29 March 2005

Finally the light bulb went on and

I have some insight into my life.

I have trouble finishing things. This may sound very simple but I don't recall ever admitting it before. I'm not sure why I have trouble finishing things. When I do finish things I feel really good. I'm pretty sure I have a fear of failure which is just ridiculous because just completing something is success.

This is probably bizarre to be 45 years old and just now realizing this. It's not that I didn't realize it, I just never really faced it. I have tons of incomplete projects around here. I have these great ideas and then fail to follow through with them.

That explains why I haven't lost all the weight I want to lose. Why I've never gotten into the shape I want to be in. And why I'm in the financial situation I'm in.

So, this is my new project. I will finish things. I will take one project I have going and finish it. No matter how long it takes I will work on it a little bit every day until I finish it. Then I will take up the next project. This is my goal; to finish things......

It's amazing how once you admit to something you immediately feel like a burden has been lifted off your shoulders. I will begin tonight and even if I only take baby steps, I will take steps each day to move towards my goal of completing things.

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