16 December 2014

Last day of teaching

at least for this semester. I was going to write a long post but I just lost interest. I'll try and catch up tomorrow.

14 December 2014


As I sit in the chair here, I dream of being better. A better teacher. A better wife. A better dog mom. A better student. A better person. I am making plans to make that happen. Maybe not all at once, but progress towards those goals. First, on January 1st I am going to start Whole 30. This is a fairly strict eating plan for 30 days. I am going to use it as a reset button to get back on the paleo track. Second, I'm going to spend the break getting ahead of my school work. I want to do assignments ahead so that I don't struggle so much every week. I also want to make huge, huge progress on my prospectus. Huge progress like completing it. Huge!!! I want to do some serious cleaning during the break. I also want to workout a lot. I was seriously thinking of getting Daily Burn on their free trial so that I could do 2 workouts a day. Bob Harper has a new 60 day program on there and I was thinking of doing this in the morning - first thing - and then going to Crossfit in the afternoon. It will be tough, but I will be spending most of the day sitting and writing or reading, so it will balance out. Since they offer a free 30 day trial, I could see if I like it before having to pay for it.

So that's my plan. I am ready to change and I am ready to put the work in to get it done. But right now I need to take a nap :)

13 December 2014

The end is near

Only one more week of school. Only 2 more days of teaching and 3 days of exams. I only hope I make it. Last week was so incredibly long, I could not believe it. Hopefully these 2 days aren't as long.

Last night was a Christmas party thrown by the president of the school for everyone remotely involved with the school. It was nice. I hate parties but I went and it wasn't so bad. The food was amazing and I ran into a former student that I was so happy to see.

I am supposed to be working on my assignments that are due tomorrow but I just can't seem to focus. So I thought I'd blog to see if I could get the juices flowing. Considering that I can write more than a sentence or two about a topic, I'm going to say it's not working.

I have been wearing my Vivofit for a week now. It is pretty cool. All of the things that bugged me about my Fitbit are not an issue with the Vivofit. I love the battery. My Fitbit was always needing to be charged or dying at the worst possible time. Then I would connect it to charge and completely forget about it. So there was no consistency in wearing it. Also, if I moved my hand too quickly it would go into sleep mode. That was really annoying. The last day I wore it I had to take it out of sleep mode like 5 times. That was one of the reasons I took it off. Also, I love being able to see exactly how I'm doing. I can see how many steps I've taken, how many are left till I hit my goal, how many calories I've burned, and how many miles I've traveled. It is amazing. And the fact that it has a watch makes it just about perfect. I am so pleased with this thing. It was what I hoped the Fitbit would be and never was. I even like the website. It shows all the stuff I've done and has graphs and charts. It is awesome.

Alright, I'm tired and I think I'm going to call it a day. I will do my work tomorrow.

08 December 2014

Shocking number

I have a scale in my house but I don't use it very often. I have a healthy relationship with the scale. I know that it is just a moment in time. It has little power to make me feel good or bad, it can only give me a snapshot of what is happening right now. I know all that. But sometimes the number can shock you. For some reason I jumped on the scale this morning. I haven't stepped on the scale in almost a month. I generally like to go by how I feel and how my clothes fit. Lately I have felt a little pudgy and all of my clothes are feeling a little tight. Even my 'fat' clothes feel tight. Plus I got my garmin and have been wearing it all weekend, I had to enter a starting weight and I entered 195lbs. thinking that was pretty close to correct. So with all that, I decided to step on the scale this morning. The scale said 201.6 lbs. I was in freaking shock. I honestly have not seen a number like that in over 15 years. Well, it was a wake up call. I have been doing things very half-assed and not really caring that it wasn't working. I figured I was holding my own. I'm not. I'm officially losing the battle. So it is time to make a change. I cannot afford to wait until the first of January, I have to start now. So today everything changes. Everything. My activity goes up. My eating goes down. No sugar. Track everything. Move, move, move.

I have my Garmin to track my activity so that's good. But I will do Crossfit and walk the dogs every day that I can. No more taking off 2, 3, 4 days in a row. I don't care how tired I am, I will do these things. No sitting at the computer for hours at a time. My Garmin has a little red line that comes on if I sit for more than an hour. When that thing comes on I immediately get up and move. My treadmill is going to get put back into action. I will walk and walk and walk while I read and write. Food is a top priority. No more overeating. No more sugar. No more wheat. I am done with them. I am going to do carb cycling. 6 days of low carb eating and 1 day of high carb. In general, I will try to keep my calories around 1500 and on high carb day, 2500. That is it. And move, move, move.

That is it. I'm shocked. I'm shocked that I thought this wouldn't happen. I'm shocked how far in the sand my head has been stuck. I'm just plain shocked.

