27 September 2014

I choose happiness

What a difference a few hours and a change of attitude can make. I was so mad and grumpy and whiny last night, but I made the decision that when I went to bed it would end. I would wake up and I would be happy. So I woke up this morning and felt pretty good. I went to Crossfit for the couples throwdown even though I didn't have a partner. I figured I would do the workout alone if I had to. I quickly found a partner though and all was good. The first WOD was: 200m run/row, push press then 200m run/row, double unders then 200m run/row, back squats. One partner would run while the other did the movement. When the partner got back from the run they would switch. The second WOD was a weight ladder. We could snatch, clean & jerk, or just clean it. Snatch was 4 points, C&J 2 points, and clean 1 pt. We had one minute at each bar and there were 7 bars. I think it started at 45, 55, 65,75, 85, 95, 115 but I'm not 100% positive. The final event was a chipper. 40 kb swings, 40 wall balls, 40 weighted sit-ups, and 40 partner burpees. This you could break up however you wanted, we chose to do 10 at a time to not burn ourselves out. For the first WOD our team came in 2nd. The second WOD we came in 9th, and the third WOD was 6th. Overall we finished tied for 5th place. It was super fun. It was an awesome workout and it helped to cement my positive attitude. I did well, much better than I thought I would, and I had a great time doing it.

This is going to sound really strange, but I have been wondering if the antibiotics I've been taking are behind this. I went to the doc a week ago Wednesday for an ear infection. She gave me drops and antibiotics. By Sunday my mood had turned to shit. I was angry. Really. Angry. For no apparent reason. This hung around through Monday and Tuesday. It finally subsided but then I had a low grade headache for the rest of the week. After about a week, I started to forget to take my antibiotics and I haven't had any now for 3 days and I'm starting to feel better. Coincidence??? I don't know. I have not taken antibiotics in a long, long time. It just struck me as weird that I haven't taken them in forever and I haven't been in that bad a mood in forever. Also, once I stop taking them the bad mood seems to lift. I don't know, but it sure is weird.

Anyway, I am ready to get back on track and back into a good attitude. A good attitude feels so much better than a bad one.

26 September 2014

Time to change things up

This week has been crazy. I started the week in a really bad mood. For two days, I was just in a foul, foul mood. I finally shook that, but things didn't get a whole lot better. I have a senior homeroom and they are a bunch of jerks. I mean serious, jerks. I only have them for ten minutes a day, but it is ten minutes of hell. Yesterday I had an incident with one of them during one of my classes and that was the final straw. I just lost it on them this morning. I am not letting them in the room until seconds before the bell rings. The door remains locked and if they aren't there when I take roll they cannot enter the room without a pass. I am ignoring them outside of class like they don't exist at all. I am done with them. That colored my whole day today and I was a bit of an as*hole to the rest of my classes. But apparently they got over it, because a couple of them came to my room this afternoon to do homework, so I guess I wasn't that bad.

We found out last week that the good neighbors are moving. That really sucks because they were a buffer between us and the idiots. But then we found out that someone we know may be interested in the house. Fingers crossed that that works out.

On the way to work this morning, I hit my mirror on a garbage can :( I couldn't believe it. The mirror folds, so nothing broke, but the glass was jarred loose. I have to figure out some way to glue that back in place. Ugh!

I did not get up and go to Crossfit this morning. Too Lazy. Tomorrow they are having this couple throwdown thing. Good god, I just want to work out. I don't want to have to go there and cheer other teams on and make nice, I just want a freaking sweatfest workout. There is a potluck after and I am definitely in no mood for that at all. I don't know what I'm going to do about that.....

So, I can't change anything that is happening. I have no control over people or events. I can however, change my attitude. And that is what I need to do. I can't change the fact that my homeroom is full of jerks, but I can change how I react to them. It will be like today. Not allowed in until seconds before the bell. Door locked and no one comes in without a note and no one leaves. Treat them like crap. I can't change the fact that my neighbors are moving, I can only hope that things work out well. I'm trying to look at this as a blessing in disguise. These neighbors, though good, were never home. Maybe someone will move in who are home more often and whom we can make friends with. Poker on Tuesday, football on Sunday. That would be great and it would drive the idiots crazy. So that is nothing I can control, but I can hope and pray. My mirror can be easily fixed and that is not a problem at all. And Crossfit....I can go and do the workout and then leave...or I can not go....I can go to Kailua.....I can do something here at home.....I have numerous options, so that is just being petty.

I need to shake this negativity and start focusing on the positive. I know that negative attitudes attract negative things. I also know that a negative attitude makes me tired and less energetic. So I have to shake it. And I have to shake it now. I am watching TV and will be going to bed soon. I am going to wake up in the morning with a much better attitude. I am going to work on that attitude tomorrow. All. Day. I need to lose this and I need to lose it quick.

This is why I keep this blog. Just writing this out and analyzing it, I feel much better. I feel like a weight has been lifted off my brain. Time to look on the bright side.

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