27 October 2005

Looks like we made it....

This has been an absolutely brutal week but the worst is now over. Monday was the tough run and lack of sleep due to scared puppies. So Tuesday I was tired and sore and decided to take the day off - no problem. Tuesday night was WW and that was not good. Wednesday morning I just could not drag my butt out of bed and last night I had a business meeting that involved lots of pizza and beer. Yes, I overdid it. I ate way too much pizza and drank too much beer and to top it off I even had dessert. I literally had to unbutton my pants on the drive home I was so full. That lead to me not being able to get out bed again this morning. I must say though now I feel better. I've got all light food to eat today to try and make up for yesterday. Tonight I get to go straight home, walk the dogs, do the ellipitcal for awhile, have dinner with the hubby and relax. I plan on being in bed early and getting up tomorrow and running. It's been rough I'm just glad it's over.

"Success means having the courage, the determination, and the will to become the person you believe you were meant to be" - George Sheehan

I read this quote over at Renee's site and it started me to thinking. Who is the person I was meant to be?? Am I that person now or am I still on the journey?? How will I know when I've become that person?? I want to run and do triathlons but is that what I'm meant to do?? This really opens up a whole lot of avenues of thought in my mind. Do I have the body to do what I want??? I do not have a thin, light body. I am much more on the short, squat, chunky side. Is that good or bad?? Does it matter?? What about work?? Am I doing what I'm supposed to be doing? Is this my contribution to the world? Do we ever really become what we were meant to be or are we supposed to spend all our time here trying to be better and better and just be the best we can be in the time we are given?? I do believe in a higher power; however you view it god, allah, jesus, the goddess, whatever; but I more firmly believe in free will. I believe you a dealt a hand in life and it's up to you how you play it. You can play conservative or you can go all in. I want to go all in but I don't do that near enough. I tend to fall back into my conservative, play it safe, position. Maybe it's time to start pushing the envelope more. Maybe it's time to figure out exactly who I'm supposed to be......

1 comment:

Jennifer P said...

Your shape and size doesn't matter (I'm the shortest one on the beach on race day!). The fact that you can challenge yourself to do the things you want (triathlon, running) is the important part.

I'm sort of where you're at right now. I'm having fun doing triathlon, but I'm not great at it. I'm looking for ways to push the envelope too...

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