11 November 2016

This week went

It did and I'm not exactly sure why. I have a good idea, but I'm not positive. So let's review.

Sunday: Was a pretty good day. God most everything done but did not work on my dissertation. Hmmmm......

Monday: Was very good. Did everything that was on my to-do list and really felt awesome. Was tired that night but did some work on my dissertation and went to bed nice and early.

Tuesday: This is where things started to fall apart. Did not get up and do yoga - that was an accident. Did ride my bike to school. Did not go to core & stretch and did not work on my dissertation. I did have a really sore left bicep that made it difficult to bend and move. Even today, it is still a little sore.

Wednesday: Did not do anything on my list but walk the dogs in the morning. Arm was really sore and I'm not sure what happened about everything else.

Thursday: Again, nothing got done. Not 100% sure why, but apparently whatever it was seemed like a good idea at the time.

Friday: now here we are today. I need to make up time that I wasted during the week. I'm rather angry with myself, but anger is really not going to help, I need to figure out how to make it work.

I have a number of things to do today, but I really, really, really want to go to Crossfit. Not because I really want to, but because I need to. I need to stick to my schedule, It is not that hard and I can do it. I let laziness and apathy get in the way this week.

No more.

I am going to make a plan and stick to it, no matter what.

I am stronger than this.

I am better than this.

I can do this.

I will do this.

I am tired of being disappointed with myself.

Today it all changes.

06 November 2016


I guess insanity is not something you get over just like that. I am at the heaviest I've been in almost 20 years. And I really want to lose weight and get back in shape, but I keep doing the same things over and over and it doesn't work. UGH!!!! So I need to try something different. But it can't be too crazy or I won't stick with it. But something has to give. I can't stand the way I feel. My feet hurt almost all the time. My clothes don't fit. I'm tired a lot. I don't like this at all. So time for a change. Need to shake things up to get things moving.

So here's the plan. I just discovered last night, that my smart TV has fitness channels. I got a couple of yoga ones. I thought that I'd start with 15-30 minutes of yoga in the mornings. That should not wear me out or make me super tired for the day. Or make my feet hurt even more than normal. Then I'll do Crossfit on Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays. I'll do Core & Stretch on Tuesdays and Thursdays. I'll ride my bike to school and Crossfit. I'm also going to work to hit my steps every day. If I have to jump on the treadmill for a few minutes, so be it. And this is non-negotiable. I am going to write it down in my planner and I'm going to stick to it. Just for one week. I have to do something. I'm not even going to bring up the food with Hubby. BTW, he is doing a fabulous job of cooking almost strictly paleo. Just little slips here and there, but amazing with the paleo meals. There are a couple of things he does that I don't like, using Eggbeaters is one. But, considering I'm not doing any activity, I can't exactly bitch about the food. So I'll work on myself first and then tackle the food issue.

Along with all this activity, I need to fit in time for my dissertation every day. I don't think that will be a problem though. My day would go something like this:

4:00 get up
4:30 do a little yoga
5:00 walk the dogs
5:30 shower, dress, eat, get ready for school
6:30 leave for school
7:00 - 3:00 school
Mondays and Wednesdays:
3:15ish - leave school for Crossfit
4-5 Crossfit
5:00 ride home
5:30 bath and relax for a bit.
6:30 dinner, clean kitchen
7:00 work on dissertation, watch TV, wind down
8:30 Bed

Tuesdays and Thursdays:
3:00 - 4:00 Grading, Planning, Etc.
4:00 leave school for Crossfit
4:30 - 5:30 Core & Stretch
5:30 ride home
6:00 bath and relax for a bit
6:30 dinner, clean kitchen
7:00 work on dissertation, watch TV, wind down
8:30 Bed.

There is no reason why this can't work. I just need to be disciplined and not let laziness get to me. I will do this for 1 week and see how I feel. 1 week. That is all. I mean work days are kind of filled with work anyway. Most people just don't have a whole lot of time outside of work. Some people don't get home until 6pm and then have to put kids to bed by 7 or 8, so I'm really lucky that I get done work early in the afternoon and have extra time that others don't. I have to focus on the positive and not the negatives. Yes, I don't have as much time as Hubby does. He leaves around 11 am every day. But if I had that much time every single day, I'd get bored and things would get worse. So I need to be thankful for what I have. Focus on the positive not the negative.

As a side note, I used to be a really positive person. Really. Positive. But over the last few years, I've let the negativity take over my life. I have got to shake that. Life is good. I am super lucky. Super. Lucky. Hell, my Dad didn't live to be this old. I'm am incredibly lucky. So I must focus on the positive. And I must stick to my plan, no matter what.

A couple of hours later: Well, I have the week planned out and here's what it looks like:

I have time for everything. Every. Thing. There is even time for fun and naps. The 4 days that I work are kind of jam packed, but the 3 days I have off are positively cruise. I have time to go out and do things. Time to go to lunch. Time to take a nap. While still getting workouts and dissertation work in. It can be done. I can do it. I will do it. I need to be successful this week. I need to stop feeling like a failure. So here goes!!!!

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