16 February 2013

Shaking myself off

kind of like a dog getting out of water. I've been a little down lately, not sure exactly why, but I have. And I'm done with it. Yes, things are not perfect and they never will be. There will always be problems or challenges or whatever. That is life. But things are pretty damn good right now and I need to focus on the positive not the negative. The last few days I've started to get my eczema back and that only happens when I'm super stressed. So this is me officially dumping the slight depression that's been hanging around and taking back my positive, cheery self.

It's going to be a good weekend. I have Crossfit this morning. Then later I'm taking Bella and picking up a friend to go to the Great Aloha Run Expo. We need to pick up our packets and maybe do a little shopping :P Then it's home to do some chores and clean a little. Tomorrow I tutor for an hour and hopefully meet someone to hand off donations for a yard sale. Then Monday is the Great Aloha Run. I'll probably end up walking most of it but I'm okay with that. Then in the afternoon I plan on hitting Crossfit. Woot!!!! I also want to do a little cooking and prepping of food this weekend.

It's weird. After I wrote the above I could feel my attitude changing. Instead of feeling down, like I did a couple of minutes ago, I'm starting to feel upbeat and cheery. Hmmmm.... Maybe I should investigate some wholesale envelope printing and have positive messages printed on them to remind myself. It's funny how you can make a decision and boom!!! the brain just follows along. Cool!!!!

So I do plan on blogging more than I have been in the recent past. I need to track these moods and all the other things in my life. In a matter of weeks life will be getting really crazy and I will need an outlet to keep on top of it. Plus, this positive attitude just fits me so much better than a negative one. I'm off to get ready for Crossfit. Time to kick some serious ass!!! (my own :)

Rough night

End of a rough week. Came home tonight and was completely exhausted so I decided to skip Crossfit. I don't like to do that but sometimes you just have to. I will most definitely go tomorrow morning though....

Got some good news today, my financial aid went through and I've got my first year of my PhD funded. I'm excited about that. I was a little worried, not exactly sure why, but I was. So that is a one hurdle cleared. Now I just have to pass the classes.

That's really all I have to say. Just wanted to document the missed workout for posterity. Good night all...

15 February 2013

This week's been rough

Yeah, kind of like that. I've been really struggling with a couple of different things and I'm not sure why - though I do have some ideas.

So first, I bought a new car, as I talked about last time. This has caused some minor uneasiness in my life because I keep thinking that maybe I should have waited. It's kind of silly to worry about that now, it's a done deal, but I can't help but think that.

Second, we got hit with, what could be, a major financial problem. I'm trying not to let it get to me, but it is bothering me a bit.

Third, I seemed to have reached a plateau with Crossfit. I try to work my hardest, but I don't feel like I am. I wrote in my journal last week, that I feel like I've been phoning in the workouts. I feel like I have the ability to work a whole lot harder than I am, but I don't. As a result, I feel like I'm stuck. I want to get better but I can't seem to.....

Finally school. My heart has not been in it this week and it is showing big time. I have been really low energy and that seriously effects the classes. I hate when I am this way, but it is hard to shake.

On the good side, this is Friday and we have a 3 day weekend. I had thought of blogging everyday for a week or two to try and track things and see if I can figure out exactly what's going wrong. I may give that a go. I also want to record my Crossfit workouts and see about taking them to the next level. Also, it's a 3 day weekend and I have plans for tomorrow and Monday. Yeah. Monday is the Great Aloha Run. I've done this race for years, but not in the last couple. I'm not in any condition to run 8 miles, but it will still be a fun time.

Okay, pity party is over. There are many, many things I can't control in my life, but I can control how I respond to them and that's what I'm going to work on. I'm going to have fun this weekend. Do some things I enjoy. Maybe bust out my camera. I need to change my attitude.

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