What a swim!!!!

This morning I almost took off. I have one of those memory foam pillows and apparently it died the other day. I've been waking up every morning with a sore neck and it took me all week to figure it out - DOH!!!!! Anyway, hubby also has one that he doesn't use. So last night I took his and my neck felt much better this morning; still sore but not as sore as usual in the morning. So I woke up this morning and felt pretty good and thought, "ahhhh, I'll take the morning off" but then almost immediately changed my mind and jumped out of bed. Then it was off to the pool.

I have been swimming pretty low mileage, 300 - 500m, so I decided to go long since I'm not running this morning. I pulled out a good 2000m workout and headed out. The numbers broke down like this:

400m swim: 11:00
4 x 25m (:05): 2:55
4 x 25m (:10): 2:40
4 x 25m (:15): 3:11
100m hard: 2:13
400m pull: 11:23
100m side: 3:06
100m breast: 3:15
100m back: 3.:22
100m side: 3:03

Total: 2000m in 51:22 not setting the pool on fire, but I'll take it. More importantly, I felt great. I could have kept swimming but no need to go crazy.


The following takes place between 8:57 and 9:10 am (god, I HATE 24) and is a lot of self analysis so you may want to skip this.
Why do I have such a hard time pushing myself??? I find I give up way too easy. I almost gave up this morning during my swim. The only reason I kept going was because I had lots of time left. If time had been tight I would have bagged it and left. Why???? Why do I throw in the towel so quickly? Why do I do that???? I'm slow, I know that, and the only way I'm going to get faster is to push the envelope now and then, yet I have a hard time doing that. Why? I don't think I have the answers, god knows I wish I did, I hope being aware of it will help. Now I know I tend to do this, hopefully I'll be able to fight it off. When I do overcome it and push myself I feel great, like this morning. It really empowers me to go further. Maybe that's it. I'm back to fake it till you feel it. If I push myself once, the next time may be easier, and the next time easier, and the next time eas....... Wow, I may be on to something here. That's why I like this blog. Writing it out helps figure it out a lot of times. Now, due to scheduling problems I'm going to do my long bike tomorrow and my long run on Sunday (I prefer that anyway) but then I can't run on Monday. Oh wait, it just hit me, why don't I run Weds, Fri, and Sun; bike Tues, Thurs, and Sat; swim Mon, Weds, Fri. There we go, see, writing it down really helps me work it out. That's it, I'll just switch up the schedule a little. That will give me Monday as a "rest" day after a big weekend. Okay, got it. Off to work now.