17 June 2016

Back to basics

I've been really trying to get some activity in during the day, walking, yoga, etc. Unfortunately I have not been consistent nor have I done it enough. I still spend far, far too much time sitting on my ass. So as I was laying in bed last night, I thought about every other time I've lost weight. What did I do that got me started? How did I start? What were the most basic things I did to get going? I need to know. I need to figure out how to start and once I get going I will develop momentum, but I need to start. Then it hit me, Karen Voight. Every time I went to lose weight and was successful, I started with Karen Voights video. It is an hour long and I really, really like it. I don't have a copy of it anymore, but I found it on the internet. So I'm going to do that today. Walking is good and all, but I think I need something more than just walking. So I'm going to give it a try and see what happens. If I can do it for the next week or so, it might be just the push I need to get me rolling again. Wish me luck.

I just finished my workout. For the record it is this one:

Now, I understand that things change, people change, situations change, I know that. I also know that I have been focusing on other things for the last few years, I understand completely. But in spite of all that, I just completed this workout and it damn near killed me. I used to be able to do this well. Lots of jumping and really working the moves. Stretching at the end until I was a pretzel. It used to be awesome. Today, not so much. I had to take a break in the middle of one part. I did none of the jumping and dancing around. I didn't use any weights and I can already feel my muscles. The stretching at the end - basically could hardly do it. Between being tight and unable to bend far and my stomach getting in the way, I didn't get a whole lot of stretching in. Initially I was kind of sad about this. I started to get down on myself about how far I have fallen. But then I remembered something I had read the other day. I wish I could remember where I read it, but the lady basically said, 'when I started I couldn't do 15 minutes of a video in my living room without having to rest and now I'm running marathons'. I also remember that this particular person took like 2 years to get there. So instead of getting upset or all down on myself, I just said this is it. You have got to stop. You have got to stop fooling yourself that things are okay, they are not okay. You are overweight and uncomfortable and you need to do something about it now. Not in 2 weeks when you get to Arizona. Now. Granted, I really can't do everything I want to do, like stock up on food, follow AltShift exactly, make sauces and dressings. Okay, but I can work with what I've got.

So let's start there. First, I have time to workout. I don't have equipment, but I have time. I did the workout this morning with nothing be a chair and a towel. So I have time to do workout, walk, yoga, whatever. I have time. I do not have to eat wheat. Ever. Sandwiches do not have to be eaten as sandwiches. I can pass on the bread on everything. It's not that hard. While I can't follow AltShift exactly, I can do the best with what I've got at this point. I can start by keeping track of my food. I'm fairly confident I'm not eating enough - again - and definitely not eating enough protein. So track my food. That's all.

This is so true. I can make a little bit of progress or I continue to fall further behind and have more to make up for when I do start. I am such and all or nothing person and I need to lose that. It really doesn't work in any aspect of my life so I'm not sure why I continue to persist with it. Time to lose it. Little bits, little steps, forward progress in all things.

16 June 2016

Moving is crazy

Moving is crazy. Moving across an ocean is flat out nuts. When moving there are so many things to remember. When moving across an ocean there are even more. There are things like, where is my mail going to go? I leave this house on the 25th of June and don't have a real address again until the house I am buying closes on July 13th. Where does my mail go between now and then? Luckily I figured out how to open a PO box in Arizona from Hawaii. So now at least I know where my mail is going.

Then there is the money issue. We will be getting over $200,000 from the house and it will go into our Hawaii account. In order to buy the house in AZ I will need a cashier's check for $105,000. How do I get a cashier's check on money that is in Hawaii when I am in AZ. I opened an account in AZ last night, I just hope it all works. If it does, the accounts are hooked up and we will be able to transfer money back and forth. Fingers crossed.

While writing this, I had to stop and call an insurance agent. I need homeowner's insurance on the house in AZ and I keep forgetting to call them. Finally just made the call.

That it the thing with this move. There are 8 million tiny details that keep popping up. Just when I think I have everything handled, something else pops up and I'm off on new tangent. It's no wonder I don't get anything done during the day.

That's not even considering the logistics. We have to leave this house on the 25th, but won't be flying out until the 27th or 28th. So what to do until then? We'll be staying in a hotel with all 3 dogs - that will be fun. But we have to check out of the hotel by noonish and our flight will not be until 9pm. What to do then. Plus, how do we transport 3 dogs and their crates to the airport? Details, details, details.

Thankfully things are all falling into place, but it is taking so much mental power, it is just crazy. Plus, I started back to Walden and have class work to do. Ugh!!!!! Things are completely crazy here.

This Saturday we are packing the POD up with everything we are taking. That means we will be without things for the next month. Things we use all the time, like this computer. Arrrrrrggggggghhhhhhhh!!!!

But, the good thing is things are coming together. Everything is working out and I know we are doing the right thing. This is what we are supposed to be doing at this point in time. I'm looking forward to moving to AZ. Living in a house where the neighbor isn't breathing down our necks. Having a pool. And most importantly, not struggling month to month. This is all going to be worth it.

Monsoon season has arrived

and we got our first rain yesterday. Actually, it's still raining a little this morning. It wasn't a lot of rain, but it was rain....