16 February 2018

Stupid cold

Last Tuesday, Feb 6th, I started feeling sickly. It came on me after dinner as I was watching TV. I could feel my throat start to get scratchy and my sinuses were filling up. Ugh!! I did not want to get sick. But I woke up the next morning with a head cold. So I went to school on Wednesday feeling like crap. But I made it through the day. Thursday I felt a bit better and made it through the day. Friday I woke feeling really crappy and having no voice. Thankfully it was Friday and I spent most of the day lying on the couch watching TV and napping. Saturday I felt slightly better but stayed home from a party because I really wasn't feeling it. Sunday I felt pretty good, good enough to finish up the closet remodel. Woke up Monday feeling pretty darn good and thought I was on the mend. Then Tuesday it hit me again and I felt really crappy. Wednesday I still felt crappy and Thursday was only slightly better. The problem is that I have a busy weekend. Today it was Science Bowl practice in the morning and a car appointment in the afternoon. Tomorrow it's Science Bowl most of the day. Sunday it's a trip to Costco. The only highlight of this weekend is the Monday holiday.

The cold changes every day. One day I have a deep, wracking cough. The next day I have no voice at all. The next day I can't breathe because I'm so stuffed up. Ugh!!! I'm just tired of it. I think that I just need rest. I rested today when I could and am definitely feeling better. I'm hoping that Sunday and Monday can be spent just resting and relaxing so I can shake this stupid thing. Today is day 10 of the black death and I'm really, really over it.

That's all I have. Just some moaning and complaining.

03 February 2018

Time for a check in

It has been 5 months since I started AltShift. It was rough going in the beginning. I had to change the way I thought about food and exercise. I had to change the way I ate. I had to change the way Hubby cooked since he does all the cooking. It was a big deal and a long transition period. In some ways, Hubby still struggles with it, but I have settled into it. It has now become my comfortable place. I haven't had anything sweet in weeks. I don't crave sweets at all anymore. My reaction is even starting to change towards them. I don't look at them and think those would taste good, I look at them and think, yuck. Yesterday we had a staff meeting and they usually feed us lunch at those things. I was kind of dreading what they might offer and was planning how to get out of eating it or only eating a little. Well, turns out they didn't have lunch for us and instead brought donuts. I did not even for 1 second consider having a donut. Not even for a nanosecond. Just couldn't do it. They also had juice and milk and I did consider a glass of milk, but in the end, had nothing. I had walked to the meeting, so after I walked home and order an unwhich from Jimmy Johns. Best decision ever.

But, the reason for this post is that I weighed and measured myself yesterday. 5 months in. I'm so very proud of myself and am feeling so many benefits from this lifestyle. I have energy like I'd never thought I'd have again. Seriously. There are days when I'm bouncing off the walls. I love it. I still get tired around 1 or 2 in the afternoon, but it is not that crippling, I can't go on anymore, tired. It is just the, wow, it's been a long day and I still have more to go, tired. It generally passes fairly quickly and I'm myself again. I'm much happier. I'm not sure why that is, but I am. Things don't bother me as much as they used to. I also feel like I'm coming from a good place in the things I do. I can't explain it, but I would do things because I was bored or tired or sad, but I don't feel like that now. I feel like I'm coming from a place of joy and happiness. Anyway, the point of this is to get my gains (loses?) on paper. So here goes.


Sept 2017: 227.8

Feb. 2018:  197.4

Loss: 30.4#


Sept 2017: 49.7

Feb. 2018: 46.6

Loss: 3.1% which equates to 21#


Sept 2017: 49.0

Feb. 2018: 45.0

Loss: 4 inches


Sept. 2017: 44.5

Feb. 2018: 38.75

Loss: 5.75 inches


Sept. 2017: 50.0

Feb. 2018: 44.0

Loss: 6 inches

Total inches lost (not all are listed here) = 19.75

Not too shabby. All of my clothes are looser and I'm fitting into things that I haven't fit into in years. I honestly don't remember the last time I was below 200#. It was at least 5 years ago. So I'm feeling pretty amazing about that. Now for the real evidence:

Look at the freaking difference. That top doesn't even fit anymore. It is so loose. Same with the bottoms. I could never get in the pool with those on anymore, they would float right off. I just can't believe it. To look so much better and to feel so much better. Yikes. Why exactly did I wait so long?

Okay, this was a checkup. I may do another one next month or I may wait until April for my birthday. Depends on how I feel.

