Summer school that is.... I have today and I have Monday and that's it. Yea!!! I have a lot to do this weekend, things I didn't get done last weekend because my friend was visiting. Plus I have a bird club meeting on Sunday and I have to take Lola to the vet on Saturday, another busy weekend. Plus I have school work to do, ugh!!! I should also look for some term life insurance, I've been wanting to do that forever yet never seem to get around to it. At least I'll be able to nap when I want to and not entertain a visitor.
Today I have to get fingerprinted by the Catholic Church. Because I'll be teaching in a Catholic School the Catholic Diocese is doing the background check on me. Fun stuff. Meanwhile I should be planning what I'm going to do today but instead I'm blogging :) Oh well!!!
I need to get some activity in. I think this weekend I'm going to do some, but I'm not going to get crazy or start obsessing. I'm just going to do something on Saturday and on Sunday. That's all, no craziness, just get out and move. I really, really have to find a balance. I was thinking about that today as I was getting the bird's breakfast ready. I can incorporate anything into my life, including 30 minutes to feed the birds when I first wake up, but I need to find a space for it and not let it take over my life. That's how exercise fit before. I had a space for it in my life and outside of that space it didn't exist during my day, that's not completely true but close. So maybe that's what I need to do, just find a spot for it. Use my scheduling genius, find a spot for it, and put it there everyday. Hmm... That may work, I'll have to noodle that for a while.
Thursday night my class goes until a little after 9. I generally don't get home until 9:30 or 9:45, making Friday a very tiring morning. Luckily there are only 5 more weeks of this class. Yea!!!
Okay, I could keep finding things to write about all day, I have to get some things done this morning.
A little any. E.L. left a very insightful comment on my post about easing up on myself. I won't quote the whole thing here but it is worth a read. He raises some good points. How do you(that being anyone) keep from getting obsessed with eating right and working out? How do you strike that balance that we all need so badly? I have a tendency to be an all or nothing type person. I've tried to break it for years but it's a pretty persistent tendency. As a result of this I will either go all out and puts lots of pressure on myself or do nothing at all. How do I get the balance? How do I get my workouts in without putting insane pressures on myself and then beating myself up when I don't live up to them? What do I do???
I've started to want to workout again and as soon as that thought entered my head I immediately started making plans for things to do. I felt like doing something yesterday and I jumped into "well, I can do a run/walk thing after school but before my class." That put pressure on me. I was hungry after school so I ate my lunch but then there really wasn't time for run so I ended up not doing anything. I should have just thrown my shoes on and gone for a little walk. But no, I immediately put pressure on myself. That's what I have to stop. But how?? I'm not sure I know how.....
In other news, I saw the school calendar for next year. I get 2 weeks off in October, 3 weeks off in December, 2 weeks off in March - Sweet!!!! I'm going like this teaching thing. We are thinking about going to Colorado in December to check out a place and buy a house. I want to go in the winter, though January or February would be better, and get a feel of what it's like then. I wonder if there's a Westgate we could stay at?? I'll have to check into that.
Anyway, those are the things in my head. Only 3 more days of summer school and then that's over. Yea!!! I'm hoping to get back into working out when it ends. I'm also thinking about joining a club for marathon training. Both times I did the marathon I joined a club, and though I'm not a club type person it worked. So I'm thinking about it.
Okay, I'm off to the dog park.
Just a mere 5 days ago I decide to try and regain some balance in my life. I had been applying so much pressure to myself over every little detail of my life that nothing was going right. I decide to let up and go easy on myself. Great idea, sounds like a plan. But I'm already starting to get antsy. I haven't 'worked out' in about 2 weeks and I really want to now. I take the dogs to the dog park every morning and walk around it a few times but that's not enough. I just don't have time to fit a workout in at this point. Actually, maybe I do. Today I have 3 hours between summer school and my class. I was going to work on a project but I could at least go for a walk. Maybe I'll do that. I'll throw my running shoes in the car and take a walk. It doesn't have to be long or fast just some movement. No pressure though. If something comes up and I don't have time that's okay, it's just an idea.
This is the last week of summer school and then I get 2 weeks off before real school starts. I have a long list of things I need to get done in that 2 weeks including getting my classroom all set up. I figure I'll go in to school a couple of days a week to do that. Wow!!! So I have no problem getting up in front of a class and talking, even making mistakes - which I do a lot!! There are a couple of students in my class though who really have public speaking anxiety. I wonder how they teach a class!!! I really do. There is also a man in our class who slightly slurs his words. That drives me crazy. In Hawaii if you speak Pidgin you don't pronounce everything clearly, that's just the nature of Pidgin. Well, when people are raised on Pidgin they tend to slur when they speak proper English. It drives me crazy. I could not imagine sitting through an entire class with this person as the teacher. Yikes.
Okay, enough babbling, I'm off to the dog park.
The Michael Jackson nonsense that is. From the coverage he's receiving you would think he conquered world peace. Or ended racism, oh wait, he was practically racist himself wanting to be white and all. Maybe he ended the violence in the middle east. No, the only middle east country he went to was Dubai - the really, really, really, rich place. Oh wait, I know what he did, he molested children, that's reason to celebrate.
