. How can I go on without her. Wow, this is going to be harder then I thought.

I dropped off some pictures of her today, the tattoo guy is working up a tattoo for me. It will be two angel wings with a heart shaped center with her head in it. It will say Nala on top and 1997-2009 on bottom. I can't wait to see what he comes up with.


I had the worst headache yesterday. I woke up with it and thought it was because I was hungry. I ate and it was still there. I ignored it. I went for my run and it pounded the entire time. It was there all day. Finally, last night it got so bad I had to take something. It seems to be gone this morning but I have a headache hangover. I feel kind of foggy and a little out of it. So, this got me to thinking why? Usually when I get a headache I can figure out why. Also, my headaches are different from different causes. This was suspiciously like a lack of food headache. Hmmmm....Made me think. I stopped using artificial sweetener on Tuesday. Hmmmm.....could this be the problem?? I really think so. I stopped once before and had a headache for 3 days. Then for some inexplicable reason I started using it again but in a much lower quantity. I think that's what caused the headache and the foggy feeling today. I've said it before and I'll say it again, those things are chemicals and they are poison to our bodies. I am never, NEVER, using them again. I will not use any product that contains them. I wouldn't put that crap in my system. I'm done. And now I'm done with this rant.

I have a rather early dentist appointment today, they are implanting the post that will support the crown for my root canal. I don't really have time to work out. And I kind of don't feel like it. So, I'm thinking of taking my camera and going out shooting. I haven't been on a photo expedition in a long time and I'm kind of feeling it today. I'm thinking of heading up north shore way and shooting all along the way. That sounds like a fun day. It I'm going to do that I have to go feed the baby bird before I go. He can go about 6 hours without eating so he should be good while I'm gone.

01 April 2009

15 days until.......

Making the video post yesterday was fun. I may do that once in a while just to spice things up a little. Also, it will be a good way to visually track my progress. I take pictures but I think I like this better. It was interesting, it took me a long time to hit publish on that post. I was debating if I really wanted to post a video of me. Then I just said what the heck, I can always take it down later.

I have got to start writing down my food intake. Not because I'm eating too much, but the opposite. Yesterday I ate; an egg burrito, salad, flat bread with hummus, 2 string cheese, steak with rice, slice of lemon cake. That is not good on any day. I need to eat more and more consistently. So it's April 1, that's a good day to start tracking food. It's just like working out. Once I get into the habit of it it will be easy. Right now I'm off to make a protein shake and get ready for my run.

31 March 2009

This is what happens when I'm bored

I'm actually not really bored. I have a mountain of work to do I'm just avoiding it. I got up super early this morning and I'm just not ready to start reading journals yet. So I headed off to workout and decided to do some video blogging. I've seen people do it a lot and I decided to give it a go. Warning, I'm in my workout clothes and that is not a pretty site. More warning, after my workout I look particularly attractive :) Anyway, here goes, hope you enjoy:

30 March 2009

5* miles later things are much better

I allowed myself to wallow in the misery yesterday. 24 hours. That was all I had to freak out. When I went to bed last night I told myself it was over and it was time to get a grip. One way of doing that is by working out. So when I got up this morning I headed out for my walk/run. I'm working on getting back into running slowly. At this point everything feels fabulous so I don't want to overdo it and hurt myself. Again. So I've been doing a program that was in Women's Running magazine which is basically a walk/run program. You warm up for 5 minutes (I go 15 because I want the extra time) then you do 4 - 5 min walk/2 min run intervals and cool down for 5 minutes (again, 15 for me). Every week you increase the running time while keeping the walking at 5 minutes. In 10 weeks you will be running 40 minutes straight which should be right around a 5k. Last week I did the 5/2 and overall felt pretty darn good. Today as I headed out I decided it was a great day to go to 5/3. Woo Hoo!! This actually felt better then the 5/2. It's possible that I'm in better shape then I think I am and could probably run longer. I think I'll do 5/3 this week and maybe next week jump to 5/5 or something like that. Anyway, it felt fabulous and by the time I got back I had figured it all out. I know how I'm going to pay for my very expensive tooth. I know how I'm going to pay the taxes. I know how we are going to not only survive but be just wonderful in the process. So all it took was a day to wallow and a 5* mile run. Sweet!!!

*the 5 miles is just an estimate. I haven't been tracking my distance but I know this area and my turnaround point was between the 4.5 and 5 mile area and I decided to go with 5 miles.

29 March 2009

Not going to let it happen....

I'm not.

The backstory: I lost my job in December. I got a part time job in February. The money has been stretching just barely. I had a root canal on Thursday. I owe taxes. Do you see where I'm going with this?? If we didn't have any unexpected expenses we would make it fine. With these things looming, all around the same time, we are not going to make it. I'm starting to freak.

Today: I woke up at 5am worrying about this. I got up and started doing what I can at that time on a Sunday morning, not much. I ended up sitting at the computer until almost 9am. I did not feel like working out so I blew it off and went and showered. In the shower I realized something. Normally I would allow something like this to completely derail me. I would spend so much time worrying about the money that I would allow my workouts to fall by the wayside. That serves absolutely no purpose at all. My workouts don't cost me money. It doesn't take anything away from looking for work or working to workout. By working out regularly I will keep up my energy and keep a positive attitude. That is really important if I'm going to take on another job.

The future: So this is my vow; I will NOT let my worries derail my workout/weight loss efforts. I will NOT allow my money woes to take control of my life and make me miserable. I will NOT!!!!

Don't Stop Believing

The last couple of nights Journey has played here in Honolulu with their new lead singer. Initially they were going to do 1 show. That sold out immediately. Then they added a second show. That sold out immediately. Then they added a third show. Guess what happened?? Right! It sold out immediately. The main online ticket place is one I just hate. With a white hot passion do I hate it. They charge too much money and their site is slow and it never seems to work right for me. Never!! So, not knowing what else to do, I tried to buy tickets through them. Yeah, I failed miserably. As a result I didn't get to see Journey. Bummer.

Now I know there are other sites that sell tickets but I haven't had much luck with the ones I've found. I found this one that like resold tickets and they were so expensive it was unbelievable and when I registered for the site I got so much garbage emails from them. Not necessarily spam just crap I wasn't interested in. So today I discover another site for concert tickets. TicketFeeder has premium tickets and tickets to sold out events. I wonder if I could have gotten some Journey tickets from them? I know they have tickets for the Big Island show tonight. Don't think I'll be making that one. Sheryl Crow is coming in April. The only tickets available from the other website is the lawn seating at the back. But TicketFeeder has some available in the reserved seating section right in front of the stage. They are pricey but if you really love Sheryl they are worth it. Besides, I've seen regular prices this high for some concerts. Tickets for the Stones were like $200 and resold for around $500. It was crazy. So I missed Journey but at least I know where to look next time.

Completely out of control

What is it with me and free time? I had last week off and things literally spiralled completely out of control. I've lost track of the...