So that leads me to another thought. Do you know how freeing it is to not think about some things all the time? I no longer think about food 24/7. During all my dieting phases, food was constantly on my mind. When was the next meal? What was I going to eat? Did I have point/macros/whatever to have a snack/dessert/whatever? Oh god, I'm so glad to be done with all that. I don't get hangry. I do get a little tired when I start to get hungry, but it's not that bad. I generally don't think about my next meal until it's getting near time for that next meal. I don't have to think about exercise, except for getting my steps on the weekend. So I have so much less to think about now. I'm so glad I started AltShift and more important, I'm glad I've stayed.

28 January 2018

Making progress

This is who I have to beat/change/defeat however you want to look at it, me.  In many ways, I am my own worst enemy. I get these ideas in my head and let them control me. I let things happen that shouldn't happen. So this is the person I need to beat. Me!!!

Having said that, and keeping that in mind as I try to change my way of thinking, yesterday went well. I needed to go to school for a couple of hours to get some stuff done, and I walked there an back. Yay me!!!!  Then I did some desk stuff I needed to do and at 3:30 went to Target just to cruise around. Now I know that I can't go spending money all the time, but once in a while is cool while trying to break bad habits. I spent 90 minutes cruising Target, Ross's, and Famous Footwear. Spent money I didn't need to. But, I got 10,000 steps. Yay me!!!! Got my food all in the right shifts too. Yay me!!! 

Another thing I've fallen into is putting meditation off until the last minute before I go to bed. I get it done, but I usually have to delay bedtime while I meditate. So I'm going to start meditating before I get on my computer. So here's the routine: I come home from school, talk with Hubby for a little while, mindlessly eat some food (always on shift though), then turn on computer and TV, and sit mindlessly for an hour or so. Many times I doze off in my chair. So I'm going to change that. Before I turn any electronics on, I will meditate. I think that will provide a nice transition from the workday to home. When I go to the gym after school, I will still meditate before any electronics get turned on. I'm even going to hang a post-it note on my monitor that says Meditate!!! I like this plan.

I am a creature of habit, I just need to make sure they are positive habits.

27 January 2018

Changing the way I think

I've been working on this a lot recently. I am generally an all or nothing person, but I'm working hard on changing that. And for the most part, it's working. I now don't lose my mind if I eat something I shouldn't, I just hop right back on the wagon and continue like nothing happened. The other day I purposefully didn't meditate because I had become obsessed with the number of days I had meditated.  So I skipped a day and then picked up the next day. It was not the end of the world. Yes, my streak is gone, but I did not lose my mind or obsess over the fact that I didn't meditate. So that is progress. But I still have things to work on.

For example, I still look at the day being over when I arrive home from school. That is 4 pm! The day can't be over that early. But I still think of it that way. Of course, coming home and putting my pajamas on doesn't help anything. So I need to work on that. I also need to work on my walking. During the work week, I walk plenty. My steps are usually 10,000 - 15,000 depending on the day. But on the weekends, yeah, not so much. Yesterday I hit 4,200 and I was kind of busy all day. So that is something I need to work on. I love, love, love walking. I love walking and listening to my book. I love being outside in the fresh air. I love everything about walking. So why do I struggle with it during the weekends? I need to just schedule some walking and do it during the weekends. I need to develop the mindset, that when I have some downtime I need to just go and walk.

Yesterday we joined LA Fitness. Now I've been a member of Planet Fitness for almost a year and haven't gone in 6 months or so, but what the hell, join a new club. So now I need to lose my 'fear' of gyms. I need to start lifting weights and will have to go there to do it. I only want to go 3 or 4 times a week and Friday mid-day was dead, dead, dead. They said Monday is super busy, so Monday is out. But I think I'll try a weekday right after school. So come home and head straight over there. Then I think a weekend day in the middle of the day. That should be pretty quiet. This is going to take me out of my comfort zone. I feel myself getting all itchy just thinking about it. So this will be a challenge. But a challenge I can face. But part of the problem with any gym is the attitude that the day ends at 4 pm. I come home and need to not stop everything. Maybe I need to plan more things after school. Like going to games or doing things around the house. Or walking the dogs. Or going to the gym. I need to shift my thinking so that my day doesn't end until I eat dinner. That would work. If I looked at dinner as the end of the day and that I can relax after that, I think that is a good way to think.

So there you have it. I need to change some thinking around, but I think I have a plan now. I can do this. I can totally do this.

20 January 2018

The key to change is awareness

So I posted yesterday that I really had nothing to write about because things were going well and I just didn't have much to say. Scratch that. I had a small epiphany yesterday and decided that I needed to document it here.

