15 June 2013

Outside my comfort zone

I am not a social person. I'm just not. I never really have been. When I look back over my life I see times when I've been more social than others, but in general - not very social. Mostly that's okay. I enjoy being a loner and prefer to spend times with my dogs. But there are times when I think I should be more social and so I force myself to be. Last night was one of those nights.

The box has been selling a book called the Supple Leopard. It's written by a Crossfitter about mobility. It's really a good book and has already helped me even though I'm not half way through it. So the group decided to form a book club to discuss it, since it is very dense with information. All day yesterday I was waffling about going, but I ended up forcing myself strictly because it was outside my comfort zone. It was fun. I'm glad I went. I was the first to leave, but then I'm not 20 or 30 something anymore. I can't stay up half the night and still be functional the next morning. Even though I was in bed by 10 pm, I'm feeling a little draggy this morning. I need to eat and feel better before Crossfit.

So I stepped outside my comfort zone and had a pretty good time. I have to do that again today with a friend's fathers funeral. That will not be fun, but I'll do it for this friend.

12 June 2013

Today was awesome

I got up and went to Crossfit at 6 am. I really don't have time to do that, but I love the 6 am workout. That's my favorite. So I went today. It was a great WOD but that wasn't the really great thing. For the last couple of weeks, I've been stuck at 50#. In almost any move, I default to 50#. I'm afraid of hurting my shoulder, and there are some moves when it just doesn't feel strong enough. I can do anything with 50#. Which is quite amazing when you think about it, but that's for another post. The WOD today was:

  • 11 front squats
  • 220 jump rope
  • 8 front squats
  • 160 jump rope
  • 5 front squats
  • 100 jump rope
A fairly short workout, so they wanted the weights on the front squat to be heavy to make it intense. My mind immediately went to 50#, but I said no. My max front squat is 135#. 80% of that is about 110# - that's what I should have used. I compromised and used 95#. At first I could not even get it off the floor. But eventually I did and I did the entire WOD with 95#. 
It was hard, but not impossible. My shoulder didn't say a word the entire time and I was the first one done. The first person done usually makes me think one of two things. Either I look at them and think, wow, they killed it. Or I look at them and think, they could have used more weight. I was the first person done and there was no way I could have done more weight. What saved me was I jump rope really fast. Also, the next person was less than 30 seconds behind me. So I can say with confidence, I killed that workout!!!!

11 June 2013

Just in case I needed more evidence

of the amazing effects of eating right. Today, Day 2 of eating like a human again, has given it to me. Normally around 1-2 pm, I start to get sleepy. For the past few days, I've been lying down and really passing out for a good hour or so. Today, after lunch, I laid on the couch to do some reading. My eyes got heavy and I thought I would take a little nap. I closed my eyes but could not go to sleep. At. All. I tried for around 10 minutes then gave up and started reading again. Also, I have gotten so much done today, it's not funny. Very productive holiday. So in spite of the fact that I was up at 5 am and did Crossfit at 6 am, I am still going strong and feeling good. Amazing.

What a difference

can make. Since Wednesday of last week, my eating was a tiny bit out of control. I had McDonald's 3 times!!! I haven't gone to McDonald's 3 times in 6 months, now I do it in less than a week!?!?!?!?!! I also went to a local burger place, twice. Then there was movie night, with soda and popcorn. What else....Oh yes, desserts, desserts, desserts. So it's been a wild couple of days. Yesterday I woke up feeling pretty crappy and decided I needed to get a handle on things. So I did. Clean eating, Crossfit, rest, what a difference. By last night I felt awesome and this morning I felt incredible. It will keep building the longer I stay away from the junk.

I had an epiphany last night. I was lamenting some things in my life when it hit me, as a younger person I never, ever considered the future. I completely lived in the moment with no regard to the future. None. Not as far as my health was concerned, or money, or jobs or anything. It's kind of disheartening to make that realization. I'm not sure why that was, but it absolutely was. There are some things going on now that are repercussions of things that happened, or didn't happen, a while ago. I can remember thinking at the time that we would deal with it when it came up. Stupid, I know. It really made me think. Is it too late to change things? I know I can stop doing that, and I have, I actually did years ago, but can I fix the past? It's a sobering thought. Here I am 54 years old and never considered the future before. I wonder why I had that mindset. Could it be the times I grew up in? Face it, I grew up during the 70's and was a young adult in the 80's, not exactly times when you planned ahead. Those were times of living for the moment. Hmmm...makes me think.

Anyway, I went to Crossfit this morning, I love the 6 am time slot. I wonder if I could make it work during summer school? The unknown variable is always the traffic. If it's good, no problem getting to school in time. If it's bad, yikes!!!! Anyway.... I have some school work to do and some heavy thinking to do.....

09 June 2013

Nothing to do

For the first time in a while, I don't have anything pressing that needs to be done today. Nothing. I'm caught up on all my classes. My summer school class is easy and doesn't require a lot of forethought. So today is a pretty free day. I don't want to waste it though. I'm going to do some house cleaning, then I'm taking Bella to the beach. She's also going to get her nails done today. I hate doing that. It's so traumatic for her, but her dang nails grow so fast. I also have a friend who is looking for free bankruptcy lawyers, I have some suggestions I have to send her. There you go, a nice easy day. I love it.

Sometimes things need to blow up before they can be fixed

So yesterday I kind of let loose on the 'friendship' chat. The girl who was away for a funeral was back and asked who was going to t...