Showing posts from November 8, 2015

Time to make some hard decisions

I've been going to school on financial aid. I've now run out of financial aid and still have about a year of school left. It's going to cost me about $20,000. There is another type of financial aid, but for various reasons I don't qualify. There is one other possibility, but I won't know if that works out for a couple of days, maybe a week. If that doesn't work out, I honestly do not know what I will do. I've had some lenders approach about refinancing the house and pulling out some money. I don't want to do that because I want to save as much for when we move as possible, but that may be an option. Another thought is to just move everything up a year. Forget the Ph.D. and move this summer. Not my favorite choice because we were doing things when we were for reasons. Very good reasons. Sooooooo......I'm kind of stuck and I'm not sure what to do. I hate this......I've spent the morning researching and looking around and trying to get informa…

Watching the numbers

A strange thing happens in my brain when I start counting calories or points or macronutrients or whatever. I go a little insane. I become so obsessed with the numbers that I lose track of the fact that I'm eating food and need to survive. Last time I did WW, it became almost a game to see how many points I could have left over at the end of the day. That is not good. That means, I'm not eating. Than means, bad things will go on in my body. I did the same thing when I tried counting calories. I tried to get by on the least amount possible. This has never worked out well for me, for a number of reasons. The main one being that I can't sustain it and end up eating everything in sight. Then I beat myself up because I have no willpower. Ugh!!! For someone so smart, I can be such an idiot.

So this time I'm trying to make it different. I'm not focusing on the numbers. I'm tracking, but that is not where my main focus lies. I'm focusing on the food. I'm tryi…


2.2 lbs this week. Woot!!!! I was a little afraid because I really hadn't tracked this week and there was leftover candy, oh plus the malasadas....yeah, I was not expecting a good week at all. But I think, and this is the key, that I have been limiting my portion sizes. I did have candy, but I had 4 tiny snack ones instead of a bunch. I did have malasadas, I had 2 of them, but I was hungry and even after 2 I was not stuffed or uncomfortable. So I think that even though I strayed off the healthy path, I am exercising portion control so it is helping. Yeah. I would however, like to really be strict this week. I'm down a total of 3.4# since I started and if I could lose 1.2# this week I would hit 5#. That would be a huge mental boost. And I could use it.

Towards that end, I went to Costco yesterday without Hubby and had a chance to look around a little. Hubby always gets so antsy and is constantly hounding me to go. So it was nice. He will be working nights all week, so that m…