A couple of weeks ago, I get an email from AltShift about making our food choices, or any choices really, a game. AltShift sent this wristband - for free - and the game was afoot. The premise is that you wear the wristband and every time you break one of your new habits, you have to change wrists. The game is to keep it on one wrist for as long as possible. So here's what happened. I put it on my left wrist 2 days ago. The habits, or choices, I'm trying to ingrain are 8 hours of sleep, meditation every day, 10,000 steps every day, and sticking to the food choices. All of them are not that hard to do at all, but keeping them in line all the time can get a little tough. I pretty much have sleep and meditation nailed, and I'm really good on food - not perfect but good. But 10,000 steps is something I struggle with every weekend. So for me, the wristband is for food and steps. Yesterday I planned my day so that I would not be sitting around the house and it worked, I got my 10,000 steps easily. This is a mind change I have to make. I have it in my head that if I'm not working I should be doing nothing and I need to break that. Yesterday was busy, busy, busy and I survived and thrived. So that attitude is something I need to work on. But I digress. Food was where I had my epiphany. We stopped for lunch at Red Robins - a place we both love. I was on 5 shift so we split a burger. Hubby ordered a tower of onion rings and Red Robin is known for their bottomless fries. But it was 5 shift. So I set my mind to not eating any of them. The trouble arose with the drinks. Red Robin has Angry Orchard on tap. Yum. And I started to order one. Then, I looked down at my wristband and realized that I would have to move it to the other wrist. Now, I hate things on my right wrist, they get in my way. Plus, I had only had it on 2 days and I would have to move it. Ugh!!!! So I ordered a glass of water 'for now' and got to work. I channeled my inner coach voice and began examining the desire for an Angry Orchard. I have no problem having a drink now and then, I rarely drink, but I had slipped into the habit of getting one almost every weekend. Not good. Further examination revealed the 'I deserve it' attitude was hiding under there. Aha!! This I can battle. I do not deserve it. I deserve to feel amazing. A drink, even one, will cause me to come home and take a nap. Happens every single time. Taking a nap screws up my other goals. I can't get steps in when I'm napping now can I? Napping in the middle of the day sometimes screws up my sleep patterns. Sleeping 8 hours a night is important to me because it adds to my feeling amazing. So, bottom line, I didn't have a drink. We even went out to dinner and I didn't have a drink. I did taste some food at dinner; fry bread and cheesy jalapeno bacon macaroni; but all I did was taste them so I don't count that as eating off plan.

Sometimes it is the simpliest thing that can have the greatest impact.

19 January 2018

It's been a while....

And actually, that's good. I tend to write here a lot when things are going bad and not so much when things are going well. So apparently things are going well because it's been 19 days since I've written anything. And, truth be told, things are going well. I'm just cruising along on AltShift, feeling pretty darn amazing, and generally loving life. So I don't have a lot to write about. Also, and quite honestly, I think meditation has been a huge part in this new happiness. I don't dwell on things near as much as I used to. I don't over think things. I just live my life. It also helps keep crazy ass thoughts out of my head. I don't ruminate over things endlessly. I really love it.

So today I'm heading over to REI to get some new hiking shoes. Then I'm going to look at some closet organization ideas. I have things to do and life is good. So, I'm off and maybe I'll be back later to write more. Or not. Whatever.

01 January 2018

Happy New Year

So here it is. 2018. We had some friends over last night and it was fun. Thankfully, everyone left by 10 pm and we headed to bed by 11 pm.  Fireworks went off until 1:00 am but then it all got quiet. As I stated in a previous post, I haven't made any big resolutions or sweeping changes this year. I feel like  I've made a whole lot of changes this year and I don't really have the urgent need to make any more. There are still things I need to work on (as I step over books and backpacks on the floor by my desk) but I think I'm in a mental position to actually make those changes. So that is something that will happen this year, but it's not a resolution, it's a process.

I did weigh and measure myself this morning, I've been planning to do that for a week or so, and was happy with where I'm at. I've lost a significant amount of weight, enough that it would have been cause for huge celebration back in my weight watcher days. More important is that I've lost inches and am feeling amazing. Absolutely. Amazing. So for this year, I want to just keep on doing this.  No goals, or weight loss by a certain date, none of that type of stuff. Just keep on doing it. Actually, I want to get better at it this year. I have the meditation and sleep nailed. I need to master the steps and the food. Neither one will be that hard, I just need to be more consistent with them. These are my big plans for the new year. I also want to become a better teacher. That means planning and doing things that need to be done. For all of this, I need to use my mindfulness. I need to think sudden random decisions through and not just react. I'm getting so much better at that, I just need to keep working on it.

So here we are. No big resolutions, just continued improvement every day.

Stupid cold

Last Tuesday, Feb 6th, I started feeling sickly. It came on me after dinner as I was watching TV. I could feel my throat start to get scra...