19 March 2005

Why, oh why, do I do this???

I decided to start my program back up on Monday; I don't know, there's just something about Mondays that seem so fresh and a great place to start.

So for lunch I had a Jack in the Box Southwest Chicken salad and a LARGE Crunchy Malted Candy Shake. A LARGE!! Not a Medium or even a Small; A fucking LARGE!!!!!! I mean seriously, what the fuck was I thinking?????? That shake was more calories than the salad WITH dressing!!! I'm a freaking moron sometimes!!!! Because of this fucking shake, my calorie count for the day is 4100!!! 4100!!!! That's almost 3 days of calories. Now I won't be able to eat at all tomorrow.... No, not really but that's what I feel like. Oh yeah, well I could have thrown some of it away but did I?? NO!!!!! I drank the whole fucking thing!!!! Okay, enough beating myself up. I just needed a little self-flogging!!!!!

I plan to straighten my eating out tomorrow. I'm going to get up in the morning and go for a walk or a bike ride, and them probably go out to breakfast with Charlie nd then do my shopping for the week. After that it will be home and housework the rest of the day. NO FAST FOOD!!!!

Okay, enough. More later.......

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