Showing posts from October 12, 2014

10 days after I surrendered

things are not a whole lot better. I don't like the way I feel. I have not been going to Crossfit as much as I would like to. I am getting lazier and lazier. I have little to no motivation. I am eating more crap than I want to and I can't seem to help myself. I don't want to battle my weight anymore but I can't just let it go either. I need to do something. I cannot continue on this way. I have to change the way I eat. The way I exercise. The way everything happens. As it is now I can barely get out of bed in the morning. By 1-2pm I am exhausted and yawning away. I come home from work and end up napping in my chair. Sometimes I walk the dogs. Then there is dinner and I spend the rest of the night on the couch until bed. That has got to stop. I'm not sure exactly what to do, but I've got to do something. Maybe I need to break up my meals and eat more frequently. I need to create meals that can be broken up and easily eaten quickly. Maybe. I am going to force my…