20 December 2014
Yesterday was the last day of school. I am now on break for 2 weeks. Yeah!!! I did not complete my grading as I had hoped, but I have 2 weeks to get that done. I came home and did a bunch of nothing. I was in bed pretty early and slept to almost 7 am. A total of 9.5 hours sleep. That was awesome. The problem with sleeping that much is that I am unmotivated the next day. I did not make it to the 8 am Crossfit, but did force myself to the 9 am. I came home and made myself breakfast and then ate a yucky peanut butter cookie - bleh, not worth it. I am now faced with a pile of reading to do for my work that is due tomorrow. I am also facing a horribly dirty house that needs major cleaning. I'm trying to convince myself that it is okay not to do everything at once, but I don't want to do anything. I don't even want to take a shower. I have zero motivation to do anything at all. I think I just may have to give into the lack of motivation and take it easy today. I still have tomorrow. Plus, if I rest now, I might get some motivation later. Ugh, I just need to recover my energy.....
18 December 2014
Today was the Christmas party at school. There was really good food and beer. There was a couple of events like this the past week or so. Plus there were finals this week. Makes for a generally crazy schedule. So I had decided to give myself a pass and allow some laxity in my eating and working out this week. So I have not been to Crossfit all week and my eating has been less than stellar. But that ends tomorrow. I could wait until Saturday or even Monday but I'm not going to do that. I plan on making myself a good breakfast and lunch. I am staying at school after finals to do some grading and I want to have food available. Tomorrow night I'm making meatballs for dinner. Then Saturday it is back to Crossfit for 2 solid weeks. I also will be working out at home. I'm going to start a free trial of Daily Burn and do Bob Harper's workouts at home. I say this every break, but this time I really mean it. I will be productive this break. I want to clean the house top to bottom. I want to get serious progress made on my prospectus - enough to turn it in??? I want to get to Crossfit every day. I want to walk the dogs every night possible. I will track my food every day. I need to get a handle on the out of controlness in my life. I also want to get some rest, take it easy, and do some things strictly for fun. Contradictory??? I don't think so. It's all a matter of balance.
Tomorrow I begin with the food. Saturday I add in exercise and school work. Monday the real work begins.
16 December 2014
14 December 2014
As I sit in the chair here, I dream of being better. A better teacher. A better wife. A better dog mom. A better student. A better person. I am making plans to make that happen. Maybe not all at once, but progress towards those goals. First, on January 1st I am going to start Whole 30. This is a fairly strict eating plan for 30 days. I am going to use it as a reset button to get back on the paleo track. Second, I'm going to spend the break getting ahead of my school work. I want to do assignments ahead so that I don't struggle so much every week. I also want to make huge, huge progress on my prospectus. Huge progress like completing it. Huge!!! I want to do some serious cleaning during the break. I also want to workout a lot. I was seriously thinking of getting Daily Burn on their free trial so that I could do 2 workouts a day. Bob Harper has a new 60 day program on there and I was thinking of doing this in the morning - first thing - and then going to Crossfit in the afternoon. It will be tough, but I will be spending most of the day sitting and writing or reading, so it will balance out. Since they offer a free 30 day trial, I could see if I like it before having to pay for it.
So that's my plan. I am ready to change and I am ready to put the work in to get it done. But right now I need to take a nap :)
13 December 2014
Only one more week of school. Only 2 more days of teaching and 3 days of exams. I only hope I make it. Last week was so incredibly long, I could not believe it. Hopefully these 2 days aren't as long.
Last night was a Christmas party thrown by the president of the school for everyone remotely involved with the school. It was nice. I hate parties but I went and it wasn't so bad. The food was amazing and I ran into a former student that I was so happy to see.
I am supposed to be working on my assignments that are due tomorrow but I just can't seem to focus. So I thought I'd blog to see if I could get the juices flowing. Considering that I can write more than a sentence or two about a topic, I'm going to say it's not working.
I have been wearing my Vivofit for a week now. It is pretty cool. All of the things that bugged me about my Fitbit are not an issue with the Vivofit. I love the battery. My Fitbit was always needing to be charged or dying at the worst possible time. Then I would connect it to charge and completely forget about it. So there was no consistency in wearing it. Also, if I moved my hand too quickly it would go into sleep mode. That was really annoying. The last day I wore it I had to take it out of sleep mode like 5 times. That was one of the reasons I took it off. Also, I love being able to see exactly how I'm doing. I can see how many steps I've taken, how many are left till I hit my goal, how many calories I've burned, and how many miles I've traveled. It is amazing. And the fact that it has a watch makes it just about perfect. I am so pleased with this thing. It was what I hoped the Fitbit would be and never was. I even like the website. It shows all the stuff I've done and has graphs and charts. It is awesome.
Alright, I'm tired and I think I'm going to call it a day. I will do my work tomorrow.
08 December 2014
I have a scale in my house but I don't use it very often. I have a healthy relationship with the scale. I know that it is just a moment in time. It has little power to make me feel good or bad, it can only give me a snapshot of what is happening right now. I know all that. But sometimes the number can shock you. For some reason I jumped on the scale this morning. I haven't stepped on the scale in almost a month. I generally like to go by how I feel and how my clothes fit. Lately I have felt a little pudgy and all of my clothes are feeling a little tight. Even my 'fat' clothes feel tight. Plus I got my garmin and have been wearing it all weekend, I had to enter a starting weight and I entered 195lbs. thinking that was pretty close to correct. So with all that, I decided to step on the scale this morning. The scale said 201.6 lbs. I was in freaking shock. I honestly have not seen a number like that in over 15 years. Well, it was a wake up call. I have been doing things very half-assed and not really caring that it wasn't working. I figured I was holding my own. I'm not. I'm officially losing the battle. So it is time to make a change. I cannot afford to wait until the first of January, I have to start now. So today everything changes. Everything. My activity goes up. My eating goes down. No sugar. Track everything. Move, move, move.
I have my Garmin to track my activity so that's good. But I will do Crossfit and walk the dogs every day that I can. No more taking off 2, 3, 4 days in a row. I don't care how tired I am, I will do these things. No sitting at the computer for hours at a time. My Garmin has a little red line that comes on if I sit for more than an hour. When that thing comes on I immediately get up and move. My treadmill is going to get put back into action. I will walk and walk and walk while I read and write. Food is a top priority. No more overeating. No more sugar. No more wheat. I am done with them. I am going to do carb cycling. 6 days of low carb eating and 1 day of high carb. In general, I will try to keep my calories around 1500 and on high carb day, 2500. That is it. And move, move, move.
That is it. I'm shocked. I'm shocked that I thought this wouldn't happen. I'm shocked how far in the sand my head has been stuck. I'm just plain shocked.
07 December 2014
The last couple of days I have felt weird. Friday I was really tired. Yesterday I passed out when I came home and then felt fine. Today, similar stuff. Woke up and was still really tired. By noon I was wiped out, and felt like I was coming down with something. I laid down to take a nap, passed out again, and when I woke I felt better. What is this voo doo? I can not get sick. Can. Not. There are only 2 weeks left of school and I can not get sick. I really think that it has something to do with the way I'm eating. I need to get my diet back on track. Since Friday I've eaten a lot of garbage and need to get back on track. I really hope I'm not getting sick....