16 January 2010

Want to vs should

I was thinking about the last time I was in really good shape. At that time I was running, swimming, biking, doing running races and triathlons. I felt really good physically but I was unhappy in most other aspects of my life. Now, when I think I really want to get back into racing and triathlons, I have a hard time keeping up a consistent workout schedule. Why??? I realized last night why. I'm really happy in other areas of my life and would rather be doing that stuff then working out. I would rather be working on what I have to do at school then get up and go running. I would rather spend some time looking for articles to try and focus my thesis rather then ride my bike. I would rather walk my dogs then run. So for me, and I think for others from the blogs I read, working out and training is a way to focus on something positive when other areas of your life are shit. Now this is not necessarily a bad thing. There are times in everyone's life when certain areas of it are just not working they way you want them to. So training is a bit of an escape. That's actually good because it gives you an outlet that can help you get through a rough patch. But I think I'm at a point where I don't have the energy to work out as much because I'm directing my energies to other things. Unfortunately those things seem to involve a lot of sitting :( What I'm trying to say here is rather then continuing to beat myself up over what I should do, I'm going to focus on eating healthy, and doing the things I really want to do. I know that in time it will come back around I'm just not going to flog myself for not doing it right this minute. I also know that it may come back around day to day. I may not want to workout today but I might tomorrow. I just need to keep an eye on my weight. I may have to look for some phentermine without prescription and take it carefully so I don't blow up like a balloon....So now I'm going to go shower and do a couple of things I've been wanting to do around here.

15 January 2010

Loooong Weekend.....

After a few days off I quickly forget how exhausting teaching is. It is definitely a physical activity. After a two day seminar yesterday was my first day back teaching and I was exhausted last night. It just doesn't seem that hard yet starting up again after a break is brutal. Today was better but only because I did not get up and run this morning. I did yesterday but this morning I just couldn't do it. I did come home a take a little nap today too :) But now I have a long weekend and time to get rest and activity in. I have some things to do but nothing major or critical. It should be a fairly relaxing weekend. I want to clean my car and my house, power wash the bird cages, and look for the best weight loss diet pills - hey hope springs eternal...... Tonight though I rest. I'm going to veg in front of the TV for a while.

13 January 2010

Freaking cold!!

It has been unbelievably cold here.  When I left this morning it was 62 F!!!!  I drove down the road a little ways and the mist on the polo field was so thick you couldn't see anything.  There it was 59 F!!!!  That is freaking cold!!!!  It was so cold I could not get out of bed to run. I could barely get out of bed to get ready for work. 

I did have a small epiphany today.  I was starting to beat myself up because I didn't run and I realized that I'm pretty happy where I am.  I would like to run more and I would definitely like to lose 20 lbs but overall I'm cool with things the way they are. I'm thinking it's time to stop searching for fat burners for women and just focus on feeling good. Which I do. I need to workout everyday and I need to watch what I eat, but I think it's time to just accept myself and stop stressing.

I will get up tomorrow morning and run. I have no choice!!!

12 January 2010

Hardcore is alive and well

And living in my house.  I went back to work yesterday, it was an in-service day for the teachers.  I got up and went for a run at 5 am.   Today I had a seminar and I got up and went for a walk at 5 am.  Very cool.  Being back to work my eating has fallen back into line and I'm feeling pretty darn good.  I will keep it up for the rest of the week.. I can sleep on the weekends.....

I have more to say but I'm not in the mood right now.  

10 January 2010

The return of hardcore

After I wrote my post yesterday I got ready and headed out on a run. I ran the same intervals; 4 min run/90 sec walk; that I've been doing all week but I went further in the same amount of time. It was tough on the lungs but I think that was due to the vog we are having right now. I felt pretty good after, came home and washed my car. Then we headed over to school so I could do some things to my classroom. After that it was off to lunch. Overall a pretty good day.

We have a habit of going out to lunch on Saturdays, and I have noticed something. Unless you go to a restaurant that serves a specific type of cuisine, like Japanese or Italian, all the food is the same. There may be some slight variations but overall it is exactly the same. We went to a new place yesterday, The Varsity, and based on the food we could have been at The Shack, Kailua Pub, or Ruby Tuesday's. I understand it, if you have something that works - and obviously this type of food does - then go with it. But as a consumer it gets old.

After my enlightening post yesterday I headed out for my run. When I came back I washed my car - do you have any idea how often I do that???? Then we went to school and did some stuff in my classroom. What occurred to me is that activity is a good thing. I was busy all morning and felt great. I felt optimistic about the situation, I felt energized. It was good. So I've come to some conclusions. It seems the more time I have the longer I will sit at the computer. The longer I sit at the computer the lower my mood becomes. So, the computer must go. Not completely, but it must go. Today is my last day of vacation so I just won't have as much time to spend on it anymore, but even on workdays I spend way too much time on it as it is. So the following rules now apply:
  • Absolutely no computer in the morning- I can check email on my phone and blogs/facebook will just have to wait
  • During the day, no more than 5 minutes at a time on the computer - unless I'm doing school work.  
  • In the evenings - 30 - 45 minutes tops, that's all.  
  • One blog post a night and I will alternate blogs, except for my photo a day blog - that will continue.
I am also instituting some changes in my house routine to make things easier in the morning for working out.  I need to have all my chores done before I head out on my run at 5 am.  That way, when I get back I can just shower, get dressed and leave.  No fuss, no muss.  I will have everything packed up so I can just grab it and run.  Maybe I should get a fancy  Kipling bag to put it all in, one to match my car :) Seriously, before I go to bed at night everything will be ready for the next morning.  Then, when I get up all I need to do is feed the birds, make coffee, and head out on my run. Good to go. 

It's going to take some discipline to do this, especially in the beginning, but I think as long as I keep moving I'll be okay.  No sitting for hours at the computer or in front of the TV.   Now, I'm taking Axl for a hike. 

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