21 July 2012

Well color me shocked


I have not been doing so well on my eating and working out lately. With finishing the thesis I have been eating poorly and not working out - spending far too much time on my butt in front of this computer. Last week I completely for got to weigh-in and I almost forgot today, but I remembered at the last second. And to my great surprise, I lost 1 pound in spite of myself. I can not believe it. I'm happy about it. I was going to write about how I wish I had lost more and I should have been working harder, etc. But you know what, I'm not going to think like that. I'm going to be happy about the pound and let it go at that. I could have gained and I didn't so that is a good thing.

Moving on.... I do need to have a plan though. If I don't have a plan not a whole lot gets done and I would like to really workout and eat well this week. So what shall my plan be??? I have no excuses now and a week to play. I want to run so I will be doing that and I need to lose some of this fat. The problem is it has been so freaking hot here. Yesterday afternoon just walking to the bathroom worked up a sweat. So I think I'll workout in the morning and then run in the afternoon at the gym. Either that or run at 6 when it starts to cool down. I could do that. I should get into the habit of working out in the evening since once school starts mornings really won't be an option.

Okay, here's the idea:

  • workout every morning - weights or body weight workout
  • run or walk in the evenings. 
That should work okay. If I workout in the morning my eating will be much better during the day.  So there is my plan for the next 9 days. 

20 July 2012

And so it ends


not with a bang, but a whimper. It is over. My thesis is at the printers waiting to be picked up. I am completely and officially done. All that is left is to get it signed off on Tuesday night. That's it. Pau. Two years. Two years of thinking about it almost every day. Two years of stressing over what I was going to write and how I was going to write it. Two years of thinking it would never happen. And it all ends with a phone call. "Your order is ready." The printer letting me know it's done. So now what. Where do I go from here? How do I move on as someone with a Masters degree? What changes and what doesn't? What now? I have many, many other things to do but when something is gone that has been part of your life for so long there is most definitely a hole.

So now, regardless of all that I have to do, I have time in my life. Having sat at this computer for the better part of the last 2 weeks or so, I need to move. I am going to ride my bike. First I'm going to the printers to pick up my thesis. Then I'm just going to ride. Just ride. I have an appointment in Kailua at 11, but before that I ride. I definitely think I need to just ride and decompress.....

19 July 2012

Snowed Under


This is exactly how I've felt the last few days. I have been in the final throes of thesis writing and have papers and crap all over my desk and office. I submitted the "completed" paper on Sunday and met with my professor on Tuesday night. We went over it and there were some corrections and things to add. I spent the majority of yesterday doing that and sent it to him last night. I am scheduled to meet with him tonight to review it again. With any luck at all, this will be the final review and I can take it to be copied and bound tomorrow. Then I will meet with him next Tuesday to sign off on it and I am done. Wow!!! I can not believe it. For 2 years this thing has been hanging over my head and now I'm so close to being done I can taste it......

As a result though, my working out has taken a back seat to the thesis work. I've done a couple of things here and there but nothing regular or consistent. I did manage to rein in my eating yesterday. On Tuesday my eating was off the hook. I had beans and corn for breakfast. Something strange for lunch that I can't even remember. Dinner was left over from poker when I got home from meeting my professor. Tuesdays food was a train wreck. Yesterday I managed to get it together. Oatmeal for breakfast. Huge salad for lunch. Small amount of chicken, couscous and veggies for dinner. I feel much better this morning then I did yesterday morning.

Today I think I'm going to work on some school stuff. It starts 2 weeks from today and I'm kind of ready but not really. So I think I'm going to clean up this office today and work on school stuff. That sounds like a plan.

17 July 2012

Ups and downs of life


I do wish things would go along on an even keel for awhile. I also know that I can create that evenness if I work at it, but sometimes it's harder then others.

On Sunday I finished my thesis - well, for now, it's undergoing revisions - and I was extremely relieved. Yesterday, my first day without the thesis hanging over my head, was extremely low key. I woke up and by 8am was exhausted so I took a little nap - 30 minutes. Then I did some cleaning, made a great lunch, and ended up making a lilikoi pie. And then I was completely and totally exhausted. By dinner time I was having trouble keeping my eyes open and had to take a 15 minute nap. What is up with that? It could have been a decompressing kind of thing. Sometimes I feel like stress is what keeps me up and moving. Remove the stress and I completely collapse. I hate these roller coaster type of feelings; up with stress, then passed out on the couch. Ugh!!!
So today I'm trying to figure out how I feel. I want to work out but I'm really not sure I have the energy for it. Also, I have a dentist appointment at 11 and I need to write a couple of small papers for my thesis stuff, oh yeah, and a short talk for school. Maybe I'll just get all those things done today. If I don't workout for a couple of days, I'll be itching to, so maybe I'll do that..... I don't know....

16 July 2012

What to do today?


So now that my thesis is out of my hands for the moment, what do I do today? The possibilities are endless. I need to workout - specifically run. I need to clean this room up and put all my thesis stuff away in one place. I need to make some black bean brownies and some lilikoi pie. I need to do laundry and clean this house a little bit. Okay, I have plenty to do today. So let's make a plan:

  • Eat breakfast (cuz I'm starving)
  • Start prepping lilikoi
  • Start laundry
  • Clean room
  • Workout
  • Go to store for ingredients
  • Make brownies and lilikoi pie
  • Clean house
  • Go to City Mill and get paint for desk
I think that's enough for one day. I probably won't get everything done but that's okay. Oh, and definitely a nap.  I'm off to start my day. 

15 July 2012

Free Time


Yes, I will have some. I have finished my thesis and will have some free time now. There are still things to do, but nothing like my thesis. I am relieved and happy and just so excited.

So now that I will have a little free time, I need to plan some workouts. Tomorrow I am going to ride my bike and go to the gym and run. I am going to ride my bike for an hour and then run and then ride home. After that....who knows???? No seriously, I have things that I want to do so I may do some of those things.

Right now I just need to dwell in the feeling of not having a thesis hanging over my head.

Yesterday


turned out to be an awesome day. I got up in the morning and had breakfast immediately. Around 8 am I left for the gym and rode my bike over. I have not ridden my bike in a week or so and it was brutal. Brutal I tell you. But I made it to the gym and hit the treadmills. I started couch to 5k - again. So Week 1 Day 1 is 5 minute warm up, 60 second running/90 second walking 8 times. I started running at 5mph and every run interval cranked it up. My last run interval was 6.0mph and it wasn't that hard. Yes, it was only for 60 seconds, but for those 60 seconds I felt incredible. Then I headed down to the Bodypump class and did that. I powered through those moves even when it felt like my muscles were on fire. And, if that wasn't enough, I then hopped on my bike and rode over to Kailua to meet Hubby and head to Whole Foods. My legs were thrashed by the time I hooked up with Hubby. They felt like wet noodles. Awesome!!!! I spent the rest of the day taking it easy and worked on my thesis a little bit. But what a fabulous day. My arms this morning are feeling the workout yesterday. Woo Hoo!!!

A couple of things that occurred to me yesterday. First, I am much, much stronger then I give myself credit for. If I can run at 6mph at this weight, I am a runner. So I really am strong. Also, the best days are the days I do things. I rarely say I had a good day just sitting around the house. So I need to get out and do things.....

The bad part is I don't have a plan for today. Yikes.... I have been up for an hour already and don't know what I'm going to do today. I better go figure it out right now.

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