02 October 2005

If you chose not to decide you still have made a choice.

And that's pretty much wheat I've been doing lately; making decisions by not making any decisions. For the past 2 weeks I haven't been doing much of anything. I've been reading the blogs and it seems lots of folks are having trouble with motivation, inspiration, mojo, whatever you want to call it so at least I don't feel all alone. However, I really thought the other bloggers were going through it because of being on the mainland and the fall starting. But I'm here in Hawaii we don't have seasons (well, not with huge temperature flucuations anyway) so why is this effecting me???? I don't have the answer; I really don't know what's happening but I do know I need to get off my ass and get over this.

Since the Na Wahine 2 weeks ago I've only run 4 times (I should have run 6) and walked the dogs. That's it! That's all!! What the hell am I thinking?? Yesterday I went for my marathon training. We ran for 2 hours and I thought I was going to die. By the end of the run I was in such pain I couldn't believe it. That pretty much clinched it for me. I have got to get back on the exercise wagon. So I sat down today and worked out a new program I'm going to try and then went shopping and am all ready for next week.

I've really been feeling down and am not sure why or what's going on. We have had rain here for the past 2 weekends and it is depressing when it's hot and sunny all week and then rainy and dreary on the weekends.

Side note: I'm watching an obesity program on TLC and they were just explaining how exercise increases your dopamine receptors in your brain so it literally makes you feel better even when your not exercising because you have more receptors. Yet another reason to get off my ass...

So I've got my food; I've got my plan; I've got my list of things to do everyday (I'm the worst procrastinator in the world) and I've got the desire to get back on track. I think I'm ready to go.

1 comment:

:) said...

mmany of us are going throught the same struggles...don't feel lonely. just get out there and do something! :)

Sometimes you have to take a step back

 that's what I did this week. I did not look or think about my business all week. Okay, that's not entirely true, I thought about it...