Facing my demons

Okay, I think I may have figured out my problem. It's hard to explain so you'll just have to take my word for it. I did a lot of thinking and writing last night and when I came across this particular idea the tension seemed to leave my body. The heavy weight that I had been carrying since Sunday morning seemed to lift. So I'm pretty sure I've hit the nail on the head. Well, tonight I test it out. Tonight, on my way home, I'm stopping for an ocean swim. Frankly I'm hoping it's a little windy and a little rough, I need to face the demon head on and the worse the water the better to beat it back. I will let you know later how this epic battle plays out.

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Comm's said…
facing the demon inside us is often the lonelist battle we ever fight but the most important of our life
2:45 PM
Ladyrunner said…
I hope it turns out great!
5:46 PM
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