What am I willing to do??

I've pretty clearly defined what I'm not willing to do - workout 4-6 hours a day and obsess totally over food. So that naturally leads to the question, what am I willing to do??

I am willing to workout everyday - hard. I still want to be fit and healthy, even if it's not in a size 2. E.L. I agree with you to a point. I do believe that you can get an amazing body with an hour a day and an active lifestyle. I also believe that your dream body has to be realistic for you. Mine wasn't (please notice the past tense here). I wanted something that would be physically impossible for me to obtain. I've readjusted my vision and am confident I can achieve it. I'm willing to workout 1 - 1.5 hours a day. That's an amount of time that works well for me and that doesn't interfere with the rest of my life. The 1.5 hours usually only happen on the weekends when I go hiking or something like that.

I'm willing to eat healthy 80-90% of the time. After all these years I know what works for my body and what doesn't, but I'm not willing to deny myself completely (something I tried and failed at). I will allow myself a 10% fudge factor with 20% for special times like Christmas and New Years.

I am on the fence about logging my food. When I start to log I start to obsess. I don't want to do that. Maybe I'll log my food but not total the calories. That way I can go back and check the calories if I need to, but as long as I stay consistent things will be good. I don't know, I have to think about this some more. I do know that I am on a food logging hiatus until after the first of the year. With my insanity the last few months over food I've completely lost touch with my body and the intuitive ability to eat. I eat when I'm not hungry because it's time to or I don't eat at all. It's time to get back in touch with the body and the hunger mechanism and quit obsessing over food.

What I'm really changing is my attitude. I seriously had gone a little crazy over this weight loss thing. My views had gotten all kinds of screwed up. I've said before I have a tendency to do nothing when I know there are lots of things to be done. So when I kept saying to myself, you need to lose weight, you need to eat right, you don't need that dessert, it put added pressure that resulted in me doing the opposite things. So I've removed the pressure. I don't need to lose weight though I would like to. I don't need to eat right all the time, though I will most of the time. I won't avoid dessert all the time, just most of the time. It really is all in your mind and my mind had gotten into some pretty dark, scary places. I see how eating disorders can develop. And how easily. The human mind is an amazing thing if used right.