06 November 2015

Delvson

The dark, evil, long, vortex of September, October, and November is upon us. Okay, it's been here for a while but it is really getting back lately. These past couple of weeks have been absolutely brutal. Long, dark, and seemingly never ending. Ugh!!! The good news is we are almost out of it. Next week we have the veteran's day holiday, two weeks later it's thanksgiving, then boom, we slide into the Christmas holidays. Yeah boy. Can. Not. Wait.

Because of this dark period, I cannot seem to keep things together. Eating is spotty - too much candy. Walking on the treadmill in the morning is becoming harder and harder. Staying upright at any time during the day is becoming harder and harder. I'm tired, worn out, and so ready for a break. I didn't really get a fall break because of the Molokai trip and now I'm feeling the effects of that decision. Never again will I travel on a break. Just not worth it. Unless I'm traveling for myself. That will be a different story.

I'm on the treadmill right now. I have not been going very fast, so this week I've kicked it up to a fast walk and boy my legs can feel it. I really believe it is time to start running. Tomorrow or Sunday that will happen.

Guess that's it. All I can think of to write is whiny stuff and I don't need to put that down or even acknowledge it. So I guess I'm done for now.

01 November 2015

New Beginnings


I love new beginnings. I love when things are just starting. There is so much hope and possibility. A clean slate to work with. So much potential. But over the last few years, I've let the drudgery of life suck the excitement out of my new beginnings. I'm changing that right now. This is the first of November. We are moving into the holiday season and rapidly towards the end of the year. So time to gear up for a new month, new year, new life.

Yesterday I made some goals for the month because I have felt like I've been in cruise control for awhile now. I have goals; finishing my dissertation, getting through this Phoenix class, etc; but I'm not pushing myself. I'm not taking the wheel. I'm just kind of rolling along and letting things happen as they may. I'm over that. I need to take complete control of my life and push things forward, not just let them roll there. So my motto for the month of November is 'Let's do this' That's it, let's do this.


I can do anything I put my mind to, so I'm putting my mind to it. No procrastinating or delaying this month. This is a let's do this kind of month. One of my big, let's do this, is to get Chapter 2 finished before the quarter ends. Then I need to jump right into Chapter 3 and get that done before the end of the year. That means that my proposal will be finished by the end of the year. In January I can submit it for URR and hopefully by spring, I'll be able to get my research done. Then this summer I will finish writing it and by next December I will be completely complete. Oh my god.....this is what I want....this is worth working for.....so let's do this.....

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