Step Away From the Cake

It was a little over a year ago I first tried the paleo diet. Prior to that I had all manner of things going wrong with me. Nothing serious, but being really tired, bloated, mentally fuzzy, etc. Things that I thought were just a part of old age. Once I started the paleo diet these things started clearing up. I felt better, thought better, was able to work out better. It was awesome. But I didn't stick with it and I'm not sure why. I'm not sure why I began eating foods that made me feel horrible again. I'm not sure why I put my body through the stress of eating crap. I'm not sure. What I am sure of is 2 days back on paleo and I am already starting to feel awesome again. I know that I will suffer a lack of energy, I expect that to hit any time now, but ultimately I will feel a whole lot better. Hubby is working nights next week, so tonight is our last dinner together for a while. I am going to use this week to go full blown paleo. This weekend I'm going shopping ...

Well I have managed to string 2 good days together. Yeah me. Today was better than yesterday. I have had no grains at all, yesterday I had rice. It feels good to be back in control. Here's to day 3.

The week comes to an end and we are looking at a 3 day weekend. Today I am grateful for my friends. I don't have many friends, I never have, but the friends I have at work are awesome. I'm grateful that I have geeky people who not only appreciate my humor but trust me with things. Most of the people I work with are awesome, some are really annoying but they teach me patience.

Today was a good day. I got up early and ran. I ran!!! I. Ran. I was so excited. I did day 1, week 1 of couch to 5k. I walked at 3 mph and ran at 5 mph with a burst at 5.5 mph towards the end. It felt okay. No real pain or problems. I was tired later in the day, but that's about it. I have decided to do the couch to 5k as slow as I need to. I'm going to listen to my body and repeat weeks if I need to. I want to build up to running for the rest of my life, so taking it slow it fine with me. Today I am grateful for my dogs. Do you know how much I love those 3? They absolutely make my day to come home to them. I love them to death. I am grateful for the chance to know them and share my life with them for a while. They make me very happy, I hope I make their life better. I am very grateful for the dogs I have now and every dog I've ever had. Every dog has taught me something and brought something into my life that no human could. I am grateful for my dogs.

I have been eating with abandon this week. Since Monday things have just been crazy. There have been donuts and cookies and desert most nights and not enough Crossfit. I planned to get up and run this week and every single morning I have slept in. So, as I said in my previous post, tomorrow is a new day. Time to get my act together and get back on that wagon. I will get up and run in the morning. I will eat good food tomorrow. And I will go to Crossfit tomorrow night. And I will NOT have desert tomorrow. If I can get just one good day, one really good day, under my belt things will get better. Success breeds success. I have found that by being proactive, doing things and getting them under control, it makes the world a lot easier. So one good day is all I'm looking for and tomorrow is that day.

Today was another good day. The only thing that went wrong was my eating. When I got to the faculty room this morning there were donuts and I indulged. Then there were cookies. And some salt water taffy. Yeah, not a good day. Then I skipped Crossfit. I did however, pass up desert, so there's that. But tomorrow is another day. And that leads to what I am grateful for today. Tomorrow. Every day is a new start. I have the ability to start over at any time. And every new start is a clean slate and time for hope. So tomorrow is a new day another chance to get it right. I'm willing to give it another go.

Today was a good day. It was a busy day. I had classes for 4.5 out of 5 hours, but it was great. I realized that I am very grateful for my kids. I get to teach a wide variety of kids and generally I like them all. I was having a lot of fun with them today, teaching and making them think for themselves. It was great. I know the other day I was grateful for my job, but this is a little different, I'm grateful for the kids themselves. They make my job interesting, frustrating, head-banging, and fun. I did not get up and run this morning, I overslept. When I did get up my knee was pretty swollen. It didn't hurt but it was pretty good sized. The plan was to run after work, but that didn't happen either. So day 1 of running was a no go. I am going to get up and run tomorrow, so it starts then. In just 5 days of gratitude things have changed for me. I have a much better attitude towards everything. I am not focusing so much on the future, or what's going to happen, but on...

Yes, I do think I will use the same picture for the next 30 days. Right now is very, very difficult to come up with something I'm grateful for. I just got back from Crossfit and I am steaming mad. Pissed off. Ready to rip someone's head off. Why you ask? Well, I'll tell you. For months I have not been able to really run. I can hobble a bit now and then, but real running has been out of the question. My knee has been feeling better since I started using the rock tape, and I've been doing a bit more running. Well, tonight's WOD was Helen. 3 rounds, 400 m, 21 kb swings, 12 pullups. I did the first 400 m and came in way last. The second and third runs I only ran about 300 m. By the last run I was pissed. I am sick of tired of this BS. I want to run. I'm going to run. I'm going to start running in the mornings on the treadmill. That was the plan anyway. I'm doing it. I am sick and tired of being injured and playing the victim. F*ck that!!! I'm completel...

Today was a good day. Busy, but good. I got up early and started working on a poster board I had to do for an open house at school today. After that I got some research done for a paper that is due next week. Then it was off to Crossfit for a brutal workout. Then home to shower and head out to the aforementioned open house. Then sat around there for 3 hours - kind of boring, but at least I had people to talk to this year. Then it was a trip to Best Buy for something. And finally home. We went out to dinner and now I'm exhausted. Today I am grateful for my health. I have been very lucky in the health dept. I have never been really sick. I have never had any major problems or issues. I have had my share of aches, pains, flus, colds, and injuries, but overall I'm in pretty good shape. I'm grateful for that. I see people all around with all manner of illness and injury. I am thankful to have kept my health this long.

I'm still working on the evening blogging thing so bear with me. Yesterday was an awesome day. I was focused, got things done, and still managed to have lunch with hubby. It was great. I'm grateful for my husband. We have been married for 24 years and together for 29. There have been a lot of ups and downs, but we have always hung in there. Many times I think that I wish he was more driven, or cared about the things I care about. But the truth is, I love him just the way he is. We compliment each other perfectly. When I get crazy, he is calm and focused. When he gets nuts, I can talk him down. It works. After 29 years we are still completing each others sentences, cracking the same stupid inside jokes, and thinking of the same thing at the same times. It's silly and goofy and I love it. So day 2 I am grateful for my husband.