16 January 2016

Moving forward, very slowly

Yes, I want everything to happen now. Right. Now. Instead I'm making forward progress one day and going backwards the next. It gets very, very frustrating. Very. Frustrating. But, I am still making progress. Slow. Slow. Slow. But progress nonetheless.

It is now the next day. I started this post last night because I was feeling kind of down. I had not exercised in 2 days. I went to Target after work and ended up getting - and eating - 2 bags of M&M's. I had been planning to get pizza for dinner. Luckily, those M&M's acted as a wake up call and I ended up getting a poke bowl for dinner. I got so tired after dinner, I could not keep my eyes open. I ended up taking a short nap. I don't have any empirical evidence, but I swear that eating candy, or anything high in sugar content, makes me unbelievably tired. After I eat that stuff, I always feel like I'm completely exhausted and have to take a nap. It is only a short nap, but a nap. That doesn't happen with anything else but beer. Interesting. I could investigate but I'll just go with the anecdotal evidence and assume that is the case. So I was feeling a little down and having a small pity party yesterday.

This morning though, everything changed. I stepped on the scale and am at 207. I have lost 7 lbs since this journey started on 12/28. That is not bad. Considering I have never once felt deprived of anything and I've cheated now and again. I am very pleased with that. 3 weeks, 7 pounds, I'll take it. Plus, I've been feeling a whole lot better. It is still not consistent but I generally feel real good.

Went to Crossfit this morning and Stephanie, my coach, was there. It was so awesome to see her again. She is probably one of my favorite people at Crossfit. She moved to the mainland in July and is back for a visit. I have a feeling there is trouble in paradise. I am hoping that her and her hubby are not getting divorced, just going through a rough patch. I hate to see people go through the pain of break-ups, divorces, etc. especially when there are children involved. I hope whatever it is, it can be resolved. If not, I hope it works out best for him, her, and the kids.

So the Crossfit WOD was brutal, but I made it through and did okay. I love Crossfit and I really love doing it being pain free. I even ran today. I ran. In my Crossfit shoes not my big squishy ones. And it felt fine. Little twinges in the left heel but no pain at all. Woot!!! Progress. The open starts in about 6 weeks and I'm looking forward to doing that injury free this year. That should be exciting.

Okay, I smell and I do want to get some housework done. I'm off to the showers.

12 January 2016

Change of Attitude

Sunday I had an absolutely rocking day as far as activity went. I walked for 3 miles in the morning. Then I walked all three dogs in the afternoon. I ended up with a total of 6.5 miles and over 16,000 steps for the day. I was stoked. I had never gotten that much activity in years. Then yesterday came and I got like 6,000 steps. Boo. Overslept in the morning, so didn't do anything then. Stayed a little late at school, then got home and was too tired to walk the dogs, so nothing there. Boo. Didn't hit my macro numbers, though came kind of close. So woke up this morning and was feeling kind of like I was starting over. Not completely, but in a way. Then I read this:

and realized, that is right. I'm not back at square one, I'm much, much further than that. Boo yah!!! So I had 1 bad day, that's okay. I'm just going to pick myself up and get right back to it. I woke at 4 am and had to go the bathroom soooooo bad, but I refused to get up. I refused because if I went to the bathroom then, there would be a good chance i'd oversleep and miss the 4:30 am wake up. Today I was determined to get back on track. So I held it as long as I could and then got up and stayed up. And now, an hour later, I am on the treadmill for the past 25 minutes and almost done. Yea Me!!!!!

I'm having the hardest time hitting my macros and I'm not exactly sure why. It's protein. Protein is the problem. I just cannot eat enough. I'm supposed to eat 180 a day. Break that up into 4 meals, and that is 45 grams per meal. That equates to about 6.5 oz of cooked meat 4 times a day. Bleh..... That is assuming about 7 grams of protein per ounce of cooked meat. Some things are higher, like fish. I need to find ways to get that much protein. Still working on it.

Okay, treadmill time is up. Time to get on with my day.

10 January 2016

Let's get this started

I've been up for almost an hour now. I'm sitting here trying to push myself out the door. This is the first time I've attempted and outside run/walk in years. At least 3 years. I'm nervous. Why exactly? Well, it's going to hurt. I'm going to be tired. I'm going to be sore. It is not going to be easy. And on and on and on......... But I keep reminding myself:

I know this first one is not going to be great, it will probably be far, far from great. But,

So I'm going to go feed the birds; get dressed; and head out. Wish me luck.


Last year I picked up a Passion Planner:

It turned out to be one of the most amazing planners I have ever used. Not only did it allow room for you to write everyday things, there were spaces for to-do lists and extra space to make notes. Even better, there was a way to set goals and track them and then a way to review each month at the end. I absolutely love it. I got a big one, then ordered an academic one for school, and for the new year I ordered a special edition one for home:

I love it. So I have one for home and one for school. In the home one I keep track of finances and things around the house. The school one I carry back and forth and has things like meetings and things I need to do/make and have ready for classes. It actually works out really well. There is some overlap but that's okay. I didn't want all my personal stuff being in the one I take to school in case anything happens to it. Trust me, this is leading somewhere.

After Crossfit this morning, I sat down with my new Passion Planner and decided to fill in the front part. One of the first things the planner has you do is create your passion roadmap. You figure out goals for the next 3 months, year, 3 years, etc. Since I've put the Ph.D. on hold indefinitely, I've been kind of floundering with goals. I have the goal of moving to the mainland, but other than that, nothing. I thought to myself that I am in a holding pattern waiting for something to happen. Then it hit me. I want to lose weight and get in shape. I also really want to start running. Why don't I make that my 3 month goal? Why don't I start there and see what develops from there? So I did. I sat and created a roadmap that would get me back to being a runner by my birthday. I looked up some races and found the Ford Island Bridge 10K on April 2nd. I should be able to do that. I did this race in 2005. It was the running weekend of my life. I ran 2 back-to-back 10ks and did the second one faster than the first one. I was on a real high that weekend. So let's see how I can do 11 years later.

It is so hard to believe that stuff was 10-11 years ago. But I've been teaching for 7 years and haven't really been doing anything like that in that time. Wow. I think I picked a really good goal and it all starts tomorrow with a 3 mile walk/run.

Social media holiday

I've decided to take a break from social media. I spend far, far too much time just scrolling through Facebook. Yes, I get a lot of in...