01 August 2015

Well, that got off track fast

So this was totally not where my day was headed when I started my first post this morning. I wanted to develop a workout plan that would work for me and I need to work on a dissertation schedule that I can stick to. This letter makes completing this dissertation all the more important.

So a workout plan. I'm thinking of some strength work in the mornings. I want to focus on my upper body because it is so very weak. So here are the exercises I'm thinking of:

  • bicep curls
  • tricep extensions
  • dips
  • floor press
  • chest flys
  • push-ups
  • rows
  • reverse flys
  • overhead press
  • lateral raise
I will also add in some 
  • squats
  • sit-ups
  • lunges
  • supermans
I'm going to create a little grid that will do 2 or 3 of these a day. Then over the course of a week, I will hit all these muscles. I'm excited about this. I want to gain upper body strength so that I'm stronger when I return to Crossfit in January. 

I would also like to add some aerobic activity in the evenings. Okay, I just went and checked Beachbody.com and I can use Chromecast to broadcast it on the living room TV. Awesome. They have a 20 minute dance video that I think will be perfect to start. I'll come home from school and either walk the dogs or do beach body, then do the other. Sounds really good.

Okay, I got the workouts under control, now the dissertation. After walking the dogs/dancing, we will inevitably have dinner and I will have to clean up the kitchen and prepare for the next day. So dissertation work can happen at the end of the night. I guess if I go to the computer by 8 pm, I can work until 9 pm and then go to bed. Yes, there are TV programs I will miss, and some that I really want to watch, but overall I think this will work. Sometimes I can put the TV on while I work on my dissertation sometimes. Of course, there are only a few nights that there is anything on worth watching.

Okay, I think I have a plan. 15 minutes of strength in the mornings. 20 minutes of cardio in the evenings. Work on dissertation after dinner/clean up. Now I'm going to log these in my planner for next week.

Serenity Now!!!!

So the letter was from a lawyer the assholes contacted and it's about parking.

I'm not that worried about it, just more pissed off than anything. I have spent the morning since I got it, drafting a response. I have tons of pictures to document exactly what happened and I don't really think anything will come of it. Exactly what can they do? They can call the cops, but the cops have already told them there is nothing they can do. Take us to civil court? For what? They can still get in and out of their house. Also, a judge will tell us not to park in the common driveway and we have proof that we don't, sooooo?????? I don't know. What I do know is that anyone can hire a lawyer to write a letter about anything. What I also know is that I have lots of documentation, and will continue to collect more, to support claims that they are insane.

I need to blow this off. They really do not have a leg to stand on and once the lawyers see that they will tell them not to pursue it. They can, of course, do anything they like. I just know that I will be out of here in the not too distant future.

Okay, serenity now, serenity now........

After a slight detour, I'm

The last 3 days, things have really gotten off track. I thought that yesterday, Friday, would put things right again but I was wrong. Yesterday found me not drinking enough water - again - not eating lunch at a reasonable time, sitting on my butt for far longer than I anticipated, and drinking and eating fast food last night. So that is over and done and the door is officially closed on last week. Today starts a whole new week.

I have a few things I need to do this weekend. First, I must work out a workout plan. I have not done any sort of serious workout in a month now. Time to get moving again. As I said yesterday, I really, really, really want to build upper body strength and cardio endurance, so those things will be my focus. Today I want to research some upper body routines and try out the dance program I signed up for. My foot is still bothering me and I need to be careful with it, but I'm tired of not doing anything. I would also like to add in some yoga for flexibility and mobility. Maybe an upper body routine and a little yoga in the morning and dancing at night? I will have to work that out and then create a schedule and stick to it. I am determined to change my life this time. I have goals, be Crossfit ready by Jan 1st.

I also need to work out a schedule to work on my dissertation. That has seriously been hit or miss and I'm kind of tired of thinking about it. I want to get into the habit of working on it and then I won't have to think about it so much. I find that I only think about things when I'm trying to avoid them. So I just need to schedule it and do it and then I can stop thinking about it.

Speaking of thinking about it, I have a certified letter from a lawyer and it is freaking me out. I could just go pick up the letter and end all the worry and speculation, or I could continue to dwell on it and freak out about what it is. Hmmm, tough choice right? I think I will do that right now and just get it over with. When I realized it was from a local law firm, I immediately thought of my idiot neighbors. It would be just like them to file some sort of frivolous law suit. But I honestly don't think it is them. Well, I'll see because I'm going to go get it now.

