22 October 2016

Blogging is dying????

I know that blogging has died out for many, many people and some only do it sporadically now, but I've been pretty consistent for 12 years. 12 years of my life is basically chronicled here. So much has changed in 12 years. We lived at the ranch then and I worked in the lab. Now I'm a teacher with almost a Ph.D. and we are living in Arizona. Hubby is semi-retired and life is really good. I always wonder about people who plan out their life in detail. I never had a plan. Most of the time I didn't know what I was working towards or where I was going. But I have friends who have every aspect of their life planned; when and how many kids they will have; jobs they will have; where they will live; etc. I've pretty much rolled with the punches and think I've done pretty well for myself. I haven't done things when others have, but I have a lot of experiences that others never get. I've worked at a number of different places and made a ton of friends all over the place. I've gotten degrees and learned things others never will. While I think sometimes, that I wish I had done X or Y, I realize that my life would have been very different and I'm not sure I'd want to change it. Yes, I wish I had done some things different, but overall I'm very happy with the way my life turned out. Okay, not exactly sure where this came from, but there you have it. One thing I have learned over 12 years is that this thing can be very therapeutic if I let the words just come. I have discovered lots about myself by just letting the writing flow. I have also found answers to some complex problems by just writing. I've been thinking a lot lately about my life and where it's gone and where it's going and I think that is where this all came from. We have made a huge life change and I guess it's natural to reflect on it at times. Moving on.....

So I finally got over being sick, but going back to work after a week off took its toll. I was tired and cranky all week. I hope I get over that this weekend. I don't like feeling like that. I had plans to just force myself to workout last week. Treadmill in the morning, bike to and from work, Crossfit. But it just didn't quite work out. My foot bothered me after Monday and I was just completely exhausted all day Tuesday. Not sure what to do at this point, but I need to work out more. So I'm thinking about that. I know that it will hurt and I'll be tired initially. But I also know that I will get over that and the energy will come. So I need to find a balance to get through the initial exhaustion stage. I'm working on that. Today will be a fun filled day. We are going to the dog park this morning. Then it is off to a farmer's market to check it out. Then the pet expo in Tolleson. After that it's home to get some things done around here. My goal today is to get things done and not take a nap. Wish me luck.

10 October 2016

Sick of being sick

Last week I felt like I was getting a head cold all week. My throat hurt and I had a slight cough. But I muddled through school since it was the last week before break. I knew I could make it. When Friday came around, I had this wonderful cough that sounded like I was coughing up a lung. It felt that way too. So I rested. All. Day. Saturday I didn't feel a whole lot better. If it was possible, the cough had gotten even worse. I did go run a couple of errands but otherwise took it easy most of the day. Yesterday was better, though my throat hurt from that damn cough. We went out to lunch and did some shopping and it was fun. Oh yeah, yesterday I only took 1 nap. Friday I took like 3 and Saturday I took 2. So there was a definite improvement. By last night I was feeling pretty good, but I didn't trust that feeling. I felt good Friday night and woke up worse on Saturday - at least the cough was much worse. I did sleep very well last night and I don't remember coughing at all. Woke up this morning still feeling good. Usually, mornings are when I cough the most, but there has been very little coughing this morning. I honestly think I've rested enough and today I'm kicking it back into high gear. I want to workout. I really, really do. I am tired of resting and feeling like crap. I want to move and do things. So I think I will today. I'm going to walk the dogs and go to crossfit and walk on the treadmill. I'm going to do laundry, work on my dissertation, and work on my planning for school. I'm going to do things. I will NOT take a nap. I will work until I'm exhausted and then I will fall into bed tonight and sleep like the dead. I know I can be lazy, but forced inactivity really grates on my nerves.

01 October 2016

One week of paleo down

So I had that heart to heart with Hubby last weekend and wow, did he jump on board quickly. He went right on his phone and started looking up Paleo recipes. He planned the whole week out and had a different paleo meal every night. He also made some paleo 'treats'. It was awesome. I cooked a bunch of chicken in my Instant Pot and had that and salad for lunch. It was awesome. A couple of things I noticed. I didn't feel so fat and bloated. The scale didn't move much, but that's okay, I felt better. Also, I was not completely wiped out at the end of the day. I would get tired around 2-3, but my energy would come back without a nap. Yay!!!! So I'm back on track. My workouts didn't happen as often as I would have liked, but you know what? That's okay. I'm starting to feel a lot better and if it takes a little bit of time to get the workouts in hand, I'm okay with that. I'm just so glad to be feeling good again. We are going to a Bites N' Brews thing tonight and I'll be going off paleo, but I'm not going to let it derail me completely. I'm going to treat it like a carb night scenario. I've gone 6 days on pretty strict paleo so going a little high carb tonight will not derail me completely. I'm looking forward to getting into the workouts again. I love the way I feel when I workout consistently so I want to add that to the way I feel while eating well. So I'm finally feeling like I'm on the right track again. I'm not going to rush it and I'm not going to beat myself up if I slip up a bit, it is consistency over time that really matters. So thing are good.

