Showing posts from July 12, 2015

Dying dreams and to do lists

First my to do list. I am done with summer school, yesterday was the last day - yeah!!!! Now I have about 2 weeks until school starts up again. Not only that, I have gotten a position as an online college instructor - woo hoo!!!! Plus, I need to make some progress on my thesis, I have done nothing on it over the past 7 weeks. And, I need to be organized for school, I need lesson plans and calendars and rosters and all kinds of things. So, now that I'm home for awhile, I need a to do list every day. I find that if I have a plan I generally stick to it, not always, but mostly, but if I don't have a plan nothing gets done. Nothing. So I will have a plan every day. Normally, I will create the plan the night before, but yesterday I was too busy enjoying summer school being done. So, today's plan is as follows:

Wake up, weight myself, eat within 30 minutes of getting upcomputer for no more than 1 hour (I'm a little over that limit right now but want to get this list done…

Not quite what I had in mind

My fabulous plan lasted all of 2 days. Oh well, I guess that's better than not at all. In my defense my current excuses are that the humidity was through the roof last weekend. One day was so muggy you could not move without breaking a sweat. Also, my foot is getting better but it is slow going. So those are my excuses for not following through.

Tomorrow is the last day of summer school and I am so looking forward to that. I had begun to think that something might be wrong with me. I have no energy, no motivation, not desire to do anything. Then I realized there was something wrong with me, I'm a f*cking lazy as*. My diet sucks, I'm not working out, no wonder I feel like sh*t. So after tomorrow I will go back to my just f*cking do it plan. But tonight I think I need to go to sleep.