The lawyer letter is from our stupid neighbors over the freaking parking. Oh, they have started a fight they are not going to like at all. I don't need this now, but it could be fun.

31 July 2015

Glad that's over

The last few days have been full of special events. Breakfast and lunch has not been under my complete control. I've made pretty good choices, but I prefer to cook myself. Thankfully that is all over now. Starting tomorrow, I'll bring my own food and will eat like a normal person.

Tomorrow is just orientation so no teaching. I do not have a homeroom so I will be free to work on my classroom all morning. Nice. I also don't have any lunch supervisory duties, that is really nice. I'm excited about the new year. Love, love, love new starts.

So I'm looking at the start of new school year as a blank slate and complete new start. I'm going to start working out. I want to start slow, so I'm thinking of 30 minutes on the treadmill to start. Gradually I want to work up to dancing and then Crossfit type workouts. I've got it in my head that I'll return to Crossfit at the beginning of the year. I don't know exactly why I chose that time, but it's as good as any. That gives me 6 full months to do a number of things. First, get my eating under control and it looks like I'm on the way to doing that. I just need to keep it up and by 6 months it will hopefully be set. Second, work on my aerobic capacity, something I lost with Crossfit. Thirdly, build my upper body strength. I want to do pull-ups and dips and the only way to do that is to build up my upper body strength. In fact, I may start my workouts on Monday with some strength stuff. Maybe I'll do push ups, dips, shoulder presses, and sit ups in the mornings. I'd like to do my dance workouts at night and the only reason I haven't been doing them is that I've been lazy and tired. No more lazy and tired is a state of mind. I like this. Some strength in the morning and cardio in the evenings. Sounds like a plan.

Right now, I am tired so I'm heading to bed. Tomorrow will be an awesome day.

29 July 2015

First Day of School

And we are back. Today was the first day of school, at least the first day for the teachers. We always start the year with a one day retreat. It's a chance to reconnect with the other teachers, refocus on why we do this and transition back to into school mode. Tomorrow we will have meetings, both faculty and department, and then on Friday the kids come in for orientation. Classes themselves start on Monday. At my old school, these days were painful and almost useless. Many of the people there would bitch and moan the entire time. Much of the stuff we did was kind of useless and there were times we just spent sitting around. It was really, really annoying. It always started with the nun giving the same damn talk, reviewing the teachers handbook. So very annoying. Today was good though. We talked about planning and sowing seeds in our students. We answered some questions and talked about them at our table. We had some great conversation and excellent discussions. It was nice to not hear the negative talk and bitching and moaning. I really enjoyed today and I think just about everyone there did too. I have always been of the opinion that if you have to do something you might as well make it fun. In spite of some great friendships I made at the other place, some of them were always so negative and complaining. Yeah, I don't want to have to work either. I would rather be able to do what I want without working. But that is just not possible, so I will do something I enjoy and I will have fun while I'm doing it. So today was good. I think it is going to be a really, really good year.

I did not sleep well last night. It seems I woke up every hour and looked at the clock. Last time I remember checking it was after midnight. So that kind of sucked. By the time school was done today I was tired. I'm tired now. I'm getting ready to eat dinner and I'm heading to bed early. I am also treating myself to some ice cream. For 8 days I have been really good. No sugar and no dessert. So I stopped at the store and got myself some ice cream as a treat for tonight. I am definitely looking forward to that. Most eating plans tell you to have treat days. It's been 8 days with no treats. Today is a good day for it.

28 July 2015

It is that time again

This summer went quick, but it has been one of the better summers. Having the pool has actually allowed me to relax and enjoy the summer. Tomorrow we got on a faculty retreat, then Thursday is meetings and back to the business of school, finally Friday is orientation for the students. Classes resume on Monday. The end of summer is always a sad/glad time. I get bored if summer lasts too long, so I'm always a little glad to return. But it's the end of summer and back to work, that's sad. So I did not get as much done as I had hoped to, when do I ever? But I did have a good summer. I'm rested, refreshed, and ready to take on a new year.

Along with the retreat tomorrow and the meetings on Thursday come food. They will feed us. And usually it's not great. So I have to plan for it. I'm going to eat breakfast tomorrow and try to avoid the pastries they always have. Lunch I will deal with. On Thursday they should serve us a full blown breakfast so that should be fine, and again lunch I will have to deal with. Friday is orientation, so I'll handle my own breakfast, but if this is like last year they will feed us lunch. Again, something I will have to deal with. I think as long as I go in with a plan and keep my goals in mind, I'll be fine. The only lunch I'm worried about is tomorrow. Last year they served bentos. Bentos are fried meat and rice. Basically. Not looking forward to that, but I will deal.

