07 February 2015

Searching for motivation


I've been feeling lately like time is not on my side. I need time. Time to work on my prospectus. Time to work out my eating. Time. Time. Time. The one thing that is in very short supply. So instead of time, I need motivation to move my ass and make progress on all these things. So if someone has a great white, please send it over.

I'm reading the book I mentioned last post and I have to say it is making a whole lot of sense. One thing he mentions is that there is no good reason to eat every 2-3 hours and that humans should be able to skip a meal here and there with no problems. That is exactly what I found when I followed strict paleo. I got hungry but it was not that crazy I MUST EAT NOW hunger, it was more a hey, time for food. And if I didn't get to it right away it was no problem at all. That makes sense to me too because ancient humans didn't have access to food 24-7 like we did and I'm sure it was not possible to eat every 2-3 hours. He seems to take Paleo and push it a little further and it all makes sense. For example, he says that some people have no problem with dairy, so remove it completely for a month and then add it back in to see if it bothers you. That makes complete sense and is a great way to determine if you can tolerate milk.

The real reason I wanted to write this post is that I have to make a to do list to really get things done. I took off yesterday to get some stuff done and I didn't really accomplish what I wanted to. But I do want to get everything done today so that I have tomorrow free. I'm over these classes and I need to be done with them. So my to-do list for today is:

  • Crossfit 
  • Breakfast
  • Shower
  • Finish videos for class #1
  • Comment on other classes
  • Complete assignment for class #2
  • Comment on others in class #2
  • Post everything for grading. 
  • Walk the dogs
That's it. I walk the dogs around 4 pm, so that means all of this has to be done by then. None of it is terribly complicated, I just need to sit down and get it done. That is what today is focused on. No games, no tv, no nothing until this is all done. 

Okay, time to get ready for Crossfit. 



05 February 2015

WTF?????


I cannot seem to get my act together this week. I've been really tired and just not able to get it all together. I've been horrible in school and I haven't been much better at home. I'm not sure what is wrong exactly. I cannot get control of my eating. I feel huge. I'm tired. I'm lazy. What the f*ck is wrong with me?????

There are about 3 hours between that first paragraph and now. After I wrote that last sentence it all kind of clicked for me. Since the beginning of the year I have been trying to do this myself. I have not had a definite program, just some general plans; eat less, no sugar, workout more, blah, blah, blah. I realized I cannot do it that way. I have never been able to do it that way. I need a hardcore plan. I need a program. I need something to follow. That got me thinking about something I had read a while back. There is this facebook page I follow by Jason Seib. He was publishing some Fat Loss Tips and they made a lot of sense.
  • eat enough calories
  • prioritze sleep
  • manage stress
  • don't drink calories
  • don't eat healthier versions of garbage
 Things like that. He has recently published a book so, after debating it for 3 hours, I bite the bullet and bought it.

Okay, it has been kind of emotionally draining tonight. It always is when I face my demons. 

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