01 October 2011

FailedI


I can't seem to get this whole healthy lifestyle going. I get motivated for a day or two then lose it. Something happens or something comes up and it all falls apart. I'm done. Really and truly done. I'm thinking about shutting this blog down completely. I've been doing this for 7 years, in fact my 7th blogiversary was on the 26th!!!, and I'm not any further along my journey than I was when I started. In fact, I've moved backward not forward. What I am doing is taking a break. I'm going on hiatus to decide what I want to do. I feel like my life is completely out of my control and I need to focus on regaining control. So I'm off. Maybe it time to consider moving to North Carolina and doing some carpet cleaning durham nc. That might be the way. Seriously though, I have friends in NC and it is really nice there..... Okay, that's it....I'm off.....have fun.....

30 September 2011

One step forward, two steps back


That's what I feel like lately. Every time I get something going, bam!! Something happens to shut me down. I was just getting into an exercise routine and ready to start running again when Bam!!! I sprain my ankle. The actual ankle problem is something that not only goes back 6 years, but is something I believe is not going to be easily fixed. So I could do like I normally do, just ignore it and go on with working out, maybe start running, whatever. But that really hasn't worked well for me. So I think it's time to try something different.

I have really been lying to myself about my food intake. I have been eating an exorbitant amount of food lately and telling myself it's not much. I have been eating sweets like they are going out of style. Yesterday I had 4 macaroon cookies (fat ones), a small piece of cake with the thickest, sweetest icing ever, and more cake and ice cream later that night. Yeah, that was probably about 1,000 calories in sweets alone. Then I ate food. So my thinking is, right at this point I can't do a whole lot of exercise but I can watch what I eat. I can also make sure I don't spend too much time not moving.

The plan: track what I eat so I can quit fooling myself. Eat reasonably and limit sweets to once a day. Avoid junk food - which should not be a problem since I have a fridge full of fruits and veggies. And don't sit at my computer for more than an hour at a time. I have a whole list of things I want to do around the house so I can work on school work for an hour then go do something around the house. School work for another hour then go do something. Rather then just sitting on my butt for 4 hours in a row. I can go take a walk in my neighborhood. I have 3 dogs ready to walk at the drop of a hat. We can cruise and see if there are any houses for rent by owner cause our friend is looking for a place. There are so many things I can do yet I find myself sitting in front of this computer staring at the screen. This has to stop.

I just need to get a little bit of a handle on things. I just need to feel a little bit in control and in charge of my eating and my weight. Baby steps, baby steps. Right now I'm going to have a bowl of cereal then take Bella to the beach. The beach always puts me in a good frame of mind.

28 September 2011

I do not believe this


I have sprained my ankle again!!! Again!!! I just don't freaking believe this.... I sprain this sucker every couple of months. I think it's time to do something about it. Clearly something is wrong if I keep spraining it, so maybe it's time to have it looked at. UGH!!!!!

27 September 2011

Life is full of Do Overs


And here is another one for me. I tend to get down on myself for not being perfect. For not doing things exactly the way I think they should be done. For not reaching goals I set for myself. So I'm trying to develop a more philosophical attitude. Failure is not failure but a learning step on my path. Sort of like practice makes perfect. Well, here I am for another round of practice. I laid out a plan yesterday and I'm really very excited about it. It's a lot like plans I've laid out before so it's a little difficult not to get down on myself. But I'm not going to. I should view it like I did when I finally quit smoking. I must of have a hundred times at least before I finally quit for good. I always said the previous trys were practice for when I did it. Well, all those other attempts were practice. So today starts yet another do over. The 10,000 hour principle at work. You have to do something for 10,000 hours before you become good at it. I have to be approaching that number by now :) So today's plan:


  1. Workout with Bob for an hour
  2. Did into the pile of stuff on my desk
  3. Get a haircut
  4. Clean the birdroom
  5. Dye my hair
  6. Dig into the pile of schoolwork on my other desk
  7. Day 1 of 30/30
  8. Walk dogs
Somewhere in there I'm allowing myself time for a nap if I want and I will eat right all day.  It's not hard. I'm not expecting to climb a mountain or do anything earth shattering, just get stuff done.  So I'm on it.  Today will be a good day.  


26 September 2011

The best laid plans......


I had such high hopes for this break. I really did have big plans, but those got blown out of the water. Let's review:

Last week: Saturday & Sunday I worked Walgreens and had no intention of doing anything but that.
Monday I had nothing to do and ended up sleeping and reading all day. Nice :)
Tuesday - all day conference in Waikiki with some girls from school
Wednesday - morning training session at school, Walgreens until 10. - Hour long workout in a.m. Unbelievably sore in p.m.
Thursday - Walgreens until 8:30 - hour long workout in a.m. Insanely sore feet and legs in p.m.
Friday - Walgreens until 8:30 - hour long workout in a.m. Legs a little better but still sore in p.m.
Saturday - Walgreens until 3:30 - no workout - legs felt fine
Sunday - prepping for my colonoscopy - yoga - spent the rest of the day being hungry and pooping
Monday - colonoscopy at 8 a.m. Spent a lot of the rest of the day sleeping due to anesthesia.

So there you have it. My plans just did not go as well as I hoped. So I have a new plan. Tonight I am going to straighten up my desk/office and get things organized. I will work out everyday for the rest of the break and I will eat well for the rest of the break. I can't do anything about what's done and gone, but I can change the future. I also have to complete my long list of things to do. Figure out how to finish my master's and pay for it. Find some term insurance that's reasonable. Get my car fixed. Figure out a schedule that lets me train Bella every night..... Among other things.

Now, another problem has presented itself. The races for next year are starting to open up. I really want to run. Really, really. Today I got emails for both the Diva Half Marathon in April and the new Honolulu Half Marathon in March. I want to do them both. The reality is can I? Can I be ready for a half marathon in March and can I do two back to back??? Can I? Well, a little research has revealed that there is 24 weeks until the Honolulu Half Marathon. That's 6 months until the 1st race. I can approach this as I've started to approach my other workouts - push myself. I can start really slow and take it easy with couch to 5k or I can do it my way. I can start with Hal Higdon's 30/30 plan. Basically you go out for 30 minutes for 30 days. Walk the first 10 minutes, run the middle 15 minutes, walk the last 5. That's it. At the end of 30 days I'll probably be able to run 2-3 miles pretty easily. That will take me to the beginning of November. From there I will start working towards my 10k on New Years Day. If I can do a 10k on January 1st I can totally do a half marathon 3 months later.

Okay, that's it. I'm convinced. That's my plan. 30 minutes for 30 days. At the same time I'll be eating better and working towards losing the weight. Yes, I have a plan!!!!

Success when I'm not looking

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