Which brings us to the last 2 days. They have been pretty darn good. I'm eating well and not having any trouble with that. I have not been working out at all, but I hope to change that today. I have a free trial for a streaming workout site and I'm planning on doing that tonight. It has been so hot here, that by the time night rolls around I'm just wiped out. Also, I have to watch my foot. It is so much better, but still not 100%.

Okay, now I'm off to meet Amber for lunch. She's visiting on her way home and I haven't seen her in 2 years. Yeah!!! I'm off. .

26 July 2015

Day 5 & 6 plus some random musings and general plans

Yesterday was day 5 in my just one day journey and it was by far the hardest to date. Hubby worked late, really late, so I was alone all day with the opinion that I had nothing really to do, I was wrong but I'll get to that later. I did fine for breakfast and lunch, but as it got closer and closer to dinner time, I was not doing so well. I did not know if I needed to make dinner or not. I was getting hungry but for some reason did not have a real snack or my protein drink, I chose to eat popcorn. Luckily hubby got home soon after and we had a nice dinner, but after dinner I took some banana bread. Just a small piece but a piece nonetheless. Then, just before bed, I had these cookies that have been in the house for a week. They are some Japanese brand and it salty crackers with a mango filling. It did not sound that appealing and I have avoided it for a week, but last night I broke down and tried them. I only had 2, they come in little packs of 2, and they were not that good. Salt and mango??? Bleh!!!!! I did not like them very much at all, but I found myself standing there looking at them, debating on having 2 more. Luckily I came to my senses and went to bed. But it absolutely amazed me how I actually considered having more when I didn't like them. The really good part of this whole experience is that awareness is the
first step in true change, at least for me. Every really large issue I've had, like binge eating, I started to conquer with awareness of what was happening. So in spite of the fact that I ate those things, I am extremely grateful for the awareness, knowing it is the first step. So I consider yesterday a success as far as food goes.

As far as other things, not so much. I have a huge pile of work to do but I pretty much avoided it all yesterday. I ended up taking a nap I really didn't want and I got nothing much done. That I don't like. I have got to stop doing that. I read an article the other day and it really struck home for me. It was on a dissertation website and the writer was talking about how you cannot wait to write until you feel like it. All the successful writers make it a priority and usually have a writing schedule that they follow - whether they feel like it or not. I think that is my problem. I say that frequently, I don't feel like it. Too bad. I need to set a schedule for writing and I need to stick to it no matter what. I had a prospectus draft hanging over my head for 2 weeks. 2 Weeks!!!!!! I kept saying I didn't feel like it or I didn't know how to approach it. I finally sat down on Thursday to write it and I did it. One sitting. Got it done. Is it perfect? No. But it's not supposed to be. This is a reiterative process; draft-correction-draft-correction. I have to get that through my head.

Which brings us to today:

I cannot believe that I have stuck to this for 6 days. It is not so much that I have stuck with it for 6 days, but that it feels so manageable. I have not been tempted to eat crap at all - last night doesn't count - and I feel completely in control. Also, I'm not hungry and I'm not getting freaky over the numbers. I have set a calorie goal of 1800 but I have gone over a few days and I have not completely freaked out and stopped eating. Huge progress. I have found that eating is hugely important and I'm coming to terms with food as fuel. The better the food, the better the fuel, the better I feel. It is completely and totally worth it. And, after all these years, I'm finally getting it. Finally.

But I need to shift my thinking some. I need to create a schedule for writing and I need to stick to it - whether I feel like it or not. I have the opportunity to teach an online college class. This is a huge opportunity as this is what I really want to do. That is going to take more time also. And with students waiting on me, I will not be able to put it off for 2 weeks!!!! So I have got to get better at time management, I just have to. I have to come up with a plan for everything that needs to get done and stick to that plan. Whether I feel like it or not. It needs to start with cleaning this desk and keeping it clean. I can't get any work done in this mess.

So the plan today is to stick to the food plan, and work out some other plans to get ahead of the curve. I wrote something in my calendar that I need to be proactive and not reactive. That is a good way to look at it. Something to work on.

Monsoon season has arrived

and we got our first rain yesterday. Actually, it's still raining a little this morning. It wasn't a lot of rain, but it was rain....