15 November 2008

This one is for me.....

Why is it so easy to fall back into old habits?? Why do I do things when I know they will make me feel like crap?? Why?? Why?? Why???

This morning I really feel like sh*t. Last night I ate a Moonpie, a strawberry muffin, a bag of dark chocolate M&Ms, and a lemon bar. Along with a tall iced coffee. And then I had dinner. I felt horrible last night and I feel even worse this morning. Why do I do this? I really, really don't understand. My weight has crept up slightly, only a couple of pounds, but I can feel the difference. I feel huge and bloated - constantly. My sleep is effected. I am constantly tired and last night I slept for 9.5 hours!!! Hello!! Who sleeps that long but a teenager. I have little energy to do anything and I hate feeling this way. The worst part is, I know it's directly related to what and how much I'm eating. I know it. Also, my lack of exercise.

I'm starting over today but I don't exactly understand why I do this and I think that's a large part of the battle. I need to know why I let myself fall back into these habits in order to stop them completely. So, not only do I start over today, I start questioning all my choices. Why I did or did not do something will be part of the process. Be prepared for it to get boring :)

1 comment:

SeaShore said...

I've been snacking a lot lately, too. I would like to figure out why I just don't eat these things. I'm not hungry, I'm aware that I'm about to eat and that it's not doing me any favours, but I go ahead and do it anyway.

Hope you figure it out. Good luck.

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