20 December 2014

Lost


Yesterday was the last day of school. I am now on break for 2 weeks. Yeah!!! I did not complete my grading as I had hoped, but I have 2 weeks to get that done. I came home and did a bunch of nothing. I was in bed pretty early and slept to almost 7 am. A total of 9.5 hours sleep. That was awesome. The problem with sleeping that much is that I am unmotivated the next day. I did not make it to the 8 am Crossfit, but did force myself to the 9 am. I came home and made myself breakfast and then ate a yucky peanut butter cookie - bleh, not worth it. I am now faced with a pile of reading to do for my work that is due tomorrow. I am also facing a horribly dirty house that needs major cleaning. I'm trying to convince myself that it is okay not to do everything at once, but I don't want to do anything. I don't even want to take a shower. I have zero motivation to do anything at all. I think I just may have to give into the lack of motivation and take it easy today. I still have tomorrow. Plus, if I rest now, I might get some motivation later. Ugh, I just need to recover my energy.....

18 December 2014

Not Waiting


Today was the Christmas party at school. There was really good food and beer. There was a couple of events like this the past week or so. Plus there were finals this week. Makes for a generally crazy schedule. So I had decided to give myself a pass and allow some laxity in my eating and working out this week. So I have not been to Crossfit all week and my eating has been less than stellar. But that ends tomorrow. I could wait until Saturday or even Monday but I'm not going to do that. I plan on making myself a good breakfast and lunch. I am staying at school after finals to do some grading and I want to have food available. Tomorrow night I'm making meatballs for dinner. Then Saturday it is back to Crossfit for 2 solid weeks. I also will be working out at home. I'm going to start a free trial of Daily Burn and do Bob Harper's workouts at home. I say this every break, but this time I really mean it. I will be productive this break. I want to clean the house top to bottom. I want to get serious progress made on my prospectus - enough to turn it in??? I want to get to Crossfit every day. I want to walk the dogs every night possible. I will track my food every day. I need to get a handle on the out of controlness in my life. I also want to get some rest, take it easy, and do some things strictly for fun. Contradictory??? I don't think so. It's all a matter of balance.

Tomorrow I begin with the food. Saturday I add in exercise and school work. Monday the real work begins.

16 December 2014

Last day of teaching


at least for this semester. I was going to write a long post but I just lost interest. I'll try and catch up tomorrow.

14 December 2014

Choices


As I sit in the chair here, I dream of being better. A better teacher. A better wife. A better dog mom. A better student. A better person. I am making plans to make that happen. Maybe not all at once, but progress towards those goals. First, on January 1st I am going to start Whole 30. This is a fairly strict eating plan for 30 days. I am going to use it as a reset button to get back on the paleo track. Second, I'm going to spend the break getting ahead of my school work. I want to do assignments ahead so that I don't struggle so much every week. I also want to make huge, huge progress on my prospectus. Huge progress like completing it. Huge!!! I want to do some serious cleaning during the break. I also want to workout a lot. I was seriously thinking of getting Daily Burn on their free trial so that I could do 2 workouts a day. Bob Harper has a new 60 day program on there and I was thinking of doing this in the morning - first thing - and then going to Crossfit in the afternoon. It will be tough, but I will be spending most of the day sitting and writing or reading, so it will balance out. Since they offer a free 30 day trial, I could see if I like it before having to pay for it.

So that's my plan. I am ready to change and I am ready to put the work in to get it done. But right now I need to take a nap :)

13 December 2014

The end is near


Only one more week of school. Only 2 more days of teaching and 3 days of exams. I only hope I make it. Last week was so incredibly long, I could not believe it. Hopefully these 2 days aren't as long.

Last night was a Christmas party thrown by the president of the school for everyone remotely involved with the school. It was nice. I hate parties but I went and it wasn't so bad. The food was amazing and I ran into a former student that I was so happy to see.

I am supposed to be working on my assignments that are due tomorrow but I just can't seem to focus. So I thought I'd blog to see if I could get the juices flowing. Considering that I can write more than a sentence or two about a topic, I'm going to say it's not working.

I have been wearing my Vivofit for a week now. It is pretty cool. All of the things that bugged me about my Fitbit are not an issue with the Vivofit. I love the battery. My Fitbit was always needing to be charged or dying at the worst possible time. Then I would connect it to charge and completely forget about it. So there was no consistency in wearing it. Also, if I moved my hand too quickly it would go into sleep mode. That was really annoying. The last day I wore it I had to take it out of sleep mode like 5 times. That was one of the reasons I took it off. Also, I love being able to see exactly how I'm doing. I can see how many steps I've taken, how many are left till I hit my goal, how many calories I've burned, and how many miles I've traveled. It is amazing. And the fact that it has a watch makes it just about perfect. I am so pleased with this thing. It was what I hoped the Fitbit would be and never was. I even like the website. It shows all the stuff I've done and has graphs and charts. It is awesome.

Alright, I'm tired and I think I'm going to call it a day. I will do my work tomorrow.

08 December 2014

Shocking number


I have a scale in my house but I don't use it very often. I have a healthy relationship with the scale. I know that it is just a moment in time. It has little power to make me feel good or bad, it can only give me a snapshot of what is happening right now. I know all that. But sometimes the number can shock you. For some reason I jumped on the scale this morning. I haven't stepped on the scale in almost a month. I generally like to go by how I feel and how my clothes fit. Lately I have felt a little pudgy and all of my clothes are feeling a little tight. Even my 'fat' clothes feel tight. Plus I got my garmin and have been wearing it all weekend, I had to enter a starting weight and I entered 195lbs. thinking that was pretty close to correct. So with all that, I decided to step on the scale this morning. The scale said 201.6 lbs. I was in freaking shock. I honestly have not seen a number like that in over 15 years. Well, it was a wake up call. I have been doing things very half-assed and not really caring that it wasn't working. I figured I was holding my own. I'm not. I'm officially losing the battle. So it is time to make a change. I cannot afford to wait until the first of January, I have to start now. So today everything changes. Everything. My activity goes up. My eating goes down. No sugar. Track everything. Move, move, move.

I have my Garmin to track my activity so that's good. But I will do Crossfit and walk the dogs every day that I can. No more taking off 2, 3, 4 days in a row. I don't care how tired I am, I will do these things. No sitting at the computer for hours at a time. My Garmin has a little red line that comes on if I sit for more than an hour. When that thing comes on I immediately get up and move. My treadmill is going to get put back into action. I will walk and walk and walk while I read and write. Food is a top priority. No more overeating. No more sugar. No more wheat. I am done with them. I am going to do carb cycling. 6 days of low carb eating and 1 day of high carb. In general, I will try to keep my calories around 1500 and on high carb day, 2500. That is it. And move, move, move.

That is it. I'm shocked. I'm shocked that I thought this wouldn't happen. I'm shocked how far in the sand my head has been stuck. I'm just plain shocked.

07 December 2014

Out of sorts


The last couple of days I have felt weird. Friday I was really tired. Yesterday I passed out when I came home and then felt fine. Today, similar stuff. Woke up and was still really tired. By noon I was wiped out, and felt like I was coming down with something. I laid down to take a nap, passed out again, and when I woke I felt better. What is this voo doo? I can not get sick. Can. Not. There are only 2 weeks left of school and I can not get sick. I really think that it has something to do with the way I'm eating. I need to get my diet back on track. Since Friday I've eaten a lot of garbage and need to get back on track. I really hope I'm not getting sick....