24 July 2015

Another good day

Yesterday was another really good day, Day 4. The desire for sugar seems to have left the building, I know it's never really gone and I have to be aware of it all the time. Making my meals has become a given. All thoughts of fast food or junk food is just gone. For the past week, I've been having a banana with my coffee when I get up. The thought process is that many, many nutritionists recommend eating within 30 minutes of getting up to rev up your metabolism. So I've been grabbing a banana with my coffee and eating it. Well, the last couple of days, by 8 am I am exhausted. Completely wiped out, like I had to take a nap two days in a row. So today I did not eat the banana and while I'm yawning - need to get moving - I do not feel like I need a nap. So hmmm....

But I cannot get over how amazing I feel. My stomach does not feel like it is sticking out a mile in front of me. Except for the morning exhaustion, my energy levels have been pretty darn good. I haven't taken an afternoon nap all week and I've walked the dogs the last couple of days because my foot has been feeling really good.

Speaking of my foot. I did a workout at the beginning of the week that left me sore. Really, really sore. Sore quads, hamstrings, calves, etc. While I was so incredibly sore, my foot was killing me. Like I could hardly walk pain. As my legs recovered, the pain in my foot got better. That just tells me that the pain in my foot is caused by my leg. So I have not done anything but walk since then and the foot is getting better and better. I figure to stay inactive until the foot is healed and then I will slowly start to add activity in. I'm walking now, just the dogs at night, so I will start with more walking. If that remains good, I'll start adding in some short running bursts. I plan on eventually going back to Crossfit, but I'm going to build up to it slowly. I figure it will be at least 2 months and as many as 6 months before I return. I'm okay with that. I'm in this for the long haul and not for the moment. I think that is part of my problem. I don't think about the long haul, I think only about now. And so I paid the price. But that is okay, a good lesson to learn. So I'm on the road to recovery and however long it takes is how long it takes. As long as I can keep my eating in check, I should be okay.

Alright. Enough rambling for today. I'm going to make some breakfast, shower, and figure out exactly what I'm doing today. I'm meeting a friend for lunch, but before that???? Who knows?????

Update: I am so very proud of myself today. I knew I was going out to lunch and I planned for it. I had a smaller breakfast than normal and I chose a chicken quesadilla for lunch. Awesome. Felt so good. Feel so good. So proud. Good choices. Woot!! Woot!!! Now I'm going to finally eat dinner.

23 July 2015

Day 3

Beginning to feel like I'm on a roll. Yesterday was day 3 in my just one day and it was pretty good. I was really tired, like took a nap at 8 am tired, but I think that might have been from the lack of sugar. Yesterday marked 3 days I have gone without sugar. There is a point where my body goes through withdrawals from sugar and that may have been happening yesterday. I honestly didn't start out to eliminate sugar, but as a result of eating whole food and not snacking, I did and it's awesome. So expect for feeling a little tired and sluggish - which will pass - I'm feeling pretty good. I no longer feel like I'm pregnant with my stomach sticking out in front of me. I am regular - if you know what I mean. I have been tracking my food at my fitness pal and I just checked and my sugar intake has not exceeded 60 grams in the last 3 days. Most of those 60 grams have come from bananas and beets. Awesome. I don't mind sugar that comes from food, I just would like to avoid added sugar. So things are going very well. I have been weighing myself each morning and while I haven't seen any loss yet, my weight seems to have stabilized. No wild fluctuations up or down. So except for some tiredness, which I seem to be feeling today also, I'm really feeling good. Plus, I know that once this tiredness passess I'll be full of energy.

Another good thing, yesterday was the first day in a long, long time I was not in agony walking. My foot hurt a little bit, but nothing serious. I walked the dogs and it really felt amazing. So hopefully that is on the mend also.

Just going to keep plugging along for just one more day. Just one day......

22 July 2015

Really good day 2

Today was really good. I'm a little surprised by that, but it was. I stuck to my eating plan and stayed away from sugar. I had planned for a large lunch and still kept my day reasonable. I am so proud of myself right now. Mostly because I stayed away from sugar. That is huge on day 2. I went to school this morning and did some work in my classroom. Tomorrow I'm staying home and working on stuff here so it should be another good day. Just one day. I need to keep that focus. I have to avoid looking at the big picture and getting overwhelmed. Just one day. I need to keep that in mind for all the things I have to do. Just focus on what I can do today, let tomorrow take care of itself. Just one day....

21 July 2015

Very Good Day 1

Today was good. I was kind to myself and it really seemed to work. I did not complete everything on my list, but I made progress on everything and that is awesome. I ended up going to school for a couple of hours and working on my classroom. But I made a good breakfast and came home for a good lunch. I did not have any sugar all day and I did not take a nap. Neither of these things were on my list but those are things that I do when I'm feeling good. I did not feel exhausted today but my foot did hurt like crazy. So, today was a huge success in my book

Tomorrow is just one more day. I will do tomorrow like I did today. It is just for one day.

19 July 2015

Just tired

I have moments when I think there might be something wrong with me. I'm tired and have no motivation. Then I look at my lifestyle and realize what is wrong is the way I'm living. I have sparks where I work to get back on track and then I fall off again. Yesterday started so well, I ate well and felt great. Then we had chili dogs for lunch and chinese food for dinner and donuts for dessert. Ugh!!! I get angry and decide to switch everything around only to have it fail. Then I say I'm going to take baby steps and get impatient. I just don't know what to do anymore. I'm sitting here in pain. My foot hurts, my back hurts, I have a bit of a headache. Ugh. I need to get more exercise and I need to get my eating under control. So what to do, what to do......

I did go shopping at Costco today and stocked up on veggies and healthy stuff. Since I will be home for the next 2 weeks I figured I better have good food around. So I think I need to focus on one day at a time or as I like to say, just one day.

I need to focus on just one day at a time. I cannot think about how much weight I have to lose or how much pain I am in or what I can't do. I need to focus on the positive, on the things I can do at this point. So for tomorrow I will do that. I will focus on food, eating good food and tracking it. I will try to walk but I'm not going to get crazy about it. I have things to do prepping for school and writing my dissertation so I will focus on the things I can control. I will do what I can and learn to be happy with it. I will not beat myself up over what I can't do, I will be happy and grateful for what I can do. Okay, I feel better already. I need to be kind to myself but at the same time strict. I need to switch my thinking around so that eating well is being kind to myself and eating junk is being mean. If I can get that thinking going and then work on being kind to myself, I think I will have better success.

Okay, I do feel like a weight has been lifted. I think starting the day with 1,000 calorie breakfast didn't help my mental state. I feel better now I have a plan and that always helps. Now I need to put together a to-do list for tomorrow. I need to have that to keep me on track. So let's go:


  • 1 hour writing proposal which will require at least 1 hour of reading before hand
  • Get 2 weeks of lesson plans for all classes ready
  • Finalize the Science Survivor game
  • Create Chemistry Cash
  • Walk dogs
This week: 
  • Vacuum and steam floor
  • clean computer room
  • clean kitchen
  • clean bathroom

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