21 November 2009

Another weekend

Something that I've noticed since I started teaching, time is different. In all my other jobs time passed in hours. I would have 2 hours to do this, or 3 hours until that appointment, but time generally moved in hours. In a school time moves in 50 minute chunks. That seems to make the day just fly by. But it also seems to be breaking me of my all or nothing attitude. I used to think that if I didn't have an hour to workout it wasn't worth the time. Now, since in my classes I'm constantly saying "we have 10 minutes left let's do as much as we can," I seem to think that 10 minutes is enough time to workout. Because of this it seems like I'm not wasting as much time as I have in the past. When I thought only an hour workout is worth it and I only had 40 minutes, I would sit in front of the TV or the computer instead of working out. With my new attitude, 40 minutes is a lifetime. I have 40 minutes of free time and I am doing all kinds of things and making all kinds of plans for my next 10 minute break. So, even though the days seem to fly by when they are broken into 55 minute chunks, I'm getting a whole lot more done everyday. And that's a good thing.

This week has been really, really fabulous. I have been getting up and doing strength training in the mornings and walking or running in the evenings. As hard as it is on my body, working out twice a day really, really helps. Again, I only do 30 minutes in the morning and 40 minutes at night. I'm feeling great. I'm feeling muscles I haven't felt in months. My legs and butt are feeling tight. A couple of weeks ago I noticed that when wearing some small heels I felt very unsteady on my feet. That has changed. Yesterday I wore some higher heels and felt very steady on my feet - which I seemed to be on almost all day because my feet hurt last night!!! Anyway, the benefits clearly outweigh the drawbacks of getting up early so I'm going to continue this.

I have however been feeling very large. Along with my working out I have been kind of watching what I eat. I haven't been watching it really strictly but I've been avoiding the worst culprits. And in spite of my workouts, I've been feeling bloated and fat. Now, one thought is that I've been eating food prepared by a chef all week. Hubby has been working nights and bringing home food which I eat for dinner the next night. I'm thinking that it may be loaded with salt and possibly fat (I have gotten so jaded about restaurant/prepared food. I always assume it's loaded with crap I don't want). So that is possibly the cause of my bloated feeling. I have had my period all week which means I should have felt bloated last week and didn't really. Another possibility is that with my working out the muscle is beginning to build but the fat is still in place. I know, I'm a biologist, muscle takes time to build blah, blah, blah. But, when you strength train you tear the muscles and the body immediately sends repair agents to fix those tears. So it is possible that, with my fat firmly in place still, those repair agents are causing me to feel bloated. What ever the cause, today I'm making all my food and eating clean as well as getting my workouts in. Plus, I have to write a unit plan, grade some papers, finish some writings for the classes I'm taking, figure out why my credit card was declined for a purchase, look for some cheap insurance for the dogs, take Lola to the vet, clean bird cages, do laundry, iron some clothes,..............

20 November 2009

The conversation

My conscious: "You're awake."

Me: "Yeah, I am."

C: "Might as well get up."

Me: "Shut up."

C: "There's no point in just laying here. Get up."

Me: "Shut up."

C: "What time is it?"

Me: "I don't care."

C: "Look at the clock."

Me: "I am not going to look at the clock, will you please shut up and leave me alone!"

C: "Just check, it might only be midnight, maybe you have hours yet to sleep."

Me: "It is not midnight. The alarm is going to go off in 10 minutes."

C: "How do you know that, you haven't even opened your eyes yet!!"

Me: "I can feel it."

C: "You can feel the alarm clock getting ready to go off??"

Me: "Yes, I can. Now please shut up and let me enjoy the last few minutes of sleep."

C: "But you're not sleeping! You're laying there with you're eyes closed. That's not sleeping."

Just then the alarm went off and I got out of bed and headed of to workout. Lord knows, I did not want to hear what my conscious would say if I tried to get out of working out this morning.

17 November 2009

Really feeling great.....

I am. Last night I ended up having an Easy Mac and a hamburger patty for dinner. It was the perfect size meal and quick and easy. Not the healthiest I'm aware, but tasty.

So Saturday I ran, Sunday I did strength training, Monday morning I did strength training, Monday evening I ran. This morning I did the elliptical and tonight I walked. I'm really, really feeling good. I am having some stomach issues and I can't quite figure out what's going on but I'm working on that.

I continue to love my new car but I'm really getting frustrated with my cell phone. This weekend I may go shopping and see what's new in cell phones. Mine has a habit of not hanging up when I'm done with a call. Ugh!!! So I may do that this weekend.

They started the announcements at school today by telling us that there are 18 instructional days until Christmas break. Woot!!!!!

Okay, that's all I got. I'm off.

16 November 2009

Habit or Hungry??

I'm on my own this week. Hubby is working nights all week long so I'm on my own for dinner all week. I came home tonight after going for a run, showered and read my email. I then headed out to the kitchen to make dinner. As I'm looking around at what's in the fridge, nothing appeals to me. I finally pulled some hamburger out and I'm thinking of a little hamburger goulash type thing with tons of veggies. As I'm planning this in my head I realized that it doesn't would appealing at all. I stopped and said to the dogs, "am I eating because I'm hungry or because I think I should?" I'm not hungry so why should I force myself to eat dinner? I think I'll just wait a little while. If I get hungry I can make something later or have a bowl of cereal or oatmeal. Actually a bowl of oatmeal sounds pretty good. That just may be dinner. Whatever happens I'm not going to eat just because the clock says I should. That's how I got this way to begin with. Instead of making a dinner I really don't want I need to head out and look at our patio cushions. The dogs stay on the patio during the day and the cushions were all over the place. I need to see if they destroyed them. The food will be there when I'm done.

15 November 2009

No Excuses, No Regrets

I just went looking in my archives for something and made a huge discovery. I've had this blog for 5 years!!! 5 years!!!! Wow! So much has changed in the last five years and yet so much remains the same. I'm still struggling with my weight and trying to make exercise a concrete routine in my life. I think it's time to be done with that. Not that I'm quitting, not at all. But it's time to make the transition from sporadic exerciser to regular exerciser. I've done it in other areas of my life so there is no reason why I can't do it here too. One of the things that I really have to work on is the excuses. Somehow these have become a regular part of my life. They have to stop. Also, the guilt. I have to lose the guilt. One big area of guilt can be the dogs. If I stop to run after work it may be too dark to walk the dogs when I get home. I have to drop that guilt. First off, where we take them is enclosed so walking them in the dark shouldn't pose a real risk. Secondly, they will survive without a walk one night. The guy that was fostering them before we got them didn't come home some nights. Hello!!! Missing a walk won't kill them. So, let's recap: lose the excuses, lose the guilt. Got it.

I was cruising blogs this morning and came across some really interesting stuff. One blogger was saying good-bye, another is losing weight at a rapid rate, two others got married......Crazy stuff out there.

Now I have to go work out, it's a strength day, and write my workouts for the week in my planner. One thing I do know for sure is that if I have to decide what to do it won't get done. So I'm planning the week now.

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