25 September 2016

Stop the insanity

I am not a perfect person, not by a long shot. I have a lot of things that I really need to work on. In most cases, I am working on them. Slowly. But progress is being made. In terms of my weight and my health - not so much. Part of the reason, I just realized this morning, is that I keep trying to solve it the same way. I make these grandiose plans on the weekends and then fall into the same old routine during the week. The plans fall by the wayside and boom, I've made zero progress and I don't understand why. It is time to really switch things up, but I'm not sure exactly how to do that. I always go back to my mindset because I understand how important that is. I know that if I make things like eating right and exercising a non-negotiable thing, I will stick to it. But only for a while. So how can I change things to really shake up my routine? So what do I do? Maybe try some things that worked in the past but I haven't done recently. Like meal prep.

I think it starts with a heart to heart with the Hubby. He does the majority of the cooking in the house and I have just been eating it. In the past he has always been very supportive when I needed to lose weight. So I think a heart to heart and a plan will go a long way in making this work. I know he will get on board, I just need to fill him in and to let him know that I am serious this time. That and some meal prep should be a good start.

23 September 2016

Been a good week

I had more energy this week and generally just felt better all around. I'm still not where I want to be, but at least this week I wasn't completely exhausted every day. So now I think it is time to step it up a bit. I make these plans and then do nothing. Like today. I had a faculty meeting this morning and planned on doing some stuff this afternoon. I did nothing. I took a nap and watched TV. It is now 5 pm and I have accomplished exactly nothing today. It is really depressing. I did order a new activity tracker because 3 that work fine is just not enough. Got to have a lot of activity trackers for the lack of exercise I do. So this week I'm going to focus on following my plans. I'm going to make a reasonable plan and then I'm going to follow through. All I need is to force myself to do things to make them a habit. I know this. And yet I still let my feelings take over and talk me out of doing things. Ugh!!! Hate that. So this week it is just to stick with my plan. That's all.

On the weight front, I've hit a holding pattern. At least I'm not gaining more weight. But I still need to start things moving in the other direction. I feel bloated most of the time and I need to lose that. I hate to pile too much on myself though, that is a recipe for failure. So I'm not going to stress over the food this week. One week won't make a huge amount of difference anyway. I will work on getting into the habit of working out. Also, once I start working out, the food tends to start to fall into line. Okay, so my focus this week will be activity.

18 September 2016


I have spent a lot of my adult life avoiding adulting. Seriously. I worked and paid bills, but I was always very spontaneous. I never considered the future let alone plan for it. I very much lived one day at a time. Was it a smart thing to do? NO. I spent a lot of time stressing over money and things. I'm sure I also paid way more than I needed to over the years because I let things slide. Late charges and past due fees were the norm for me.

10 years ago, when we moved to Waimanalo, I started to get my act together. I worked out a budget. Paid bills on time. Even managed to save a little money. Then we bought the house on Paleka road and thing went to shit again. I then spent the next 6 years trying hard to adult correctly and just not having the resources to do it. In my defense, I really, really tried, but it was a huge struggle every step of the way. Then we moved here. I have done more adulting since we moved then I ever have in my life. We have been able to do many, many adult things. Buy new furniture. Actually, decorate a room or two. Make serious decisions about what we want to do with our money. And the truth of the matter is that it feels really good. It feels good to have money in the bank. It feels awesome to have all the bills paid and money in the bank. It feels incredible to actually be able to think about things like vacations and saving accounts. Seriously. It really feels good. I made a plan last night to get $10,000 put away as an emergency fund. I should be able to get that put away within the year, maybe sooner. Then I'm starting a vacation fund. I want to travel to Europe and Australia. Now that Charlie can get a passport, we are going to do that. But we are going to do it the adult way; save the money before we go. You have no idea how exciting it is to feel like you finally have a handle on life. You have no idea. I have set up recurring payments for the mortgage and am paying $83.90 extra every month. I read somewhere that you can cut 7 years off your mortgage by making 1 extra payment a year. $83.90 a month is more than 1 payment a year. Yeah!!! A couple of weeks ago we bought a new car. The payments don't start until October, but I set up the payments to start next week. We will be paying 1/2 the payment every 2 weeks plus an additional $22 a payment. That equates to an extra payment every year plus an extra payment in additional money. That will have us paying off the car 10 months early and saving us over $1,000 in interest. Woo hoo. It really is so much easier to be an adult when there is money to work with.

I can honestly say that moving from Hawaii was one of the smartest things we ever did. I now feel like I am finally a true adult.

17 September 2016

A powerful lesson

I wasn't in such a great mood all week. I knew it. I felt it. I didn't like it. But I couldn't seem to shake it completely and I didn't quite know why. Then I realized it today. I had a seminar I had to attend today and I was dreading it all week. I was bent out of shape because I had to give up my Saturday to attend this seminar. All week I was resentful and didn't want to do it. So it ruined my entire week and it wasn't that bad. I actually enjoyed it. The point is, I spent all week dreading it and it ruined my whole week. Why did I let that have that much control over me? I have been learning slowly that my attitude is the most important thing I have. My attitude can make the worst things not only acceptable but fun. I have got to watch that. I don't want to fall back into old habits. I want to be happy with everything; my job, my house, my life. I just needed to note this to remember later that attitude is everything. Fake it until you make it :)