20 August 2011

I commit.......

...to working out. Every day I will do something even if it's only walking the dogs. I will move my body. The lazier I am the less energy I have. Therefore, if I make the time to do some activity every single day I will have more energy for the rest of my life.

...to eating right. I will not eat sweets and snacks. I will focus on good, whole food that provides energy and nourishment. Treats will be once a week at most.

...to doing something I enjoy everyday. Taking some pictures, sitting with my dogs, whatever, as long as it's something I enjoy doing and it refreshes my soul.

...to not letting the bastards get me down. In my life there are a few people who are complete and total energy sucks. They are negative or idiots or whatever. I'm not going to let those folks get to me. I am better than they are.

...to being grateful. I have a fabulous life and I need to remember that more. There are a whole lot of people who don't have it near as good as I do. I am extremely lucky and have been my entire life. I need to remember that more.

...to cleaning off this desk...do you know how hard it is to use my computer when the pile of stuff is so big ;)

19 August 2011

And done.....

Seriously!!! I am so done with this.... I have gone for the longest time without working out and I do not like it at all. I feel like a slug, the pillsbury doughboy. I have no energy. I'm constantly tired. My body hurts. My bowels aren't regular. My stomach is screwed up. I'm done!!!

Starting tomorrow I am working out. Every. Single. Day. Even if it's only walking the dogs, I'm doing it.

Later: I wrote that first thing this morning, right after I had gotten to school. I have reached a point where all my tops are getting tight and I generally feel uncomfortable in most of my clothes. I do not like this feeling. So it's time for a change. I have gone for over a month without working out and I really, really don't like it. I need to get moving and I need to do it now....

Even later:
I just had dinner and I'm trying to formulate a plan for this. I need to have an idea of what I'm doing, otherwise I'll wake up in the morning and just end up farting around until I run out of time. So I need a plan or at least an idea of a plan. So I want to run 3 days a week and strength train 3 days a week. I think for right now I will start with Jillian. I have her DVDs and they are just 30 minutes, so I think I'll start with that. Tomorrow I'm gonna do the front disk and take Bella out, then I have to work tomorrow night. Sunday I'm gong to do the back DVD and take Bella out, then work in the afternoon. For the week the plan will look like this:

Monday: run in the morning
Tuesday: Jillian front
Wednesday: run in the morning
Thursday: Jillian Back
Friday: run in the morning
Saturday: Jillian front
Sunday: Jillian back

Hey, it's a start...

17 August 2011

Hunger Games

Once upon a time I used to get hungry. I mean seriously, ready to gnaw my arm off hungry. I would need food like a junkie needs crack. Then I stopped working out so hard. Gradually my hunger abated. I still get hungry but not like before. And sometimes I don't even realize I am hungry. Sometimes my hunger masquerades as tiredness. I don't like it. This causes me to sometimes not eat as much as I should. This is not a problem short term, but long term it can be a b*tch. I find myself reaching points where I get headaches and am exhausted and it's all basically because I haven't been eating enough. It does have an up side, I'm eating a lot less, but it's not necessarily a good thing.So, as if I didn't have enough reasons to start working out again, this is another. I need to get my hunger back into working condition so that I don't fall into those traps of tired and headache.  So there you have it, reason 4,581 to get back into a workout routine.

16 August 2011

Knowing the problem is half the battle

One of the things I've been working on lately is trying to reduce my stress. Some of this involves things like doing something I really enjoy; taking time to really relax; keeping on top of things so I don't get snowed under; and figuring out what exactly is causing the stress. That may be the hardest part but so worth the effort because once you know the source you can work on fixing it. And please notice that I said fixing it, not eliminating it - because that is not always possible.

One of my major stressors is money. It has been for a while now and while the situation has gotten better it is not perfect. Money is constantly on my mind in some way or another. Hubby had surgery last week and will be out of work for over a week. He works part time jobs so there is no PTO or sick leave or anything like that. Luckily he had just finished up a 2 week job that paid a whole lot of money so we'll make it. One of the things that has been running around my head again is working from home. I wish I knew what to do or had an idea for a business that I could do from home. Right now I work at Walgreen's part time and I'd much rather do something at home than work there. I have to tell you, I tried this once before. I even set up a website and everything and it was a freaking nightmare. I didn't have the money to pay a web designer so I tried to do it myself and made a big mess of it. I couldn't figure out how to set up a shopping cart so they could pay through the website. It was insane. Now though, I wouldn't have to do any of that stuff. I use a billpay system, Paytrust, that is owned by Intuit and they have an amazing array of services they offer. They have a business site that is just amazing. There are website builders and book keeping software and just about everything you need to run a business all on one site. They even have a device that hooks to your smart phone so you can accept credit cards. If they had this stuff 10 years ago when I was trying to do my thing I probably would have succeeded. And it's all so reasonably priced...$4.99 a month for a website...Sweet... And I will tell you, I have used Paytrust for years now and have never had a problem. I called their customer service and get immediate help. They are owned by Intuit so I would trust them.

Okay, enough!! How did we get on the topic of businesses??? So that's it. I'm working on reducing or handling my stress and on the hunt for something I can do at home. Let's see if I am successful.

14 August 2011

Slowly making progress

People keep saying life is a marathon not a sprint. If that's the case slow progress is better than fast progress since I have to sustain it longer. Right? Right? Well, I'm telling myself that.

Last night I had dessert for the first time in a week. I had 2 cinnamon sticks from Pizza Hut and a small piece of chocolate cake with some 50/50 ice cream. It was good but it was not worth feeling crappy over. Having this every night makes me feel like h*ll - it's definitely not worth that. But it was a nice treat. That's what I need to keep it at - a treat.

So last night I worked from 12-8:30. Odd hours those. I had lunch/dinner at 4:30. By the time I got home at 8:45 I was a little hungry. Not enough to want to eat a meal but I needed something before bed or I would have woken up this morning starving. I ended up having one piece of pizza and the aforementioned cinnamon sticks, ice cream and cake. Not too terrible when you look at the whole day but not a habit I want to get back into.

Today I work from 2-10, a little bit less. More important is that I'm going to eat normally today. I'm also going to walk Bella and do some things around the house. I'm off....

Monsoon season has arrived

and we got our first rain yesterday. Actually, it's still raining a little this morning. It wasn't a lot of rain, but it was rain....