18 May 2005

Funny how things seem to show up just when you

need them. After my little rant yesterday about being fat, I read Renee's blog and she managed to write exactly what I needed to hear.

She was writing about "results not typical" and how she fights for her weightloss and fitness every step of the way. That's exactly how I am and sometimes I need to hear other people fighting the same fight. It takes me an inordinate amount of time to create a "lifestyle change" and it drives me crazy to hear or read people saying "Oh, I stopped eating after 7 pm and lost 150lbs." My god, it took me years to break the eating at night habit and I still find it sneaking in if I'm not vigilant.

I started this weight loss journey in 1998. I still have not reached my goal. I am not yet in the shape I want to be in. But I keep on fighting and trying and am making progress a little bit every day. I will still pick junk food over healthy food if I don't "talk myself down." I will still choose laziness over activity if I don't kick myself in the butt. I fight every single day for every success and it's hard. I don't automatically make good choices; I have to think each decision through and most of the time force myself to do the right thing. Only recently have I actually realized that fruit will substitute for something sweet.

I am only 15lbs from my goal and I've been here for a long time. I don't know when I will reach my goal or if I ever will. I do know I'm fighting every single day to do the best I can and to make the best choices I can. It would be nice if one day these things became automatic and I no longer need to think about everything that goes in my mouth or every move I made, but I'm not counting on it. I think this is a fight I will be fighting the rest of my life. However, I am making progress in other ways. I am stronger, have more muscle, and am healthier than I have ever been in my life and that is defintely important. So like Renee, you can title my life = Results pretty typical..........

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

:) Great post, very insightful.

Anonymous said...

Uh...unknown was me...lol

Anonymous said...

Whoa, something is up w/blogger this morning.

Renee aka unknown ;)

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