23 July 2011

My last weekend


of freedom. School starts on Monday and I'm really not looking forward to it. And while I have been enjoying my last few days of freedom, I'm starting to get that blobby feeling. I've been running but not much else. I've been eating okay, but too much I'm sure. I haven't done any other kind of workout in weeks now. And I'm starting to feel like a giant blob. I have the energy just not the motivation. So school starts on Monday and I plan on starting a workout routine today. I'm going to continue my running and add strength training in to the mix. I just need to do it because I feel so soft and squishy. I ran yesterday, so today I strength train. I'm going to start slowly and aim for consistency.

I watched the Extreme Makeover: Weight Loss Edition the other day and it kind of hit home with me. This woman was almost 500 lbs. She had 2 kids (I think) and a husband who had a stroke and couldn't use the left side of his body. She had to work, take care of the kids, and her husband. Yet she managed, with a little help, to lose over 200 lbs in a year. That's amazing. Since I have none of those issues to contend with, there is no reason why I can't find time to workout regularly. I'm not asking to lose 200lbs or even 100 lbs, I just want to be consistent. So that's that I'm aiming for. I eased up on myself on the running thing and I am making progress there. So I'm going to ease up on the whole working out thing and just aim for 20-30 minutes a day, every day. Consistency - that's all.

Now, let's talk about food. I've been doing pretty well in the food department except I've been eating too much at times and the dessert in the evenings before bed. So, in the spirit of easing up and starting slow, I will keep my food intake to reasonable levels today - journal - and I will not eat dessert tonight. That's it. Maybe it's time to go back to just one day. That worked well, when I worked it. Yeah, I will. Just one day. For just one day, today, I will work out, journal my food, stay active, and not eat dessert. There - just one day.

22 July 2011

The last days of summer


I've been rather enjoying them. Working on some stuff, taking naps, etc. It's been nice and relaxing. Monday it's back to school again - ugh!!! At least we don't have students until Thursday, that's good.

Food has been continuing to go pretty good. I haven't been diligent about logging every bite but I definitely see patterns. I have found that if I don't eat any junk food during the day I feel really good. I don't get exhausted or sluggish - well, except during nap time :) But seriously, I feel pretty darn good most days. I have been having dessert at night and while I don't feel any reaction to it because I'm asleep, I kind of don't think it's a good idea to eat it every night. But I do :(

Working out has not been as good as I'd like it to be. I haven't run in 3 days - but I am going to this morning. I haven't done any kind of strength training like I've wanted to. I'm just not up for beating myself up anymore. I'm just not. I do want to work out but I have all these other things going on and ....I don't know... what I do know is I'm tired of the self abuse. I've been doing that for 40 years and I'm really over it already. So I do what I can, when I can and I'm happy about it. Life is too short for this shit.....

Okay, I've got to run - literally. I need a new ink cartridge to print out some stuff I need for a meeting at 11 so I'm going to run to the store to get one. That will get my run in and get the cartridge. Two birds, one stone. I just hope the rain holds off until I get back. We are in the midst of a storm moving through and it rained a lot last night. Hopefully I won't have to look for storm shelters along the way. Seriously, time to go now..... Woo Hoo!!!!

19 July 2011

Food Update


It's only been a couple of days but I just want to record the things I've noticed so I don't forget or lose track of it.

On Saturday we went out to lunch and had beer, flatbread and hummus. I felt pretty good after but did have a little bit of gas all afternoon. For dinner we had teri meat, fish, noodles, salad with oriental dressing and some milk. After this I felt a little bloated and the gas was still there. But it wasn't bad at all. I did have dessert on Saturday night.

Sunday we had breakfast at home; eggs, hashbrowns, sausage; and felt pretty good after that. In the afternoon we went to a BBQ and I had 4 beers, some pupus, 2 pulled pork sandwiches. Then around 8 pm we went to Zippys and I had 2 pieces of fried chicken, mashed potatoes, and corn. Was full after but not bad. Oh yeah, I also had a lemon bar.

Yesterday, Monday, I was hanging a little bit from the beer on Sunday. We went out to breakfast and had kim chee fried rice with eggs and pancakes. I felt full after wards but not really stuffed. Ended up taking a nap around 11 am which I'm pretty sure was due to the beer the night before not the food. In the afternoon I had 1/2 a ham sandwich on french bread and felt fine. Then around 2pm I had 1/2 an apple and I had gas for the rest of the afternoon. When I went to work around 4pm I still had gas and had some minor cramping in the lower intestines although nothing happened. Dinner was hummus and thinwich around 6:45pm and except for a little gas, I was fine the rest of the night.

So nothing definitive yet though some possible leads. More journaling and watching patterns to see what happens.

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