Why is it that when people die all the bad things they did seem to just fade away? Yes, Michael Jackson was an incredible music talent, but that's no reason to treat him like the second coming. People get a grip. I have seen more news coverage of his life and death then anything in recent memory. Good thing that whole pesky Iraq situation is cleared up. And the folks in Iran settled their election issues. And that whole genocide mess in Darfur is cleared up. My god people. Wake up and smell the coffee. Michael Jackson was an extremely talented individual with serious problems -- look what he did to his face!!!! That is not the sign of a mentally healthy person. Get over it a move on. I'm only glad I'm busy all day and will miss the circus that will be going on in Staples center. I can not believe it's being broadcast on TV. But then no one ever said the American public was intelligent......
I'm not sure this is going to make sense to anyone but me but I want to document it. I'm pretty much done. I've reached a point where I'm tired of constantly thinking about my weight and working out. Where I'm tired of beating myself up because I didn't get a specific workout in that day. I'm incredibly busy right now and beating myself up about food and working out is really not helping at all. So I'm done. I'm going to watch what I eat but I'm not going to obsess about it endlessly, which it seems I do constantly. I'm going to eat good, healthy food because I like it, it tastes good, and it makes me feel good. Not because it will help me lose weight or build muscle or burn fat or anything else. I'm not going to stress over when I eat, I'll eat when I'm hungry. I'm not going to stress over portion sizes, an extra large apple will not kill me!! I am going to focus on how I feel. I'm busy teaching and learning and doing both together and it's taking up so much of my time you can not imagine. So I'm going to workout when I can and do things I want to. I take the dogs to the park every morning and we walk quite a ways. No, it's not aerobic or weight bearing but I'm moving. I have the elliptical I'll jump on it when the mood strikes me. I have weights I can do while I'm watching TV. I'm just tired of making it my life's pursuit. I'm done. I'm now going to strive for a more balanced life. Instead of beating myself up over the things I didn't get done, I'm going to enjoy doing the things I love.
Wow, it has been a wild couple of weeks. I have had so much work with my school, the summer school I'm teaching, the dogs, the birds, you name it. I have been running myself ragged trying to fit everything in that needed to be done in a day. Finally, a holiday. I now have time to decompress, regroup, and get organized for the coming week. I have one more week of summer school to teach, then I get a break for 2 weeks. Then it's full time school, 5 classes a day, 20 kids a class. I'll be busy over break getting ready for that. I'm looking forward to August 19 when my classes are over. Then I have a 3 week break before my next class starts, so for 3 weeks I'll only have teaching. The worst part about all this is the mental exhaustion. I'm sitting here right now and I'm having trouble forming coherent sentences. I just got up and I feel like I've been up for hours. I need to do some mindless stuff first. I'm going to take the dogs to the dog park, then come home and work out, then sit down and figure out what all I need to work on. So now I stop thinking for a while.
I knew this was going to happen but I was hoping I could delay it. It doesn't seem so. I have reached a point where I am just swamped. I'm still teaching summer school and those two hours a day take me about 4 hours to prepare for. I have class on Monday and Wednesday night that is 3 hours long each night and has a ton of work with it. I have 'field trips' every Tuesday that take a lot of time. And I have a 4 hour class every Thursday night that requires a ton of work. I've reached the point where I am just exhausted. I'm not getting my workouts in, the dogs aren't getting much exercise, I'm not spending much time with the bird or the hubby. Ugh!!!! The good thing is summer school ends next week. The bad thing is regular school starts before my classes end. So for the two weeks I'm off I want to get lesson plans done for the entire rest of my classes. I figure if I'm spending 4 hours getting 2 hours worth of lessons ready, how long is it going to take me to get 6 hours ready?!?!?!? UGH!!!!!! August 19th my classes end and I am really looking forward to that. I only have one class in fall and that is my teaching internship. So, I'm exhausted and just want to lie down and sleep. I can't do that because I have to teach a class, read 3 chapters in a book, take notes, write a letter, and have this all done before 4 pm. Yeah, that's going to happen...... At least Friday is a holiday - I'm looking forward to that......
I have a confession to make. I did not workout again this morning. But this time I have a really good reason. As soon as I got up at 6:30 I started in on my thesis proposal and I didn't stop until I was finished about half an hour ago. I am so thrilled and excited and relieved. It is finally done. Now I can relax a little.
Last night my murdering-drug-dealing neighbors had a little puppy whining all night. These people can't take care of themselves let alone a puppy!! They are such idiots. They were out there early this morning doing yard work. I heard the kid come out with a weed whacker and show the dad. The dad didn't even know they had one!! What fools. That place is such a mess next door it wouldn't surprise me if they found Ferrari parts laying around. Not that any of them could ever afford a Ferrari - none of them work.
Oh well!! I'm not going to think about my idiot neighbors, I'm too happy. I'm going to go play with the birds for a while. 9
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