Shocking number

I have a scale in my house but I don't use it very often. I have a healthy relationship with the scale. I know that it is just a moment in time. It has little power to make me feel good or bad, it can only give me a snapshot of what is happening right now. I know all that. But sometimes the number can shock you. For some reason I jumped on the scale this morning. I haven't stepped on the scale in almost a month. I generally like to go by how I feel and how my clothes fit. Lately I have felt a little pudgy and all of my clothes are feeling a little tight. Even my 'fat' clothes feel tight. Plus I got my garmin and have been wearing it all weekend, I had to enter a starting weight and I entered 195lbs. thinking that was pretty close to correct. So with all that, I decided to step on the scale this morning. The scale said 201.6 lbs. I was in freaking shock. I honestly have not seen a number like that in over 15 years. Well, it was a wake up call. I have been doing things very half-assed and not really caring that it wasn't working. I figured I was holding my own. I'm not. I'm officially losing the battle. So it is time to make a change. I cannot afford to wait until the first of January, I have to start now. So today everything changes. Everything. My activity goes up. My eating goes down. No sugar. Track everything. Move, move, move.

I have my Garmin to track my activity so that's good. But I will do Crossfit and walk the dogs every day that I can. No more taking off 2, 3, 4 days in a row. I don't care how tired I am, I will do these things. No sitting at the computer for hours at a time. My Garmin has a little red line that comes on if I sit for more than an hour. When that thing comes on I immediately get up and move. My treadmill is going to get put back into action. I will walk and walk and walk while I read and write. Food is a top priority. No more overeating. No more sugar. No more wheat. I am done with them. I am going to do carb cycling. 6 days of low carb eating and 1 day of high carb. In general, I will try to keep my calories around 1500 and on high carb day, 2500. That is it. And move, move, move.

That is it. I'm shocked. I'm shocked that I thought this wouldn't happen. I'm shocked how far in the sand my head has been stuck. I'm just plain shocked.