07 May 2016

New day, new attitude


So once again, blogging has saved me. After writing everything down last night, I realized that things are not as dire as they seem and that I found the root of the problem. So today I have a new attitude and it is a new beginning. I am inspired and motivated. And this is the reason, after 12 years, I still come here on a regular basis. I'm off to take on the day. More later.

06 May 2016

Time to refocus

When I sat down to blog yesterday, I was going to complain about how I feel. Then I thought I'd do a short recap of the past 3 months, and then I got tired. So here is the post I was thinking of last night.

I feel like crap. I'm the highest weight I've been in a long, long time and I feel every ounce of it. I'm not doing much of anything and I'm feeling every step I miss. I feel like a huge, huge hippo. Okay, having got that out of my system, let's examine what is going on and how to recover from it.

First, eating hasn't been great because I've been so busy. Seriously. I work so hard on the weekends that I'm exhausted all week long. When I'm really busy, I'll just grab whatever there is to eat. When I'm exhausted I don't really want to eat and only crave carbs. So clearly, getting enough rest has got to become a priority or things will continue to spiral out of control. I believe that the worst is over and I should be able to relax on the weekends now. (After I wrote this, I headed into the kitchen and ate a twinkie...perfect).

Second, for similar reasons, workouts have not been happening. Too busy on the weekends; too tired during the week. So I think once I get some rest, I'll be able to pick up the exercise a bit.

Now that I look at things logically, I realize that it all hinges on rest. I get enough sleep, I don't crave the carbs and I have the energy to workout. Simple. So I think my recovery has to start with sleep and rest. Rest does not necessarily mean sleep. Sometimes it means just being quiet and relaxing. Sometimes it means mindless TV watching. This weekend I just need to clean the house and have it ready for open house on Sunday. That should be pretty easy to do and should allow for lots of rest. I will go to Crossfit tomorrow and Sunday. I will also prep some food.

Let's talk about food. I can't decide which program to follow. If I do the flexible dieting, I have to eat way too many carbs and I feel fat and bloated. If I follow altshift, I feel pretty good. I hate when my stomach feels big, like I'm pregnant. So I think I'm going to go with altshift and really follow the program. I like the way I feel when I don't eat a lot of carbs, I just need to get back with the program. So food prep this weekend is a must.

So it really all comes down to sleep. I will focus on sleep this weekend too. Okay, I got this.

This is why I really love to blog. I felt lost and hopeless when I sat down,but after laying things out I can see that I need to focus on sleep and rest and that will help my recovery in other areas. Okay, I totally got this.

05 May 2016

The past 3 months have been a blur


It all started on January 23rd when we decided to commit to the move this year. We were going to move over the summer and it seemed so long away. 5-6 months. Now, here we are on the precipice of the move. Ugh!!! So much has happened I don't even know where to start, so I'm just going to jump in.

We had a garage sale the weekend of April 2nd. Then we rebuilt the carport the weekend of April 9th. On April 16th the POD came and on the 21st it left. We have painted the entire house inside and out. We have been working on the house every weekend until we literally collapse into bed. I look forward to going to work on Monday because I can get some rest. Tuesday, May 3rd, I took off work and the realtor came and staged the house and took pictures. Tomorrow the listing goes live. Sunday is our first open house. Oh my. Things have just moved at such a rapid pace and everything has happened in such a blur it's hard to keep track of things.

Next weekend, the 13th - 16th, we fly to Phoenix for a look around. It is exciting and scary. Oh, I got a job. I did mention it briefly before. It is at a charter school outside Phoenix. They only work 4 days a week - woo hoo!!!! Every week is a three-day weekend, how awesome is that. I get to meet them next Friday. Woot...

What else??? I think we are finally done with the house. It is on the market and what is, is.

I had plans of writing this long post about how the stress has affected me, but quite frankly I'm just too tired. Maybe this weekend....

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