31 October 2008

The fire inside

I was driving around the other day heading to school or some such nonsense and I felt dull and bored. I realized that I have felt that way for a couple of days, maybe even a couple of weeks. I thought Wow!!! How can that be?? I'm back at school changing my career, which I've wanted to do for a really, really long time. I'm making plans to move to Colorado, another thing I've really wanted to do - return to the mainland. Things are moving along and falling into place, how come I feel so listless and empty??? I realized that I had lost the fire. Generally I have a fire, a passion, a burning desire for something..... I don't have that right now. I'm doing what I want to do and I know it's the right thing but I also feel like I'm in a bit of a holding pattern. I have a lot of plans and things are all moving in the right direction, but there's no burning passion. I think I need to find something to build a fire in me. I'm thinking I need to get back into sports again. The only thing that puts a passion in my soul is working towards something. I'm thinking I may have to go back to running and racing and such. I need to stoke up the fire to keep things interesting around here. I need new lighting fixtures to illuminate the spark in my life.....

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