02 September 2016

Thoughts that occur while I sleep

I learned a long time ago that if I wanted to understand or figure something out, I must give it great thought and then walk away from it. Leave it sit for a while and it usually sits in the back of my brain (for want of a better description) percolating. Then when I go back to it I have either learned something or figured something out or am able to see it differently. After writing the post last night, I did some thinking about this house. This house is huge. 3 times the size of our house in Hawaii. There are literally areas we don't even go into for days. Keeping it clean is a chore in itself. I have the habit, from Hawaii, of doing the whole house in one day. Hell, the whole Hawaii house took me an hour. Here it takes me an hour to do the floors. Yikes. So clearly my 'do-it-all-at-once' attitude towards house cleaning has got to change. Then I also thought about how much time I waste every single day. I come home and sit in front of the computer for hours. I scroll Facebook incessantly, reading the same stories over and over and over. Ugh!!! So the whole losing weight and cleaning the house thing started to gel in my mind overnight and some thoughts occurred.

 I have 3 things I want to accomplish in the near future.
    1. Lose some weight
    2. Develop a plan for keeping this house clean
    3. Finish my dissertation
I can do all of these things if I plan carefully and develop some different habits.

I used to make to-do lists that listed the things in the order I wanted to do them. Those lists worked well for me. I would set out what I wanted to do that day and knock them out one by one. It wasn't perfect, but overall it worked well. I also know that if I am organized and follow my to-do lists, I generally end up with lots of free time. Being organized takes more time initially, but frees up time in the end. Plus, I want to be organized. I hate being disorganized and not knowing where things are or what I'm doing. Ugh!!! I hate that.

Where is all this leading? Well, today I am making a to-do list that includes getting organized and planning my days for cleaning, working out, and dissertation writing. Many of these things can be done simultaneously or while watching TV. Since I have developed the inability to really sit still to watch TV, I think this will be the perfect solution. So today will be the day of planning and setting things up for success. I'm excited about that and looking forward to it. I also need to decide if I should block out time on my schedule for these things or just make a list. What will work better for me????

01 September 2016

My motivation has completely left me

I am trying so hard to be positive and upbeat, but I have zero motivation. I want to lose weight, but don't really do anything about it. I eat what I want, when I want and I don't workout. I want to be motivated. I want to lose weight. I want to be healthy. Why can't I get going again? I want to, I truly do, but I just can't seem to find the motivation to do it. I've been trying to focus on positivity and self-love hoping that it would just kick in the good habits. It hasn't. I've been relatively happy, but nothing. Clearly, I'm going to have to do something more. I don't like the way I feel or the way my body feels. I'm tired and sore and don't have much energy. So I think it is time to start faking it until I make it. The guy on one of the forums I'm on says to live the life you want to have. I guess that will have to be the way it is. I'm really tired of being tired. Yes, I do have a lot on my plate, but there are others that have more and they manage. So time to start faking it, whether I feel it or not.

So I went off, ate dinner, and cleaned up the kitchen and did a little thinking. I have habits that are pretty much non-negotiable. Things like brushing my teeth in the morning and evening; cleaning up the kitchen after dinner; walking the dogs; etc. If I can do that, I can make exercising and eating right a habit too. That is what I'm going to do. So let's try this. I need to develop a plan and just stick with it. Make it completely non-negotiable. There just can be no feelings involved. I don't feel like brushing my teeth some nights, but I do it because I know it's best for me. I need to just do this. It will be hard and I won't want to, but I must. I have no choice. I cannot go on the way I am.

Okay, I'm going to develop a plan and I'm going to stick to it. I will not make them too difficult at first, I just need to establish habits. I want to make this work. I need to make this work.....

Social media holiday

I've decided to take a break from social media. I spend far, far too much time just scrolling through Facebook. Yes, I get a lot of in...