07 September 2018

Keeping positive

I've had a few instances recently that have reminded me how important positive thoughts are and how much I prefer to be positive rather than negative. There are a couple of teachers at school that do nothing but complain. All. The. Time. It gets so tiring to try and hold a conversation with them. In the past couple of weeks, I came to the decision to just basically avoid them as much as possible. They bitch about everything. So I have been avoiding them, just doing my own thing, and life has been much better. I still haven't been able to get a handle on my walking/eating/ meditating but I'm much happier at work and that will go a long way towards getting that other stuff in line.

I'm also getting really, really tired of Facebook. I find myself shutting it down more and more often. I used to check it during school and I find I'm not doing that near as much anymore. I'm also working on not spending all my evening time on the computer. I need to get away from this stuff. It started as a way to amuse me and enhance my life and then it gradually became my life. Now I'm in the process of withdrawing from it and actually claiming my life back. There are things I need to do on the computer, but I do not need to be on it for 4 hours straight most nights. Time to cut the cord.

That's about all here. Still working on getting back into the workflow. It's slow going, but I'm getting there. Overall, I'm happier with the way things are going at school this year than in any previous year. So that's a definite plus. Also, my weekends have been super busy. Super. Busy. I'm not sure exactly why but they have been. Like today. It's Friday and I have to drop Lola at the vet's, have breakfast with a friend, go to school and grade/copy for next week, pick Lola up, go to a volleyball game. Once I move from this computer, I literally will not get back until around 7 pm. That's crazy. Then tomorrow I have RunBuddy for the dogs, we need to go to Costco, we need to pick up some bookcases and drop them at school, then we have to hang 2 ceiling fans and install Firesticks on 2 TVs. Oh, plus run to the electronics store to grab 2 more antennas. Yikes. Sunday I have nothing and will definitely relax that day.

The positive thought idea was at the front of my mind because of a friend of mine. I have to vent just a little bit. Now this is a good friend, and I love her but she really pisses me off. She can't work for a variety of reasons and so her and her husband have been struggling financially for a while now. Then her mother in law passed away and left them a bunch of money. Or so she says. They paid off a lot of bills and seem to be in a better place financially which I'm really happy for them, I am. BUT..... Another friend has talked about getting an RV and traveling the country for as long as we have known her. After the windfall of money, the first friend ran out and bought an RV.  Now the first friend has never mentioned an RV, never expressed any interest in RVs or even traveling that much. But boom ran out and bought an RV. Now at least we rented one to try it out first, not them just spent $35,000 on it. Then a couple of weeks ago, I was telling her how we are beginning to look for a new house. We absolutely love this house but want some land for the dogs and us, and would like to get away from the HOAs. We also have a couple of criteria that must be met, it has to be one story and it has to have a pool. Almost everything else is negotiable. So we had this conversation, then we get a message that she has found a house she loves and they are going to buy a new house. WTF???  Are you serious? You don't have a single idea of your own and have to steal other peoples ideas? Then she messages us that she got them approved for a $275,000 mortgage amount and they don't have to sell their current house. That just pissed me off because I know that there is not a whole lot you can do to influence the loan decision. Maybe they were going to pay off some stuff, like that RV, or something but that's about it. Also, she told me that when they got the inheritance and paid off all their credit cards and car loans, they were just breaking even every month. How can you afford 2 mortgages when you are just breaking even?  I really don't think she has a very good head for finances and her husband just kind of goes along with whatever she wants. It's crazy. And it's kind of annoying. I know that my anger is very childish and petty and I know that I need to let it go, but it pisses me off. So there's that. I need to let it go and I am letting it go. I just needed to vent a little. I also have to keep in mind that I can't control other people. They are going to do whatever they want to and that's fine. I know what we want and I will not settle for anything less. It took us years to find the house in Hawaii, so I know I'm in for the long haul. Also, we do love this house we would just like some more yard area. So they are going to do whatever they want and I have to accept that. I know what I want and I will hold out for that.

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