I can be an idiot

Seriously!! I can be such a moron sometimes it absolutely amazes me. I have been struggling to get back into the workout routine. I have had trouble waking up in the morning and coming home at night and being just exhausted. I have been beat. I keep thinking that if I just get some more sleep I would feel better and have the energy to workout. So I've been trying to get more sleep. That amounts to naps when I get home from work and going to bed earlier and earlier. Not that I'm getting up any earlier...in truth I'm getting up later and later. I've also been avoiding getting back into the dog walking habit because I've been tired. I have been so tired at times I couldn't tell the difference between silver dollars and quarters, I swear.... Well tonight I decided things would be different. I stopped and got an ice coffee on the way home (I also got some snacks but we won't go there) so I wouldn't fall asleep when I got home. After 15 minutes we walked the big dogs on their long walk. When I got back I cleaned the bird room and then walked Bella. All told I worked for 2 1/2 hours on the animals. And I felt awesome. Totally awesome. I was most definitely ready to relax and take it easy but I was not ready to fall dead asleep. It was then I remembered that energy creates energy. By being active and energetic I was creating more energy and therefore not feeling so tired. What does this all mean? I need to force myself. I need to drag myself out of bed in the morning and workout. I need to walk the dogs and clean the bird room and not lay around on my fat ass. In all honesty I've been trying to figure out why I've gained so much weight and I think I finally get it. I just need to move more.... A whole lot more.