02 May 2019

Time for a change of mindset

I've been doing this self-care initiative recently and I have just been having epiphanies all over the place.

For example, it dawned on me yesterday that some of my unease with some friends has to do with the fact that I am changing. I am working hard on overcoming my excuses and losing any labels I cling to but some friends I have are clinging to their excuses and labels for dear life. It seems to be that is their whole identity and without them, they don't know who or what they are. It's a shocker. 

Then walking to school this morning I had another epiphany. In the past, when school ends I look at that as a time to do nothing. I will sleep in, watch TV,  play on the computer, or nap. I have things I want to do but no real plan or desire to get them done. What happens then is the weeks of summer go by and school starts with nothing accomplished over the summer. Last year I did get some things accomplished but only because I really and truly wanted to get them done. So the epiphany this morning was that I need to change how I think about summer. Instead of looking at it as a time to do nothing, I need to look at it as a time to do the things I want to do. For example, I want to run. Phoenix in summer means any running has to happen early in the morning. Early. I was thinking about this and realized that if I want to run, and I do, I will just get up and run. I get to do that because I don't have to go to school. So I need to change how I view summer. Summer is a time when I get to do the things I want to do when I want to do them. So I need to make my list of things to do during summer and then be very excited because I get to do the things I want. This is freeing. I am very excited about my new point of view.

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