10 December 2015

Well that went well......

My plan was to write here more regularly and it's been 4 days since I've been here. That doesn't work very well. I feel like I'm stuck. Stuck and I'm not sure how to get out. Here's the deal:

First, I've put the Ph.D. on hold because of money. I'm hoping to come up with a way to finish it, but I'm not seeing anything yet. Of course, it's been about 2 weeks, so I may be jumping the gun. I need to find a way and I need to be open when it presents itself.

Second, I just learned that Phoenix is not going to hire me. I'm not sure this is a bad thing. I'm still not sure it was worth it. I spent 5 weeks facilitating that course and make $1100. Wow. That is a lot of work for not a whole lot of money. I wasn't sure I wanted to do it to begin with, so I'm okay with that. I just feel bad because they didn't want me :( They were supposed to want me and I was supposed to turn them down. Ha, childish, I know.

Third, the complete lack of activity. I think I've decided to return to Crossfit. I'm going to just go 8 times a month to begin and see how it works out. I'm looking forward to it and dreading it at the same time. I really want a kick ass workout, but I'm so afraid of getting hurt again. Plus the money. Crossfit is expensive and I've just gotten the money under control. Oh well, I'll try it over Christmas break and see what happens.

I think for the one of the few times in my life, I have problems and I'm not sure how to get out of it. I just don't know what I should do or which way I should turn. It is tough. I'm not used to being in this position. I usually always know what should be done, or at least I make a decision. This limbo I find myself in is annoying and taxing to my system. Maybe during my Christmas break I can figure something out.

Anyway, that's it. I'm in limbo and feel a bit stuck. Maybe if I just get moving, physically, things will help. I don't know.......

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