I'm slowly getting over Mango's untimely death. Her cage is sitting in the corner of this room and I just can't bring myself to clean it out. I will, in time, just not yet. I did vacuum earlier and there were a ton of feathers on the floor. She really lost a lot of feathers in the last couple of days.
I've also done some research on mast cell tumors and am actually quite hopeful. We won't know what's going on until the excision and the x-ray. Once they determine if it's spread or not, how far, etc, they will determine the stage it's in and the appropriate treatment. Rocco's appt. is Friday so we'll see then. I can't change anything so worrying about it does no good. I'll just have to wait until Friday and see where we go from here.
I went yesterday and looked at a sulfur crested cockatoo that's available for adoption. Turns out these people can't tell a male from a female (in a cockatoo it's pretty easy), the bird is a serious plucker, and she gets carsick. Since I would most likely be taking this bird to work everyday I don't think that would work.
Right now I don't think I want another bird anyway. I have my little cockatiel and I think she'll have to do for a while. I still feel so horribly guilty over Mangos death, I'm not ready to take on another bird yet.
I wasn't in the mood for working out this morning but I figured it would help my mood, I was right. So I dragged myself out the door for a walk. I ended up walking 5 miles while listening to a book on my iPod. It definitely helped.
That's it, that's all I've got today.
4 comments:
Oh Flo! I'm so sorry to hear about Mango and Rocco. These creatures bring such joy to our lives and when we lose them, or they get sick, it is so hard to deal with all the emotion that we feel. Take good care of yourself.
You don't have to take a new bird now, or ever. You'll know when the time is right. Maybe you'll see some sad little critter who needs you, and even though you're not ready, you'll know that s/he can't wait. You'll take this lovely creature home and find you've got a real sweetie, and you'll know that it wasn't just the right decision, but one of your best.
Be patient with yourself. You'll know when it's time.
It will take time to get over your loss, so don't worry about rushing things. And good for you, you got out and did something besides mope. That's hard enough by itself sometimes, but at least the payoff is good.
Flo we are so much alike it's funny. I forgot to mention to you that I'm horrible on the hills like you mentioned earlier. I'm sure it doesn't help me that I live in a flat area. I can get hills if I want to drive an hour. What's the terrain like around you?
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