15 October 2008

This week is falling apart

and I'm trying desperately to get it back together.

Monday started off well. I got up and did my strength training, that was good. I hardly ate though, and that was bad. I drank water like a fish but that was because I hardly drank any over the weekend, that was definitely bad. Yesterday I had to take Nala to the vet for some tests to try and figure out what's going on with her. I was a bit emotional all day. I got up and had some stuff to do and ended up not working our. Again, I ate horribly and drank little because of my emotional state. Then I had class last night. When I got home I was starving so I had a pork chop. That's all. Just meat. I felt like a freaking cave man. But I was hungry and that was ready. Then I ended up sitting up a little bit later then normal. Which led to me being exhausted this morning and not getting up to workout. These things all go hand in hand. If I don't eat right and drink enough water I feel like crap and eat stupid things and can't get up in the morning....... it's a vicious cycle. So, in an effort to not spin out of control completely, I'm going to eat right and drink my water today. That's all. I'm not going to worry about exercise or doing anything, just eating and drinking. I've got to get a handle on this before I lose it completely and end up on the couch stuffing bon-bons in my face. Actually, that's unlikely since I don't like bon-bons :)

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