07 December 2014

Out of sorts

The last couple of days I have felt weird. Friday I was really tired. Yesterday I passed out when I came home and then felt fine. Today, similar stuff. Woke up and was still really tired. By noon I was wiped out, and felt like I was coming down with something. I laid down to take a nap, passed out again, and when I woke I felt better. What is this voo doo? I can not get sick. Can. Not. There are only 2 weeks left of school and I can not get sick. I really think that it has something to do with the way I'm eating. I need to get my diet back on track. Since Friday I've eaten a lot of garbage and need to get back on track. I really hope I'm not getting sick....

06 December 2014

Not sure what happened

but I've completely lost my focus. That's really bad, because right now I need laser focus. We are 2 weeks out from the end of the semester. I have to write 3 final exams. I have to get the grading done. I have to get started on my classes. Focus, focus, focus. I need to get my act together and I need to do it now.

Yesterday after work I went to Crossfit. I came home and was completely exhausted. I stopped at the store, not completely sure why, and bought cookies, ice cream, and popcorn. And proceeded to eat most of them. Not exactly sure why except that I was tired, I have lots to do this weekend, and my room here is a complete disaster. I have boxes and and crap all over. Packaging from things I've bought sit on the floor and on my desk. This is crazy. I sat and organized my classes last weekend then didn't look and reprinted some stuff. UGH!!!! So I was really tired last night and I had to get up and proctor the SAT this morning. They provided us food but it was junky. Sandwiches, pound cake, and M&Ms. I ate it all. Came home around 1:30 pm and passed out on the couch. I mean passed.....out.... Woke up a little while ago and am now trying to get my act together. I have a lot of work to do this weekend. I need to get started on it. First I'm going to clean this place so I have an nice area to work. Then I will get started on the things I need to do.

In other news, I got this:

It came yesterday and I love it already. For the past year or so I've had the FitBit Flex. Bleh....I've had other FitBit items before and they are just okay. Part of the problem I've always had with them is that you can't monitor your progress unless you get on the computer. The FitBit only has lights to indicate how you are doing. My Flex had 5 lights and when I met my goals all 5 lights would light up. The problem is when there were 4 lights lit, I didn't know if I was 10 steps from my goal or 110. Plus, if I wore it on my left wrist I couldn't wear a watch and the battery life sucked. It was rechargeable but it always seemed to die at the worst possible moment. The Garmin Vivofit has none of those problems. It has a display where you can see steps, calories, goal, etc. and it is watch. Nice. Also, the battery is replaceable and lasts like a year. Nice. And, when you don't move for awhile, a red arrow comes on to tell you move. Nice. I really like it. It is a little bigger than the Flex but I think I'll adjust. Hopefully it will help me get off my butt more.

Alright, that's enough for now. I have got to get something done in order to feel good about myself. I'm going to clean this room up right now.

30 November 2014

Relaxing weekend

It has been a nice relaxing weekend and I needed it. I got my grading done on Friday. I have been slowly chipping away at my reading for school. Today I need to do a little planning for the rest of the semester - 3 weeks woot woot. And that's about it. I has been nice. I am going to Crossfit this morning. I went Friday and yesterday. Yesterday I did the WOD then did the Weekend Warrior challenge. That was fun. Today I'm sure it will be brutal so I can't wait for that.

I have fallen into a terrible habit with Crossfit that I need to break. I have been going on Friday, Saturday, and Sunday and not at all during the rest of the week. That has to stop. This past week I had a head cold, but the rest of the time I have just been lazy. No more. I also want to walk the dogs and have struggled with going to Crossfit and walking the dogs. Part of the struggle is that it gets dark so early now and part is that we have to hold off dinner until I'm done. Silly, silly reasons I know. But I think I have a plan. Hubby has poker on Tuesday nights so I'm on my own for dinner and he works on Friday nights so again, I'm on my own. Saturday and Sunday I have no problem doing both because Crossfit is in the morning and walking the dogs is at night. So here is the plan:

Friday night - Crossfit
Saturday/Sunday morning - Crossfit
Saturday/Sunday evening - walk the dogs
Monday evening - walk the dogs
Tuesday evening - Crossfit/walk the dogs
Wednesday evening - Crossfit/walk the dogs
Thursday evening - walk the dogs

This gets me to Crossfit five times a week with rest days in between. I walk the dogs six days a week with the only night they miss is Friday when Hubby is not home. And the only nights we'll have to have a late dinner is on Wednesdays. I am going to follow this schedule this week and see how it works out. I think it will be good. I always feel pressured to walk the dogs fast when I know Hubby is waiting dinner on me. Silly, I know...when summer comes we don't eat till almost 7 pm because it's so light out. I create my own stress. And it's not like he cares. He just wants to know when to have dinner ready, that's all.

Okay, I'm done. I need to start getting ready for Crossfit and I need to grab a small something to eat. I'm a little bit hungry.