Time to get real
Seriously!! I've been kind of kidding myself. I keep telling myself that I'm probably not gaining weight. That I'm just a little bit overweight. That I haven't put on that much weight. That I don't really eat that much. That I eat good. That I work out enough. Bull Shit!!!! I just got back from the doctors and what's the first thing they did?? Weigh me. Ummmm, yeah.... I have been fooling myself. I have gained weight. A lot of weight. And it's time to get serious about it.
Okay, as I wrote that I was eating dinner - pork chop and mashed potatoes. After I ate I got sooooo tired that I had to lay down on the couch for about 40 minutes. Ugh!!! I was completely and totally exhausted though. I have got to get my eating under control. I have no choice at all. I can not go on like this. Things have to change and they have to change right now.
I am going to stick to a 1500 calorie diet. I will record my food in Fat Secret and I will not, not, not eat dessert. I just know that is my downfall, I just know it. I can justify it to myself all I want that I don't eat much dessert and I don't eat it every night and all that other nonsense. Again I say, bull shit. I had a Drumstick the other night and they are about 400 calories. That's great. I eat that and then head off to bed and guess what....I gain. Enough, enough, enough.
I can't work out much because of my knee, but I can totally eat right. I'm back to school and there is no reason why my eating can't be more structured and controlled. I'm not lying around the house all day anymore.
Okay, enough, it starts now. Now I understand why I am so tired so often. Why I have no motivation or energy to do much of anything at all. OMG!!! But that's it, I'm done now.....